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and bake"/><category term="wake-up call"/><category term="watching a storm"/><category term="water alkalyzer"/><category term="water hash"/><category term="wedding anniversary"/><category term="what causes cancer"/><category term="what to do when you call in sick"/><category term="what to get a Cancer Patient"/><category term="white bread"/><category term="whole foods diet"/><category term="why me?"/><category term="wikipedia"/><category term="wolves"/><category term="wound care"/><category term="wound infection"/><category term="wrong war with wrong country that attacked us"/><category term="wrongful arrests"/><category term="x-ray"/><category term="x-rays duodendum"/><category term="yeast infection."/><category term="yes we carve"/><category term="yorkie"/><category term="young punk got his ass whooped"/><category term="zoning laws San Jose"/><title type='text'>ShoppingKharma: What comes around goes around</title><subtitle type='html'>A blog that details my struggles on beating advanced Ovarian Cancer, what good karma is to me, judging others by their heart &amp;amp; soul; and realizing the importance of right now. Actions speak louder than words &amp;amp; what comes around goes around.&lt;br&gt;&#xa;&#xa;WARNING: Some Content may be Objectionable to some. This is a very tough battle &amp;amp; I don&amp;#39;t intend to hold anything back on what I am facing. This is not a blog for the faint hearted, the greedy, or those who lack a sense of humor.</subtitle><link rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#feed' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shoppingkharma.blogspot.com/feeds/posts/default'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/1001743008732915964/posts/default?redirect=false'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shoppingkharma.blogspot.com/'/><link rel='hub' href='http://pubsubhubbub.appspot.com/'/><link rel='next' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/1001743008732915964/posts/default?start-index=26&amp;max-results=25&amp;redirect=false'/><author><name>Shopping Kharma</name><uri>http://www.blogger.com/profile/13510990791844041645</uri><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='32' height='32' src='//blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpZPhWlZMIaLmkt04MsV0AQahVcbDkAiGOZPnbossNnicbJT-syTFenwG_j4HGa_HXBtBjfCmVl2g_twdSZ8Z2hqGWCM2RIyN26bjwn_QLheP4xI5OXHp44hj-ftztZQ/s220/33SS4091.jpg'/></author><generator version='7.00' uri='http://www.blogger.com'>Blogger</generator><openSearch:totalResults>353</openSearch:totalResults><openSearch:startIndex>1</openSearch:startIndex><openSearch:itemsPerPage>25</openSearch:itemsPerPage><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1001743008732915964.post-5884137067872932259</id><published>2011-03-07T12:52:00.000-08:00</published><updated>2011-03-07T12:52:30.037-08:00</updated><title type='text'>To All The Friends Of My Sweet Jayne</title><content type='html'>&lt;div dir=&quot;ltr&quot; style=&quot;text-align: left;&quot; trbidi=&quot;on&quot;&gt;This is Jayne&#39;s husband Jimmy. &amp;nbsp;This is my first post to Jayne&#39;s famous blog.&lt;br /&gt;
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  3. Jayne passed away peacefully this morning. &amp;nbsp;She did not appear to be in any pain.&lt;br /&gt;
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  5. This blog was very important to her in chronicling her battle with this terrible disease. &amp;nbsp;Your support and love she received through the comments on the blog were truly inspirational to her and helped her to continue to fight and to continue to enjoy her life. &amp;nbsp;I loved hearing her recite all your comments to me. &amp;nbsp;It was very important to Jayne to use this blog to share knowledge so others could learn through her experience: &amp;nbsp;including patients, loved ones, and medical professionals alike. &amp;nbsp;For so many people who are newly diagnosed, it is the unknown things to come that are the scariest. &amp;nbsp;This was a way for Jayne to share her ideas and experiences in combatting this disease. &amp;nbsp;It is my hope that this blog will continue to be a resource for people, even now that Jayne is gone.&lt;br /&gt;
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  7. I told Jayne when the time came the Spirit Horse would come to take her to the other side. &amp;nbsp;That horse&#39;s name was Graple, which is short for the Grey Appaloosa she had as a child.&lt;br /&gt;
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  9. While she was living, I always told her and all of our friends that she was the angel that walks amongst us; now she flies amongst us.&lt;br /&gt;
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  11. Thanks again for all your support and love,&lt;br /&gt;
  12. Jimmy&lt;br /&gt;
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  18. Well my dad has been here too and I have been filled with fun and lots of help.&amp;nbsp; Blue Belle is loving the extra walks with grandpa; I should have more photos of my dad with with such a such a cute little girl!&amp;nbsp; She has such a great time with here and of course the men like to go out at night and enjoy a good sports bars&amp;nbsp; with lots of man sports which I totally understand.&lt;br /&gt;
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  20. Just want to wish you all Peace and LOVE TO ALL YOU!! &lt;br /&gt;
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style=&quot;text-align: left;&quot; trbidi=&quot;on&quot;&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOm754QCR6M2tnYuvXuEe9nDpFOmYvB6gUvrkzx3GnJF64Jegs39Gbz3eX3afk3LkkZE_WZi16BzX4PfsBw3qnAJfjaSAQGDsOdFfANVrD3dECmA81bfLl5jsDBwLZElw5WOIG7bRvJWM/s1600/_MG_7590.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOm754QCR6M2tnYuvXuEe9nDpFOmYvB6gUvrkzx3GnJF64Jegs39Gbz3eX3afk3LkkZE_WZi16BzX4PfsBw3qnAJfjaSAQGDsOdFfANVrD3dECmA81bfLl5jsDBwLZElw5WOIG7bRvJWM/s320/_MG_7590.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;I&#39;m going to tell you all the most amazing true story about what my husband did for me this week and of course one good friend who helped us. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Yeah it could suck to be me if I didn&#39;t have such a bad ass husband by my side to slay some cancer ass if we can!&amp;nbsp; We always have hope and I&#39;m also very aware of what we are facing as we enjoy every waking moment we can with each other. &amp;nbsp; I&#39;m so freaking thankful that his job is allowing for him to be so passionate enough to take such great care of me.&amp;nbsp; He&#39;s better than&amp;nbsp; most of the nurses and I trust him a lot more in helping with so much that he does.&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t help but gush about how wonderful my husband is to me as I survive what seems to be the most impossible. &amp;nbsp; How can I just be walking around on such skinny little match stick legs?&amp;nbsp; How can I still be alive with this big huge knot looking thing on my right shoulder or have such crazy looking&amp;nbsp; medical devices just making room in the shrinking body?&amp;nbsp; Life really is a miracle for me as I go from one part of life to the next life. &amp;nbsp; His undying love for me never stops a beat and it always makes me smile from the gut of my cancer ridden stomach to the smile that he&amp;nbsp; creates on my face!)&amp;nbsp; Of course he always makes me laugh and I always knew I would marry the first man who could really make me laugh and of course tell me the best stories. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; He just has this way about him and I&#39;m positive there are hundreds more who swear by him; he is one of those rare men that you don&#39;t find just everyday.&amp;nbsp; Once you have him a friend; you have him for life; I could never be attracted to anyone else which will make waiting on the other side all more harder.&lt;br /&gt;
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  29. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnyNVWZIv0b8jszgcSN4MwqvrpDjB3mKj2mqL0O3IWn2-QEK5ewmcd-_84H38YPTyZLsUPAB2sBXxH2yn2Dweob0nrxYHZOIfgZB69ed2lW-sCI0OvcyA8x-z0fcBzZ3VfSma-KBxwZ_k/s1600/DSCN285220110204_011057.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnyNVWZIv0b8jszgcSN4MwqvrpDjB3mKj2mqL0O3IWn2-QEK5ewmcd-_84H38YPTyZLsUPAB2sBXxH2yn2Dweob0nrxYHZOIfgZB69ed2lW-sCI0OvcyA8x-z0fcBzZ3VfSma-KBxwZ_k/s320/DSCN285220110204_011057.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;I guess it was about Tuesday the day before when I got a phone call that I needed to go in the next day (Wednesday) to get my pain pump&amp;nbsp; refilled; well we&#39;ve been getting the most amazing rain storm and the temperature has been very cold; perfect I would say if only I had the strength and meat on my bones to sustain me enough to go snowboarding;&amp;nbsp; OMG! would that be so freaking awesome!&amp;nbsp; so yes all this beautiful wonderful rain has been killing me; I&#39;ve been dreaming of snowboarding quite a bit of course.&amp;nbsp; I hope all the people out there are having a blast!&amp;nbsp; Anyway, I told my honey immediately that we needed to fill my pain pump and I was kind of worried that this might kink up some plans, but no he made it all work!). &amp;nbsp; He was on the ball and how very proud of him I am. for that; I don&#39;t think I could ever expect any less of him. &amp;nbsp; I feel that every woman&amp;nbsp; fighting this monster called cancer needs a Jimmy!&amp;nbsp; The world would be so much better!&amp;nbsp; I hope there are many other women out there who also have their Jimmy&#39;s because suffering with this disease&amp;nbsp; alone is nearly impossible; there really are lots of heroes out there fighting cancer along side us that we need not leave out or forget about and I know I&#39;m not the only one! &amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
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  33. My honey was planning to find a wheelchair&amp;nbsp; in order to wheel me up to the 4th floor where&amp;nbsp; he could first meet up with his point of contract (I can&#39;t use names and must keep anonymity&amp;nbsp; for these helpful souls at the hospital; I love them all so dearly for what they do for us&amp;nbsp; and would never endanger them for helping me survive this disease those extra days.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m always grateful for more time and I&#39;m getting it right now. &amp;nbsp; Anyway, my honey waited first with me until his point of contract met us with us so that he could drop me off to the&amp;nbsp; pharmacy to pick up my heavy duty pain medications which I was running low on. &amp;nbsp; Actually he sat and waited with me until his point of contact (an incredible male nurse supervisor?) who always manages my pain pump; it really is a new thing and many know nothing about my weird internal contraption so it&#39;s important to have all the right people there when my pain pump is ready to be serviced like this.&amp;nbsp; I only waited maybe 5 minutes, when his point of contact arrived to take me downstairs to where I would get my pump refilled and even turned up some so that I wouldn&#39;t have to endure much more of the Dilaudid.&lt;br /&gt;
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  37. &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/How-Marijuana-Step-Step-Medical/dp/0595450865?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Medical marijuana &lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0595450865&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;is also helping me curb the nausea which is totally unreal.&amp;nbsp; It takes certain strains and I&#39;m grateful my friend just found the right one.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s working for right now.&amp;nbsp; Everyday is a new day for me. &amp;nbsp; I&#39;m still trying to find that out; it&#39;s kind of my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/My-Life-Experiment-Becoming-Washington/dp/B004KAB4GA?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;life experiment&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B004KAB4GA&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;?&amp;nbsp; Pretty fascinating I hope?&amp;nbsp; I like to think that I don&#39;t go through these sort of things for nothing? &amp;nbsp; Well while I was being set up for my pump refill , my sweet honey was down in the pharmacy picking up my pain medications. &amp;nbsp; Now he had even coordinated this move which used to take him a total of 2 hours and irritating to have to do twice a month since they wouldn&#39;t dare give us more than a 2 week supply most of the time.&amp;nbsp; I actually don&#39;t have that &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Healing-Addictive-Personality-Yourself-Relationships/dp/1587613158?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;addictive personality&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1587613158&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; but yes some drugs do hook people in a horrible way just going &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Cold-Turkey-Dick-Van-Dyke/dp/B003B3O5GS?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;cold turkey&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003B3O5GS&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and I found that out when I got my pain pump inserted and had to deal with Fentanol withdrawal which was not fun.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; My sweetie got me through that ordeal too!&amp;nbsp; He makes feel so much stronger!&amp;nbsp; I am one lucky woman to have such a man!&lt;br /&gt;
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  39. Well the last couple of months of being on &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Hospice-Palliative-Care-Essential-Guide/dp/0415993563?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;hospice care&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0415993563&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; has been much better. &amp;nbsp; So back to my internal pain pump refill; my honey had just refilled my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Opium-Masses-Harvesting-Natures-Medication/dp/1932595465?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;pain medications&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1932595465&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and in an instant he was already there in time for them to stick the needle into my tummy in order to fill up my pain pump.&amp;nbsp; I reached behind me for his warm hand to hold and he grabbed my hand just as I was about to start screaming from the size of the needle.&amp;nbsp; Yes, needles still terrify the living shit out of me! OMG! &amp;nbsp; I have no idea why that needle makes me cringe and cry each time but he grabbed my hand and made it all better!)&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I was so happy my pain doctor even came down to check on me and was able to accommodate turning up the pump so I that I might be able to cut down on the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/HYDROMORPHONE-Macmillan-Reference-Encyclopedia-Addictive/dp/B000M4QN4Q?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Dilaudid&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000M4QN4Q&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  40. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiR-71cDtXG61zMSmnus4pI3SD1z893Mgsiz0c5OmbFTea-9qMsehW10hjNqfFVC70U_KlcrS-IWtdsBkcnI_GF4gl4pQMVxSy1OPOZZIWhi9b9aBzv6vcaua2ykavDUfkaTkfxw3OVaPk/s1600/DSCN281620110122_011232.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiR-71cDtXG61zMSmnus4pI3SD1z893Mgsiz0c5OmbFTea-9qMsehW10hjNqfFVC70U_KlcrS-IWtdsBkcnI_GF4gl4pQMVxSy1OPOZZIWhi9b9aBzv6vcaua2ykavDUfkaTkfxw3OVaPk/s320/DSCN281620110122_011232.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;We were practically in and out of the hospital with everything we needed in less than 20-25 minutes!&amp;nbsp; He even refilled prescriptions and most importantly; we got my&amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.pharmedium.com/pages/intrathecal_services/69.php&quot;&gt;intrathecal pain pump&lt;/a&gt; (huge &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Tobacco-Brands-Golden-Virginia-Grizzly/dp/1157477186?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Skoal Can&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1157477186&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; on my Tummy) refilled. &amp;nbsp; My honey helped me into a wheelchair and&amp;nbsp; then he wheeled me right down the hall to&amp;nbsp; the front waiting area where our ride was waiting.&amp;nbsp; He helped me into the car from the wheelchair and we were on our way; we made it home in no time. &amp;nbsp; I know I should just take that shit for granted; but I just can&#39;t; I appreciate all that he is to me and am grateful for such a wonderful man. &lt;br /&gt;
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  42. I was a little panic stricken over how I would manage my pain control since I was not down with taking oral &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Methadone-Drug-Treatment-Works-Doesnt/dp/1432750747?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Methadone&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1432750747&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; (it has the most putrid taste ever and I can&#39;t get rid of that taste in my mouth unless I eat pickle which are overly acidic in my poor little unworking tummy.&amp;nbsp; My tummy is basically a general holding area for puke because if anything does make it to my tummy; it&#39;s right to the puke bowl in about 5-15 minutes.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; It sucks and boy does it get tiring I&#39;m sure of listening to that nastiness. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  43. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;My honey has another friend who is also in my similar situation; he&amp;nbsp; too has a sweet wife whom he takes very good care of and he&amp;nbsp; loves her&amp;nbsp; dearly; she needs his help in her life and its so sad to think of her loosing him and I hope and pray she has many more&amp;nbsp; family and friends who can&amp;nbsp; help take care of her; yes there are always those in far worse situations than you ever thought that you would be in.&amp;nbsp; In life you can either take the position of a victim (which is quite annoying I must say! = just my humble opinion)&amp;nbsp; or you can try to conquer what you can; do your best! &amp;nbsp; Work with your partner which I love doing each day!&amp;nbsp; He makes my life the best!&amp;nbsp; He rules! &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; and it does prove that you really do need lots of love to get through a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Poster-watchword-controlEarly-diagnosis-treatment/dp/B004IZ9ORS?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Cancer Diagnosis&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B004IZ9ORS&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; hell we all need it in life.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
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  45. Alright back to my awesome husband. We are talking about our friends; they&amp;nbsp; are dealing with what they have to deal with as well.&amp;nbsp; His friend was also not down with taking either of those oral nasty liquid medications; they had burned his throat to no end and were more than likely doing the same for me.&amp;nbsp; My throat always burns and I always have the worst heart burn every. &amp;nbsp; He too was prescribed the exact same pain medications that I have prescribed for me. You can&#39;t quit cold turkey on the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Inside-Methadone-Clinic-Industry-Berry/dp/158736882X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Methadone&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=158736882X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; because I think it takes like 24 hours for you to relapse and to seriously have the worst pain ever and then have to deal with trying to catch up on the pain you could possibly suffer from being eaten alive by cancer.&amp;nbsp; I was facing having to deal with severe cramping from the cancer&amp;nbsp; pain and scar tissues from ALL those surgeries that&amp;nbsp; I&amp;nbsp; have had.&lt;br /&gt;
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  47. I have also&amp;nbsp; had enough of the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Addiction-Whats-Really-Going-Treatment-ebook/dp/B00403NQXQ?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Methadone&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B00403NQXQ&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and of course that horrid, horrid, taste; oh and freaking out when the actual medicine makes it on top of taste bud; then panicking to&amp;nbsp; try hard to stuff a pickle in my mouth fast enough to in order to get rid of that taste; ewww that taste;&amp;nbsp; it makes me&amp;nbsp; yack just thinking about it!(&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Oh it doesn&#39;t even stop there,&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m also puking up pickles which really didn&#39;t feel so good coming back up and they do have this funny taste when they come back up.&amp;nbsp; I almost felt like a cow chewing cudd and regurgitating?&lt;br /&gt;
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  49. &amp;nbsp; I just could not stomach any more of that &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Methadone-Maintenance-Treatment-U-S-Practical/dp/0826101305?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Methadone&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0826101305&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; .&amp;nbsp; There was no way in hell I was going to take it again; so I refused and was now going to take my chances on quitting cold turkey. &amp;nbsp; I couldn&#39;t put that shit in my mouth again.&amp;nbsp; My honey called the hospice nurse the following day&amp;nbsp; to let her know of my stubborn ways; that&#39;s OK to be that way; you can only take so much in life.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I actually couldn&#39;t stomach either one of them.&amp;nbsp; The &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/German-Inventions-Amphetamine-Thalidomide-Hydromorphone/dp/1156890969?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Dilaudid&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1156890969&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; is so incredibly overly sweet and chemically tasting like &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Vicks-NyQuil-Relief-LiquiCaps-40-count/dp/B003CP15UO?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;cold medicine&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003CP15UO&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;? It&#39;s sweet in a nauseating kind of way!&amp;nbsp; Imagine having to take cold medicine every single day; every hour on the hour sometimes; of course I couldn&#39;t do that; 8 doses has been my max I believe.&amp;nbsp; I have had lots of painful days to deal with; that&#39;s makes it hard for me sometimes to do anything but veg out on the couch.&amp;nbsp; Despite all this; one man makes me more than happy to keep on trugging through this!&amp;nbsp; Oh how I love him is such an understatement!&lt;br /&gt;
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  51. Anyway, my hospice nurse came up with the most brilliant solution ever; actually my honey figured out the perfect way to administer my nasty ass &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Knowledge-Methadone-Maintenance-Treatment-ebook/dp/B000PY4BCE?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Methadone&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000PY4BCE&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; through my G-Tube!&amp;nbsp; Yeah!&amp;nbsp; I didn&#39;t know we could even do this but he can give it to me in less than 1 minute.&amp;nbsp; Since my G-Tube has been mostly for decompression I have to sit still for about 20 minutes and try my best not to drink anything.&amp;nbsp; He gets a syringe and unscrews part of my G-Tube and then screws it back in after he gives me my prescribed dose and then he amazingly uses another large syringe with just enough water to wash it into my tummy and the rest has been history!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m not suffering in nearly the pain I had been and only wish I had been doing this all along! Wish we could do the same for the Dilaudid?&amp;nbsp; We will see.&amp;nbsp; For now I&#39;m happy see more of these wonderful rainy days where I can day dream about our fun adventures that we have had together! and we have had a lot!&lt;br /&gt;
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  54. I also feel that music can help so many of us to heal.&amp;nbsp; Just turning  off the TV and listening to music can improve your mood significantly.&amp;nbsp;  Watching some of this worthless crap on TV can make you dummer, maybe a little psychotic, some even wanting to murder others; how could anyone put shit on TV to make people hate one another?&amp;nbsp; How can they live with themselves selling their soul like that?; especially many of  those news programs; don&#39;t ever believe everything you hear and always question the source. &amp;nbsp; It sucks that more and more dishonesty is coming out in journalism?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; It just takes a buck to change a fact? That&#39;s just the way it is.&amp;nbsp; Look at all those insurance commercials; we aren&#39;t paying for more coverage; we are paying for total annoyance ;all those worthless, monotonous ads on TV that are intrusive, loud, and totally obnoxious.&amp;nbsp; Turn that shit off and Listen to some good music instead of lies!&amp;nbsp; Rock out!&lt;br /&gt;
  55. Peace and Love to all of you!&lt;/div&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;blogger-post-footer&quot;&gt;http://shoppingkharma.blogspot.com/feeds/posts/default?alt=rss&lt;/div&gt;</content><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shoppingkharma.blogspot.com/feeds/2158639847216424236/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=1001743008732915964&amp;postID=2158639847216424236' title='18 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/1001743008732915964/posts/default/2158639847216424236'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/1001743008732915964/posts/default/2158639847216424236'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shoppingkharma.blogspot.com/2011/02/my-awesome-husband-saga-continues.html' title='My Awesome Husband Saga Continues....'/><author><name>Shopping Kharma</name><uri>http://www.blogger.com/profile/13510990791844041645</uri><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='32' height='32' src='//blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpZPhWlZMIaLmkt04MsV0AQahVcbDkAiGOZPnbossNnicbJT-syTFenwG_j4HGa_HXBtBjfCmVl2g_twdSZ8Z2hqGWCM2RIyN26bjwn_QLheP4xI5OXHp44hj-ftztZQ/s220/33SS4091.jpg'/></author><media:thumbnail xmlns:media="http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/" url="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOm754QCR6M2tnYuvXuEe9nDpFOmYvB6gUvrkzx3GnJF64Jegs39Gbz3eX3afk3LkkZE_WZi16BzX4PfsBw3qnAJfjaSAQGDsOdFfANVrD3dECmA81bfLl5jsDBwLZElw5WOIG7bRvJWM/s72-c/_MG_7590.jpg" height="72" width="72"/><thr:total>18</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1001743008732915964.post-5867703926615274522</id><published>2011-02-15T09:50:00.000-08:00</published><updated>2011-02-16T03:32:40.690-08:00</updated><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="End of life care"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="low potassium and electrolytes"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="medicinal marijuana"/><category scheme="http://www.blogger.com/atom/ns#" term="rolling veins"/><title type='text'>Happy Valentine&#39;s Day = LOVE &#39;s HOLIDAY....</title><content type='html'>&lt;div dir=&quot;ltr&quot; style=&quot;text-align: left;&quot; trbidi=&quot;on&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiR-71cDtXG61zMSmnus4pI3SD1z893Mgsiz0c5OmbFTea-9qMsehW10hjNqfFVC70U_KlcrS-IWtdsBkcnI_GF4gl4pQMVxSy1OPOZZIWhi9b9aBzv6vcaua2ykavDUfkaTkfxw3OVaPk/s1600/DSCN281620110122_011232.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiR-71cDtXG61zMSmnus4pI3SD1z893Mgsiz0c5OmbFTea-9qMsehW10hjNqfFVC70U_KlcrS-IWtdsBkcnI_GF4gl4pQMVxSy1OPOZZIWhi9b9aBzv6vcaua2ykavDUfkaTkfxw3OVaPk/s320/DSCN281620110122_011232.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;I know it&#39;s been a while since I last posted and to be quite honest I have been busy dealing with lots of pain in my body and an abundant amount&amp;nbsp; of nausea.  Part of the love that I feel so strongly for my husband is how aware he is of what is going on with my body.&amp;nbsp; He senses things that might not be right; he gets scared as most normally would in keeping his love alive or to be enjoying just one more day with her!&amp;nbsp; I am always grateful for that one more day; yes we are doing this one day at a time; we can&#39;t compound more stress than what is completely necessary.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s very stressful for both of us. &amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t bite more than I can chew!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  57. &lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjUA5DZUw4K9ztx_7LY6dWSmxORKs0R6fccwlfiK4Wf9uXRikv49lFPFMdUtYFBvlf6JVZbLDcVwuvciWonDIf-jh_uSPg4bRQ-ey7noPp7I-4TXt1PrGXGZonOBIcX6oPZsmKnpFQFCTk/s1600/_MG_7603.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjUA5DZUw4K9ztx_7LY6dWSmxORKs0R6fccwlfiK4Wf9uXRikv49lFPFMdUtYFBvlf6JVZbLDcVwuvciWonDIf-jh_uSPg4bRQ-ey7noPp7I-4TXt1PrGXGZonOBIcX6oPZsmKnpFQFCTk/s320/_MG_7603.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt; It&#39;s a blessing for me if I am able to get outside and experience walking around in a grocery store or even to go shopping. &amp;nbsp; Well all that got knocked down since I have been getting dizzy from my blood pressure being down and I am struggling really hard trying to get potassium and electrolytes in my body.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m stuck on the couch and I do think &quot;my god what would I do if I didn&#39;t have my husband and family who try so hard to stick by me and visit to help him out.&amp;nbsp; My brother and my father are doing everything they can as well to help my honey out.&amp;nbsp; I am so thankful for my hospice team&amp;nbsp; who help me to live as comfortably as I can.&amp;nbsp; Quality of life is so important and it should be for all the other cancer patients out there who are suffering similar to me.&lt;br /&gt;
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  59. We are working on different concoctions and various things&amp;nbsp; for my nausea and pain; for now it&#39;s WHAT EVER WORKs, WORKS.&amp;nbsp; Sometimes its the pot, sometime its the other combination of drugs and chemicals.&amp;nbsp; I still find it hard to believe that there are so many who are against the chronically ill to be able to utilize the most powerful pain medication with minimal harmful side effects compared to &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.drugs.com/morphine.html&quot;&gt;morphine&lt;/a&gt;, &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0000591&quot;&gt;methadone&lt;/a&gt;, or &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0000545&quot;&gt;Dilaudid&lt;/a&gt;.&amp;nbsp; I couldn&#39;t not believe how snootie this woman was on the news and she judged people like me as dirt and scum because I happen to use cannabis for medicine.&amp;nbsp; She has never met me but yet she is frightened at what I would do to her children if they saw me?&amp;nbsp; Is she kidding?; I&#39;m fighting constipation every single day and that can kill most of these patients.&amp;nbsp; Maybe that&#39;s pretty damned scary for her?&amp;nbsp; It happens to be one of the symptoms that pot does NOT cause.&amp;nbsp; It sure does help provide me with more extra days with my loved ones and I&#39;m ultra grateful for that.&amp;nbsp; I deserve this extra time!&amp;nbsp; I know I was supposed to be gone a long time a go but I&#39;m still holding on.&amp;nbsp; I know this with personal experience.&amp;nbsp; San Jose, happens to have 103 dispensaries and I&#39;m grateful they will at least consider the law before shutting down 90% of them. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  60. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiTGLAYSQzKIOCMVSMRgNVi1aeOBNnzPqmaqM493oP4MaljAQepuVwEsHijMsPKCXnvdsjgcWgxU0UaOY5j2sMe46aXi6-pGKuetKuctEx3y4wHnT2T1q163__YvFj1SOvaOy8HnYCtQTM/s1600/DSCN285820110205_124211.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiTGLAYSQzKIOCMVSMRgNVi1aeOBNnzPqmaqM493oP4MaljAQepuVwEsHijMsPKCXnvdsjgcWgxU0UaOY5j2sMe46aXi6-pGKuetKuctEx3y4wHnT2T1q163__YvFj1SOvaOy8HnYCtQTM/s320/DSCN285820110205_124211.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;I finally got my blood drawn on Monday&amp;nbsp; by one of the&amp;nbsp; hospice nurses and boy was I one hard stick!&amp;nbsp; My veins appeared to looked so incredibly plentiful; well also despite teeny tiny and my veins looking very plentiful but BOY DO THOSE VEINS ROLL!&amp;nbsp; We had a hard time getting blood samples and then afterward I was incredibly weak as if I had given up a mass amount of blood; perhaps I needed a blood transfusion.&lt;br /&gt;
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  62. The nurse who drew my blood was incredibly cool and very sweet as I squealed like a baby stuffed pig after many sticks; we finally got one.&lt;br /&gt;
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  64. Hours later after the blood samples; I got a call from a doctor who was very concerned about my blood being low on potassium and electrolytes.&amp;nbsp; We actually got several phone calls of others who were equally concerned about my blood numbers; they looked very dangerously low. The doctor I was speaking too did some brainstorming to see what she could find.&amp;nbsp; She named off kinds of things that I might be able to try to eat to get my self back to more healthy.&amp;nbsp; I was finally excited! I could try to eat food even though I would most definitely puke it up but I sure tried to keep it down as much as I could.&amp;nbsp; Hell I have lots of hope even though it&#39;s looking very grim for me.&amp;nbsp; I know what my future is holding right and to survive &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Valentines-Day-Bradley-Cooper/dp/B002ZG99UE?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Valentines&#39; Day&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002ZG99UE&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; is a pure miracle.&amp;nbsp; Now I have some hope that I can eat lots of great food (I think all food is great at this point, I just hate that I puke it out most of the time).&amp;nbsp; I know my time is coming soon as I see my weight plummet to just 79lbs.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s breaking my heart more and more as I see my honey wake me and scared that I might not respond to loving calls to me.&lt;br /&gt;
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  66. Well these last couple of days have been spent on the couch trying to eat some good foods and then they only last in my tummy; at most 20 minutes.&amp;nbsp; I keep hoping that some of it might stay. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  67. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Well we did have a very wonderful visit with my brother.&amp;nbsp; He helped  me out so much and of course I had a crying fit when he left because I  love him so much; not to worry he will be out here soon enough I hope.&amp;nbsp;  My dad will be here soon to help take care of other things.&amp;nbsp; The day  before my brother left, we both had a lovely drive to &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Santa-Cruz-Skateboards-Pullover-Sweatshirt/dp/B000RAQ0SE?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Santa Cruz&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000RAQ0SE&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; to  visit with one of my favorite &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Created-Beautiful-Focus-Family-Womens/dp/0830733663?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;beautiful families&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0830733663&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and my brother in  fighting cancer.  It was great to get out even though it was just for a  little while.&amp;nbsp; We talked about old &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Collected-Memories-Beautiful-Birds-Post-Bound/dp/B002KKAX50?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;fun memories&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002KKAX50&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and enjoyed the  beautiful sea, salt and sun air!&amp;nbsp; It was so refreshing.&amp;nbsp; I started to  get sleepy and trying so hard to fight back the feeling of passing out.&amp;nbsp;  How embarrassing.&amp;nbsp; For now I&#39;m looking forward to seeing my dad for a few day and hope that I can continue to survive; I&#39;m a little scare and I spoke with the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Champlains-Dream-David-Hackett-Fischer/dp/1416593330?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Champlain&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1416593330&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; just a few weeks ago and due to do so again.&amp;nbsp; Getting a different perspective is important and to plan in case the inevitable happens.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s so scary but I have to face this.&amp;nbsp; I see all hard things so many of us have to face and its sad; I hope everyone else can at least appreciate what their bodies can do for them because you really don&#39;t know how much you appreciate until it&#39;s going.&amp;nbsp; I miss eating so much!&amp;nbsp; I am able to still eat only it doesn&#39;t get to stay in my system all that long.&amp;nbsp; The vomiting is a real thing and if only I could eat what anything of what any of you can rather than just boring TPN; that would be a true gift and I hope all of you cherish everything your body can do for you.&lt;br /&gt;
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  69. It&#39;s sad I know to talk with other women who have had children and then they get diagnosed with cancer and what a nightmare it is to live with that gloom.&amp;nbsp; I tried to cheer everyone up who is sad about something in their life because in reality we all have something that we are not happy about.&amp;nbsp; I hope these women can find the gift it was that they were able to be a mother ever for such a short time because some of us never get that pleasure.&amp;nbsp; Children really are the many joys in the world that I&#39;m thankful for.&lt;br /&gt;
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  71. My honey and I had&amp;nbsp; a nice little Valentine&#39;s day celebration; we are still celebrating.&amp;nbsp; My honey got me an nice little card and apparently my honey and I both have a little eye problem.&amp;nbsp; My honey apologized when he gave me the card and he told me the whole story of how he bought this card.&amp;nbsp; When he bought the card the cashier gave him a funny look when he bought the card but I feel she should have expressed her feelings?&amp;nbsp; The front of the card was hard enough for both of us to read and not even notice.&amp;nbsp; My honey had to tell me; he didn&#39;t get why the cashier looked at him funny when he bought the card. &amp;nbsp; The front of the card read &quot;The longer we&#39;re together, the more clearly I can see... I&#39;ve found exactly the right man to share my life...&quot;&amp;nbsp; OK he got me a card for a husband but you know what I still love him and would have probably bought this card for him which I told him.&amp;nbsp; We both cracked up!&amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
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  73. I wish all of you lots of hugs and Peace and Love!&amp;nbsp; No greed allowed here!&amp;nbsp; Treat others how you would want to be treated and give everyone you feel who deserves a chance!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  80. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;blogger-post-footer&quot;&gt;http://shoppingkharma.blogspot.com/feeds/posts/default?alt=rss&lt;/div&gt;</content><link rel='replies' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://shoppingkharma.blogspot.com/feeds/5867703926615274522/comments/default' title='Post Comments'/><link rel='replies' type='text/html' href='http://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=1001743008732915964&amp;postID=5867703926615274522' title='12 Comments'/><link rel='edit' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/1001743008732915964/posts/default/5867703926615274522'/><link rel='self' type='application/atom+xml' href='http://www.blogger.com/feeds/1001743008732915964/posts/default/5867703926615274522'/><link rel='alternate' type='text/html' href='http://shoppingkharma.blogspot.com/2011/02/happy-valentines-day-love-s-holiday.html' title='Happy Valentine&#39;s Day = LOVE &#39;s HOLIDAY....'/><author><name>Shopping Kharma</name><uri>http://www.blogger.com/profile/13510990791844041645</uri><email>noreply@blogger.com</email><gd:image rel='http://schemas.google.com/g/2005#thumbnail' width='32' height='32' src='//blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpZPhWlZMIaLmkt04MsV0AQahVcbDkAiGOZPnbossNnicbJT-syTFenwG_j4HGa_HXBtBjfCmVl2g_twdSZ8Z2hqGWCM2RIyN26bjwn_QLheP4xI5OXHp44hj-ftztZQ/s220/33SS4091.jpg'/></author><media:thumbnail xmlns:media="http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/" url="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiR-71cDtXG61zMSmnus4pI3SD1z893Mgsiz0c5OmbFTea-9qMsehW10hjNqfFVC70U_KlcrS-IWtdsBkcnI_GF4gl4pQMVxSy1OPOZZIWhi9b9aBzv6vcaua2ykavDUfkaTkfxw3OVaPk/s72-c/DSCN281620110122_011232.JPG" height="72" width="72"/><thr:total>12</thr:total></entry><entry><id>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1001743008732915964.post-4747264004321141326</id><published>2011-02-03T03:29:00.000-08:00</published><updated>2011-02-03T03:29:59.216-08:00</updated><title type='text'>The side effects of sitting around...</title><content type='html'>&lt;div dir=&quot;ltr&quot; style=&quot;text-align: left;&quot; trbidi=&quot;on&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOLXiYH6TTD9z-0Ox7wWGLiwpg2JBUJzXva3ro9alY9aQqycO75nKnL7Aq_7dYO44LX_l0J6TRML2bgJq_hOn3g4Y3VH_iMUU2D_Is0pJez_U4Jtxq4WFAVZyP7CksBQ404IV_eYCePmg/s1600/_MG_7618.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOLXiYH6TTD9z-0Ox7wWGLiwpg2JBUJzXva3ro9alY9aQqycO75nKnL7Aq_7dYO44LX_l0J6TRML2bgJq_hOn3g4Y3VH_iMUU2D_Is0pJez_U4Jtxq4WFAVZyP7CksBQ404IV_eYCePmg/s320/_MG_7618.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;I recently found this article that I thought might be benefitial to all of my readers and I agree whole heartedly.&amp;nbsp; Hell I have bruises on my ass that prove much of this:&lt;br /&gt;
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  82. &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.nursingschools.net/blog/2011/02/14-proven-side-effects-of-sitting-all-day/&quot;&gt;http://www.nursingschools.net/blog/2011/02/14-proven-side-effects-of-sitting-all-day/&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  84. Get up and enjoy what you have in life!&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m happy if I can get out of bed these days and certainly if I can go outside and enjoy some gold old Sunshine!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  86. Peace and Love to all of you!&lt;br /&gt;
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  95. I&#39;m actually in shock and awe as I see what some crazy people are willing to do in order to get rid of someone else&#39;s business; another person&#39;s body that they would like more control over.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I was completely shocked that the extreme right (wrong) would like to redefine &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.opposingviews.com/i/republicans-redefining-rape-so-women-can-t-get-abortions&quot;&gt;RAPE&lt;/a&gt;&quot; and limit one&#39;s access to the morning after pill and an abortion?&amp;nbsp; Limiting abortion is what they are touting this as.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s still very, very, evil.&amp;nbsp; Any kind of rape is wrong and are they somehow siding with rapists? I am against any woman who is held against her will, beaten, and/or violated completely.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s not fair to put these poor women through the whole phase of being re-victimized again and made&amp;nbsp; to look like a cold hearted killer&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; when she decides that &quot;SURPRISE&quot; she doesn&#39;t want to be pregnant with this shithead&#39;s child.&amp;nbsp; Why would anyone expect her to be?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  96. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;It&#39;s no one else&#39;s business what her decision might be.&amp;nbsp; I feel that&amp;nbsp; anyone who rapes should be castrated and or spayed if need be?.&amp;nbsp; There sure would not be any incentive (free education, free health care, room and board= all funded by taxpayers)to do so; prison really is no deterrent for these monsters and it is known that male dogs loose most of their aggression when they are castrated.&amp;nbsp; So these animals are no better than dogs; they don&#39;t deserve to force a woman to carry their illegitimate child and we don&#39;t deserve to force that woman to either.&amp;nbsp; Cells being a victem rather than actual human life?&amp;nbsp; Many people go through all kinds of surgeries and I feel castration for rapists is no exception. &amp;nbsp; That kind of violence is unacceptable no matter what; even date rape.&amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/When-No-Means-Date-Cd-Rom/dp/B004CHJR8I?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;NO means NO&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B004CHJR8I&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  97. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I couldn&#39;t believe my ears when I heard that GOP supporters would like to redefine &quot;RAPE&quot;.&amp;nbsp; &quot;Can you imagine telling &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Truth-About-Rape-1/dp/0966207815?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;a victim of date rape&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0966207815&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; -- or another form of  &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Rape-Recovery-Handbook-Step-Step/dp/1572243376?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;sexual assault&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1572243376&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; -- that they don&#39;t just count as rape survivors because  it wasn&#39;t so-called &quot;forcible rape&quot;? Well, with this H.R. 3 bill, that&#39;s  exactly what John Boehner and the GOP wants to do: tell these women  that they&#39;re not victims of a crime or that they DO NOT deserve the resources they need  to deal with their trauma.&quot;&amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t imagine this amount of EVIL because it is evil to be controlled against your will sexually?&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  98. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9DjUgKXoYeq_GJ37hKKU2IFJeZhqsq65ZpzBIDzJttESLnKDZPin5i1HFbHXevDj1BmUbwo5oBZlYh8yg8oGufAcuhkrNooxf1-f5qsNQdTo6Thv8UKM1y8NbJEbHfpBKov0HS5MYsdQ/s1600/428px-John_Boehner_golf.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9DjUgKXoYeq_GJ37hKKU2IFJeZhqsq65ZpzBIDzJttESLnKDZPin5i1HFbHXevDj1BmUbwo5oBZlYh8yg8oGufAcuhkrNooxf1-f5qsNQdTo6Thv8UKM1y8NbJEbHfpBKov0HS5MYsdQ/s320/428px-John_Boehner_golf.jpg&quot; width=&quot;228&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I&amp;nbsp; think John Boehner needs to go to a prison (with lots of sex offenders) and find out exactly what these women are actually having to deal with when they are raped:.&amp;nbsp; He could spend the night with a known rapist of men; I feel&amp;nbsp; he needs to be raped so that he knows what it&#39;s like before he decides to change the rules.&amp;nbsp; I see he has plenty of experience playing golf; why not being raped?&amp;nbsp; This evil man is drawing the line to &quot;I don&#39;t care about this woman&#39;s life&quot;. &amp;nbsp; A woman who is raped&amp;nbsp; will have to live with that trauma for the rest of her life. &amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; He obviously has no clue and I see him as a worthless pundit who needs to walk in the shoes of the people he represents.&amp;nbsp; That&#39;s just my humble opinion of this man. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  99. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Because many GOP are Pro-Fetus (I&#39;m calling it as it is) - I refuse to say that they are Pro-life because we are not just talking about cells inside of a woman; we are talking about the life of the woman who carries the cells because basically they are saying &quot;fuck her life&quot;; only take care of those who are not born yet; then after they are born; they can be thrown away into the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.angelsfoster.org/about-angels/the-foster-crisis/scary-statistics/?gclid=CMmS0Z_g6qYCFQRubAod8lW72g&quot;&gt;Foster Care System&lt;/a&gt;; until they are 18 years old and then can be sent to war.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  100. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;It seems that many GOP are against Public Education, housing subsidies, child care subsidies, any kind of help of any kind, but boy are they pro-war!&amp;nbsp; Now that is not my definition of PRO-LIFE of any kind.&amp;nbsp; They are gunho against any type of welfare (I do feel that we should all be able to take care of ourselves and our families as we all have a purpose in this life; some people need a little help finding that out when they are young what that purpose might be),&amp;nbsp; I feel that some people do need a little spark on their ass to get them going whether that be financial or educational; some amount of motivation,&amp;nbsp; especially after&amp;nbsp; birth,; yes taking care of a live child&amp;nbsp; and a live mother? &amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; We need all the unborn lives we can get because somehow they can fight all the wars&amp;nbsp; that we need to fight?&amp;nbsp; What am I missing here?&amp;nbsp; We don&#39;t even want to bother giving a woman with a child&amp;nbsp; any kind of insurance after the child is already born?&amp;nbsp; I feel family reproduction rights should be a family matter and not the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Abortion-Politics-Motherhood-California-Political/dp/0520055977?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;business of the governments&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0520055977&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; to make or other nosy citizens.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Why are we having to dispose of so much tax dollars on Wars? That&#39;s OK even if Haliburten decides to rip off the government?&amp;nbsp; Yes, this time I did open up a can worms this time!&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s just my own humble opinions about what I absorb from all that&#39;s going on!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  101. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I feel I was blessed to have &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Unplanned-Dramatic-Planned-Parenthood-Eye-Opening/dp/1414339399?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Planned Parenthood&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1414339399&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; for my main source of health care coverage when I was in my 20&#39;s and early 30s in getting me checked every 6 months to a year for Cervical Cancers,&amp;nbsp; certain types of vanerial diseases, HIV testing; my goodness this place was a real help to me! I don&#39;t know what I would have done with out them; they are not all bad as the media would like to tell all of us.&amp;nbsp; It sure helped me even though they were unequipped and more than likely not funded enough to have found my &quot;silent but very deadly killer&quot;.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I had a so called &quot;tilted cervix&quot;?&amp;nbsp; We had no idea that I had cancer and it was complete mystery when I awoke from my surgery to remove a bad Ovary? &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  102. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQkfD9tUZJtGyWqvzJVO_G977JUH-whp0FRhTlEnQrk6a2HC5Z2ouoscsM7odKoQ3u45R6tINoBx0M5RofLi54mIKoLN2bj20Hm8JqqmRYC4lt1dvteQTpPgLztLMEuj25ywQHj0iTyUk/s1600/planned_parenthood_1.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQkfD9tUZJtGyWqvzJVO_G977JUH-whp0FRhTlEnQrk6a2HC5Z2ouoscsM7odKoQ3u45R6tINoBx0M5RofLi54mIKoLN2bj20Hm8JqqmRYC4lt1dvteQTpPgLztLMEuj25ywQHj0iTyUk/s320/planned_parenthood_1.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Grand-Illusions-Legacy-Planned-Parenthood/dp/1581820577?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt; Planned Parenthood&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1581820577&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; was awesome to me; they provided me with free condoms, birth control , and pretty much basic female health care as I needed it.&amp;nbsp; Back then, it was common knowledge that birth control would help prevent me from getting &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Ovarian-Cancer-Awareness-Unite-Wristband/dp/B000I3IGB4?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Ovarian Cancer&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000I3IGB4&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot;.)&amp;nbsp; That was the big thing with birth control back then; it seemed to help prevent Ovarian Cancer for some women and it might still be touted today as doing just that?; I don&#39;t see any of those ads anymore, but&amp;nbsp; I guess it was a good false projection at the time?&amp;nbsp; OK it didn&#39;t work, but I really feel if we just fund what really makes sense for some of these 20-30 year olds who are skating by without insurance as I was at the time (hello their lives are totally worth saving? = not the time to be greedy or stingy with insurance!)&amp;nbsp; They also help women through the very &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Rape-Survival-Guide-Elizabeth-Udall/dp/1861056222?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;traumatic experience of being raped&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1861056222&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and that&#39;s very, very important and we have to have that kind of &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/ABC-News-Primetime-Rape-Survivor/dp/B000QXCOUA?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;coverage and funding&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000QXCOUA&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; No one else&#39;s business; I&#39;m a taxpayer who would rather cover &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Resurrection-After-Rape-transforming-survivor/dp/0615209661?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;this kind of health care&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0615209661&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; more than a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Hostage-Nation-Colombias-Guerrilla-Failed/dp/0307271153?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;failed Drug War&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0307271153&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; We need some education too in this nation of ours!) &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; That&#39;s also more important than the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/American-Drug-War-Last-White/dp/B0015XASZ8?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;stupid drug war&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0015XASZ8&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; too!&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  103. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I no longer have to do that, but &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.plannedparenthood.org/health-topics/stds-hiv-safer-sex-101.htm&quot;&gt;Planned Parenthood&lt;/a&gt; could&amp;nbsp; be screening so many of us much better for other types of &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Encyclopedia-Womens-Reproductive-Cancer-Library/dp/0816050317?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;reproductive cancers &lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0816050317&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;and other health problems or concerns (reproductive).&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; This kind of health coverage is totally needed in a time where there was 1,529,560 new cancer cases and 569,490 deaths from cancer in 2010.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Wouldn&#39;t it be cool if they could actually find the cancer sooner in these young girls and us older women (OK I&#39;m just 40 but still way too young to have to die from this disease; I just don&#39;t want others girls having to go through the horrors that I have had to endure with this cancer.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; If &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.plannedparenthood.org/health-topics/general-health-care-32720.htm&quot;&gt;Planned Parenthood&lt;/a&gt; is gone; it will be a&amp;nbsp; sad time for many women who really depend on it.&amp;nbsp; I was happy just to pay my $10 co-pay each&amp;nbsp; time; and sometimes I didn&#39;t make enough money to be charged; kind of a starving student at the time and there were totally and completely accommodating for me.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; It really is a great organization that helps so many women and families.&amp;nbsp; Despite so many all over the country, they are trying to help many young girls.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  104. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJdFGDOXpADQv6ai0jnOjLKOvkrKKNUACkWngHYWm_eLT3RZ4_dK5w568_RTXXtlpIo76k4DqnyQa1bwgiwDZv7oMb21dvDstcme2F8WL2IzLGzY0FnoVadok98cOUJq11z-Lv_a-waOM/s1600/_MG_7396.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJdFGDOXpADQv6ai0jnOjLKOvkrKKNUACkWngHYWm_eLT3RZ4_dK5w568_RTXXtlpIo76k4DqnyQa1bwgiwDZv7oMb21dvDstcme2F8WL2IzLGzY0FnoVadok98cOUJq11z-Lv_a-waOM/s320/_MG_7396.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;So how am I doing right now?&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m pretty damn opinionated!&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m OK for right now; still raising some hell of my own!)&amp;nbsp; Yes, the word is &quot;right now&quot;.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I still live in the moment.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m puking a lot more (also eating a hell of a lot more!) but I get much relief from my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Marijuana-Medical-Handbook-Practical-Therapeutic/dp/0932551866?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;plant medicine&lt;/a&gt;!&amp;nbsp; It is helping my quality of life &quot;right now&quot;!)&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;br /&gt;
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I&#39;m also getting ready for my brother to visit me once again this Saturday!&amp;nbsp; We are going to watch the Super Bowl and parts of the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Puppy-Bowl-III-Harry-Kalas/dp/B00308BAMQ?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Puppy Bowl&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B00308BAMQ&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; on &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Puppy-Bowl-Puppies-Field-Tail-Wagging/dp/B000JLXTBC?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Animal Planet&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000JLXTBC&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Green-Bay-Packers-Lets-Light/dp/B001LETDPW?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;GO PACKERS&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001LETDPW&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;! &amp;nbsp; I&#39;m so excited for my honey with his team in the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Pittsburgh-Steelers-Packers-Dueling-T-Shirt/dp/B004KJJ4I6?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Super Bowl&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B004KJJ4I6&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;! &amp;nbsp; I sure hope the Packers win!&amp;nbsp; My honey will be so happy and then I hope to make it to &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Love-Bug-Chocolate-Candy-Bouquet/dp/B001P66KHU?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Valentine&#39;s Day&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001P66KHU&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;!&amp;nbsp; Its a celebration of Love! &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnBGaH41K-EZx4_LeHVpjKWCF-JDm7ae1nAuM-Oj2mGpP4JZkkj1GcXCKf0rQ8zSrnFM3saP5_fSlutitQT7Fui4fAsR565V7wTa-hxFF7qNKOkzQ-yD4G2gVtzktBkPNT5pYG0OsGjgY/s1600/DSCN267920110111_184234.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnBGaH41K-EZx4_LeHVpjKWCF-JDm7ae1nAuM-Oj2mGpP4JZkkj1GcXCKf0rQ8zSrnFM3saP5_fSlutitQT7Fui4fAsR565V7wTa-hxFF7qNKOkzQ-yD4G2gVtzktBkPNT5pYG0OsGjgY/s320/DSCN267920110111_184234.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I am so excited to see and to hang out with my brother again! &amp;nbsp; I even got him a very, very early birthday present!&amp;nbsp; I just couldn&#39;t resist! &amp;nbsp; I had kind of a close call the other night; I was sleeping way more than normal and my honey started getting frightened that I was looking or appearing to look like I was passing away.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; OH god do I know it must have been so scary for him as it was for me.&amp;nbsp; I was slightly frightened that I might go way too soon because it was so easy for me to be sleeping so soundly so quickly!&amp;nbsp; I guess it&#39;s always too soon when you die?&amp;nbsp; I was scaring my poor honey on the couch as I more than likely did not look very alive and breathing.&amp;nbsp; I appeared to be posing in death poses?&amp;nbsp; OMG!&amp;nbsp; How scary!&amp;nbsp; Anyway, I started crying once again because I didn&#39;t want to scare my honey which I was doing very well at!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  107. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh8eFElAWYQh9bbnL_8u27wQV50tFKdQE-XI5PB6JCktDynVNgmCtKOKzJDCEX6b8fI_CB_Qsg-yJ4NzedZOjt9KLecEMVOrBNfmtQtQApFOhs-jQqFIuYw3V07PZdktt2ezfyx-mxAsQ0/s1600/red-county-monkey-ass.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh8eFElAWYQh9bbnL_8u27wQV50tFKdQE-XI5PB6JCktDynVNgmCtKOKzJDCEX6b8fI_CB_Qsg-yJ4NzedZOjt9KLecEMVOrBNfmtQtQApFOhs-jQqFIuYw3V07PZdktt2ezfyx-mxAsQ0/s1600/red-county-monkey-ass.jpg&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Did I mention that I have a severe case&amp;nbsp; of &quot;Monkey Ass&quot;?&amp;nbsp; Yeah, my ass&amp;nbsp; is looking exactly&amp;nbsp; like a monkey&#39;s!&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s red and it&#39;s bruised so I had to figure out how to pad up my little boney ass so it wasn&#39;t so freaking ugly?&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m self conscious about those kinds of things; I want still want to look more appealing than that for my honey; Oh GOD does he deserve so much better! &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; OK I&#39;m not calling myself ugly; my ass is slightly UGG right now; that&#39;s the only place right now that I&#39;m&amp;nbsp; feeling is kind ugly to look at!) &amp;nbsp; I used to work in a zoo a long, long time ago (when I was a kid) and I can easily see the resemblance of my own ass looking exactly like that that ugly red color; that&#39;s usually on a female orangutan or Chimpanzee? No! not Michael Jackson&#39;s monkey&#39;s ass!&amp;nbsp; That&#39;s exactly what I thought when I peered up at the bathroom mirror to see my red boney ass!(&amp;nbsp; The red color cover&#39;s my entire spine; it&#39;s pretty unbelievable (I would totally take a photo of it but my ass does&amp;nbsp; still belong to my honey!) and yet my honey still calls my ass the sexiest ever?!&amp;nbsp; Oh GOD how I love him; &amp;amp; OHHH how I worship than Amazing man of mine!&amp;nbsp; My man is my hero!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  108. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I&#39;m so excited to hopefully be able to celebrate one of my favorites holidays &quot;all because of my wonderful man&quot;.&amp;nbsp; I love Valentines Day!&amp;nbsp; Another day to spoil my honey! I could not ask for a better husband and I am so thankful that my lifetime included him.&amp;nbsp; 13 years together, 8 years married!)&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I couldn&#39;t have lived a better life and although many might disagree with me in my situation; we are all our own!)&amp;nbsp; We love our life together no matter what is on our plates!&amp;nbsp; I think I have the munchies now; I am weighing in at 92lbs! with clothes, and boots! Just last week I was sad to be weighing in at 84lbs.&amp;nbsp; I am aware that my life might end so much sooner in that my body is getting ready physically to do what it has to do. There&#39;s still so much in life to celebrate! &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  115. My brother is still trying to get a ticket to come out to see me again but he did manage to get himself an amazing&amp;nbsp; new cruiser bike to ride around in his neighborhood.&amp;nbsp; Hopefully he will one day be able to get another dog that can keep up with him; like a border collie or a sheltie, or what ever dog he can bond with at the local shelter? &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m so happy for him that he is doing what makes him happy (grooming dogs) and we sure did have a great time when he visited last! &amp;nbsp; I&#39;m so looking forward to another visit and more bike rides together around my neighborhood.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Miss Blue Belle still looks like a princess despite her little ear injury.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I do know that she loves her uncle Bill and she still misses her beloved Grandpa.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  116. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhec3GTeqVYJXjK7OiKlyGCva9_G6n_TWgNMVRpkK5c0C7b9DP3HsAagmCEXcc8367SJpcMJSh4BVzHTNWRdEAAoUFZYtr-3ZfjtiNsZud6LYYdYqkCco20AO5E5eo7PxZ_NFOa_itobVJ_/s1600/_MG_7601.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhec3GTeqVYJXjK7OiKlyGCva9_G6n_TWgNMVRpkK5c0C7b9DP3HsAagmCEXcc8367SJpcMJSh4BVzHTNWRdEAAoUFZYtr-3ZfjtiNsZud6LYYdYqkCco20AO5E5eo7PxZ_NFOa_itobVJ_/s320/_MG_7601.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Despite all this, my poor sweetie has so much to do each and every day to ensure my survival for right now.&amp;nbsp; I do want to live and I have that will to but I do also know what my reality is in fighting this deadly disease which has taken so much out of me.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; He has flush my picc line many times per day and he is very good at giveing me my daily 3 doses of Zofran each day which takes over 5 minutes.&amp;nbsp; He&#39;s very aware of this and takes notice when I start gagging and vomiting.&amp;nbsp; Zofran is just another thing in my daily activities that is used to help with this horrid nausea I suffer from each day.&amp;nbsp; He really does so much to help me each day; till death do we part!)&amp;nbsp; We don&#39;t always get what we want in life.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m still content with my sweet honey and my animals!&amp;nbsp; They make me happy every day no matter what is going on with my sick and tired body.&amp;nbsp;&lt;br /&gt;
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  118. Well one of the side effects of sitting around weak and disheveled is that I&amp;nbsp; tend to watch&amp;nbsp; way too much Cable Television and sometimes too much internet. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m still always shocked by headlines in the news of what others are doing that are selfless acts for others; too bad you don&#39;t see so much compassion unless you really dig for truth.&amp;nbsp; I love finding new blogs that expose those truths and put me in a good mood!)&amp;nbsp; I get quite a bit of it here; right on my blog; along with lots of love!)&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhn_hbw3jTSorwfrNtIRyY9UmvYhYtAH95wUje_xGvPMszl9XHqdAnQUCjmqpvNrlbN5KLHOIxRSLZU3Q4rbb4pxprgrLOwSvRPTmw_HNK4Ju4MA5OKCs7LKszGTDKiLFCTWQG5C9g-6lo/s1600/_MG_7583.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhn_hbw3jTSorwfrNtIRyY9UmvYhYtAH95wUje_xGvPMszl9XHqdAnQUCjmqpvNrlbN5KLHOIxRSLZU3Q4rbb4pxprgrLOwSvRPTmw_HNK4Ju4MA5OKCs7LKszGTDKiLFCTWQG5C9g-6lo/s320/_MG_7583.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  119. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I watched &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.drphil.com/&quot;&gt;Dr. Phil&lt;/a&gt; again last night?&amp;nbsp; Sometimes it bothers me but he does touch on issues that are important to many of us. &amp;nbsp; He was focused on a very good subject;&amp;nbsp; dealing with teenagers who are unable to communicate effectively with their parents. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Damn, I wish he had been around when I was a kid.&amp;nbsp; Yeah I had issues as a kid as so many do!&amp;nbsp; I was lied to by my own government about Cannabis being able to kill you when in fact there is not 1 documented death from cannabis; ever.&amp;nbsp; Well anyway I didn&#39;t try it until I was 18 years old with own my mother.&amp;nbsp; I was scared of it when I tried it for the 1st times ever. I thought my brains were going to turn into fried eggs?&amp;nbsp; &quot;This is brain on drugs?&quot;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; That commercial worked liked crazy in my day!&lt;br /&gt;
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  121. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-m-rDPARV4zUJHgJPhE1U1uv_3yuU4M2jSoo0zrseit_10KOFlGI0EJHPgm_LTfmoUUV6yX_3m0u73_8PfToH-dIXb4nuThmF-dRIWHGSbujF7ipfV4MBHWaNd88cLudBOO_XYGIL490/s1600/_MG_7516.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-m-rDPARV4zUJHgJPhE1U1uv_3yuU4M2jSoo0zrseit_10KOFlGI0EJHPgm_LTfmoUUV6yX_3m0u73_8PfToH-dIXb4nuThmF-dRIWHGSbujF7ipfV4MBHWaNd88cLudBOO_XYGIL490/s320/_MG_7516.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;Some kids have it much better off but there are unfortunately still plenty of shitty parents out there who care only about them selves and not their families; just gaining more material possessions and debt.&amp;nbsp; There are so many parents who don&#39;t teach their kids about the real world&amp;nbsp; (they shelter them from everything and expect laws to change for those out there and that they do have to work hard to make it out in the real world!&amp;nbsp; How are kids supposed to know how to treat the opposite sex when they don&#39;t rightly know how to be in a relationship? &amp;nbsp; There are so many things that I wish my mother would have told me about that would have saved me many crappy dates with boys or getting into trouble with boys!&amp;nbsp; I could have masturbated instead and saved myself the trouble! &amp;nbsp; Why don&#39;t parents teach their daughters about masturbation instead? &amp;nbsp; Masturbate when you are younger and avoid those annoying boy problems until you graduate and get your life together.&amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t even think Dr. Phil even recommends that as a topic of discussion but I think it should be.&amp;nbsp; My apologies if my blog has all of a sudden made you feel very uncomfortable but that&#39;s life and reality!)&lt;br /&gt;
  122. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwj9QMHKcqG7iJiKd34x4oA08sUowmS2zMQjrD_GoPYJyfJVzWs5d3wbs0p7FcOxXQAngHOmsQSX-aOHXBrWbgy_bGwKYT7VS1Gafd85_baSZ0cgrd5k3rS7Q5JuhEATHyyZ1snYJsUeI/s1600/_MG_7581.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwj9QMHKcqG7iJiKd34x4oA08sUowmS2zMQjrD_GoPYJyfJVzWs5d3wbs0p7FcOxXQAngHOmsQSX-aOHXBrWbgy_bGwKYT7VS1Gafd85_baSZ0cgrd5k3rS7Q5JuhEATHyyZ1snYJsUeI/s320/_MG_7581.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I&#39;m so happy that I have the most wonderful husband ever and I keep feeling sometimes that he doesn&#39;t deserve to live this hell of cancer but he insists he loves me no matter what.&amp;nbsp; I see myself deteriorating each day I&#39;m alive and he just sees my loving soul through and through&amp;nbsp; and all that we gone through.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; We have had so much fun together over the last 13 years of knowing each other!&amp;nbsp; My husband is a prime example of what a real man stands for.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m so thankful to have married my very best friend in world and I&#39;m so incredibly happy for that decision every moment of my life.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  123. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRBAsqshT5PKtrWLqOFHQB1kI3rW7VBlpWfZ7TrcWUa5saf8YCF4RI8EdMl2nmECG9_EUO1MTbMCKBPa6odUNJeU7k2fnbLKZT3_ZEW7xYY1Bxg7Dp0-Ws_7ZqRbXftEuODd32oemE4ej3/s1600/_MG_7564.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRBAsqshT5PKtrWLqOFHQB1kI3rW7VBlpWfZ7TrcWUa5saf8YCF4RI8EdMl2nmECG9_EUO1MTbMCKBPa6odUNJeU7k2fnbLKZT3_ZEW7xYY1Bxg7Dp0-Ws_7ZqRbXftEuODd32oemE4ej3/s320/_MG_7564.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;Well as for my health; I&#39;m still trying to combat the massive amounts of pain I suffer from each day.&amp;nbsp; I have to take 3 3ml doses of &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Methadone-Drug-Treatment-Works-Doesnt/dp/1432750747?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Methadone&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1432750747&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; per day and along with that my honey also gives me an injection of &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Mosbys-Nursing-Joseph-Albanese-Pharmacology/dp/0323064795?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Zofran for nausea&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0323064795&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; (I have my phone alarm when its time to do all that!) and the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Methadone-Maintenance-Treatment-U-S-Practical/dp/0826101305?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Methadone&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0826101305&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; is the absolute nastiest shit I have ever taken!)&amp;nbsp; First off it is liquid form, placed under the tongue (orally). &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; We all know that &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Son-Heroin-Addict-ebook/dp/B004GHNINO?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Heroin Addicts&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B004GHNINO&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; take this drug in order to get them selves off of smack.&amp;nbsp; The taste is so incredibly horrid! Ewwwwww! Ewwwww! Ewwwwww! &amp;nbsp; It makes my mouth feel as though I just placed a very bitter cleaning compound under my tongue but I keep it below my tongue&amp;nbsp; for at least 10 minutes while my body absorbs the compound for pain. &amp;nbsp; I dread the very taste of it each and every time; I talk really funny as I&#39;m doing this little waiting game. &amp;nbsp; Then it&#39;s time for the pickles!)&lt;br /&gt;
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important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; Pickles work excellent for getting rid of the horrid&amp;nbsp; nasty taste of the&amp;nbsp; Methadone and the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/HYDROMORPHONE-Macmillan-Reference-Encyclopedia-Addictive/dp/B000M4QN4Q?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Dilaudid&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000M4QN4Q&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; which is extremely sugary and sweet?.&amp;nbsp; I can down an entire jar of pickles in just 1 day; that&#39;s like my favorite food right now?&amp;nbsp; Oh GOD do I love pickles!&amp;nbsp; Not the kind you get in a regular grocery store but a generic brand at &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/New-Whole-Foods-Encyclopedia-Comprehensive/dp/0143117432?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Whole Foods&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0143117432&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; &quot;365 Organic Kosher Spears&quot;. &amp;nbsp; Then I have to drink &quot;Key Lime&quot; soda mixed with water and ice to rid my tummy of the burning feeling that I get going up my chest after I puke up the pickles?(. &amp;nbsp; Ok I drink this soda so that it can make my puke taste better when it comes back up?&amp;nbsp; Yeah that&#39;s pretty crazy, huh?&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; I still try to eat food when I get my munchies (Medicinal Cannabis = &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/More-Heartburn-Days-Naturally-Effective-Gastrointestinal/dp/1575665107?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;heartburn&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1575665107&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Nausea-Mechanisms-Management-R-Stern/dp/0195178157?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;nausea&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0195178157&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Good-Night-Insomnia-Gregg-Jacobs/dp/0805089586?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;insomnia&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0805089586&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;) &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I suffer from a very intense amount of nausea and cancer related pain which I&#39;m positive most would not want to continue on; I think many would be ready to go at this point but I&#39;m just not ready just yet.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  128. &lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwqpAaSH2orV4jppaxwF1iqXVVj20upAinmWE2YOCDCbJMoOakUeoiJked-kRhmDJNIxVzQtXfBsFJVPt0m_e0vZi8fg_kiLNaQItaHQh2KeJg5dvwzOjuUW1jV2ctS2uQAfUw1UmwBVc/s1600/_MG_7522.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwqpAaSH2orV4jppaxwF1iqXVVj20upAinmWE2YOCDCbJMoOakUeoiJked-kRhmDJNIxVzQtXfBsFJVPt0m_e0vZi8fg_kiLNaQItaHQh2KeJg5dvwzOjuUW1jV2ctS2uQAfUw1UmwBVc/s320/_MG_7522.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;I feel all patients in all states should have access to &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Cannabis-Medicinal-Aromatic-Industrial-Profiles/dp/9057022915?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;medicinal cannabis&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=9057022915&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; so that they too can have a quality of life that gives them more time to be with their loved ones.&amp;nbsp; They too deserve to be pain free.&amp;nbsp; Cancer is a wasting disease and it&#39;s cruel and unusual to allow patients to suffer in so much pain?&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s wrong ethically to deny them to good quality medicine that has more than proven that it works. &amp;nbsp; It&#39;s not fair to deny patients good pain medication which really does work.&amp;nbsp; Not one politician really&amp;nbsp; has any idea what so many thousands of cancer patients who could be growing their own medicine rather than loosing their homes trying to afford medicine that has far worse side effects like constipation which is very deadly.&amp;nbsp; If only those politicians could live by the Golden Rule (Treat others how you would want to be treated&quot;)&amp;nbsp; got a chance to walk in mile in any cancer survivor&#39;s shoes to just understand what we often have to deal with.&amp;nbsp; If they could just sit through 1 chemo treatment on their own and deal with all those side effects that so many of us have to endure.&amp;nbsp; Cannabis really does help with the nausea and that horrid taste of metal; it actually gets rid of the nasty metallic taste that so many of us have to endure.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
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  132. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi-yTtXKp-tdDvCJCT8xl3fp798-Td1axF7o2SDzBbgHB0pNX-5noJl-rapzFXRjaV5HiASeIB3-oS52_yvenVr1yQHCJW1b1k_3F4obzPn2dPdW7gNMH50fYQ1pBInLVMvPpOzlICLjO4/s1600/DSCN271520110111_184650.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi-yTtXKp-tdDvCJCT8xl3fp798-Td1axF7o2SDzBbgHB0pNX-5noJl-rapzFXRjaV5HiASeIB3-oS52_yvenVr1yQHCJW1b1k_3F4obzPn2dPdW7gNMH50fYQ1pBInLVMvPpOzlICLjO4/s320/DSCN271520110111_184650.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;Now I do agree with him on our health care&amp;nbsp; in that it should not be for profit; health care should be clearly about taking care of sick Americans who happen to need urgent care.&amp;nbsp; The new health care law is not &lt;a href=&quot;http://factcheck.org/2011/01/a-job-killing-law/&quot;&gt;Job killing&lt;/a&gt; as many Republicans keep repeating and what&#39;s funny is that they have no proof what so ever that it is job killing; only their propaganda and agenda for not wanting Americans to have real access to affordable and or free health care.&amp;nbsp; Yes, of course they have to lie to us?&amp;nbsp; They too&amp;nbsp; are very greedy and have vested interests in insuring that many of us are not covered. &amp;nbsp; I am so very thankful for the health care that I have had and continue to have.&amp;nbsp; Life is a true miracle for me and I&#39;m so thankful to have it right now.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I just can&#39;t take any of that for granted; I treasure it so! )&amp;nbsp; Many other Americans should be so lucky as well; they too deserve it.&amp;nbsp; Well we deserve many things and in life we all have a purpose here and it should not be about gaining more and more material possessions or becoming so obsessed with loosing more and more weight?&amp;nbsp; I haven&#39;t noticed that much but are we all that fat?&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m sick and tired of seeing loose weight here and there and everywhere.&amp;nbsp; I see this dumb bell thing that resembles so much of me just pleasuring my own man? It&#39;s kind of crazy?&amp;nbsp; What is that thing all about? Sorry!&amp;nbsp; It so looks like a tool that enhances a woman pleasuring her man with some very good hand job techniques?&amp;nbsp; My honey and I crack up each time we see the commercial and now men do it too?&lt;br /&gt;
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  134. Well I would be lying if I said my honey and I were not happy about the Packers making it to the Superbowl.&amp;nbsp; Old &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Gamewear-Viking-Leather-Classic-Wristband/dp/B002TMM3HA?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Mr. Farvre&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002TMM3HA&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; is not making us happy anymore with his midlife crisis sexual harassment problems and then totally dissing the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Autographed-Riddell-Football-Authentic-Graph-Matching/dp/B002ZVC0WS?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Packers&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002ZVC0WS&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; by playing for their mortal enemies (Vikings) well now handsome Mr. &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/McFarlane-Toys-Action-Figure-Inch/dp/B003RZDD4U?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Aaron Rogers&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003RZDD4U&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; just took them to the Super Bowl!&amp;nbsp; Yeah!&amp;nbsp; So there Mr. Traitor! that&#39;s what he proved he was to the entire team.&amp;nbsp; What comes around goes around and I certainly hope the Packers win this Super Bowl; What a freaking creap he proved to be!&amp;nbsp; My sweet honey deserves that happiness and satisfaction of his team winning the Super Bowl!&amp;nbsp; Yeah!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  136. What is up with the Oscars?&amp;nbsp; They picked movies that were worthy of 1 star maybe (&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Black-Swan-Natalie-Portman/dp/B0041KKYEM?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Black Swan)&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0041KKYEM&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and maybe 2 stars (&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/True-Grit-Special-Collectors-Wayne/dp/B000O179FY?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;True Grit&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000O179FY&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;) and I finally got to see all of &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Secretariat-Two-Disc-Blu-ray-DVD-Combo/dp/B004DK5CYM?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Secretariat&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B004DK5CYM&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and I have to disagree with their voting system? &amp;nbsp; I guess they pick the suckiest and most boring movies ever to win?&amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t get it? &amp;nbsp; I have no idea how those other two movies could be any better than &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Kentucky-Derby-Greatest-Moments-Secretariat/dp/B001HKHKEG?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Secretariat&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001HKHKEG&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; My honey and I watched it twice and absolutely loved it?&amp;nbsp; Movies that you tend to love never seem to win anything?&amp;nbsp; I guess that life for Hollywood.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s so misunderstood and they still remake movies that don&#39;t need to remade; if they just researched more of life they could find plenty more movies to make.&amp;nbsp; They are just running out of Original material?&amp;nbsp; Not getting it!&lt;br /&gt;
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  138. I wish all of you much Peace and Love!&amp;nbsp; Here&#39;s to me keeping up with my pain and to keep on&amp;nbsp; surviving as long as I can!&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  149. I&#39;ve also had a blast riding my bike with my dad; we even encountered a very greedy woman who was not the least bit interested in sharing a 5 ft wide side walk with a gorgeous, beautiful bike&amp;nbsp; ridden by a terribly thin, skinny, anorexic looking sick woman; she wanted me to ride on Winchester Boulevard (on the actual road where cars whip in and out and there&#39;s NO bike lane!&amp;nbsp; How freaking dangerous am I&#39;m supposed to be taking good care of myself while Hospice is not there?&amp;nbsp; Why should I be risking my fragile life on that major highway with a number of crazy drivers flying past at all speeds; well both me and my dad needed to be on the sidewalk at this time sharing with the pedestrians; we had been &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Long-Run-Firefighters-Triumphant-Comeback/dp/160529246X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;riding with traffic&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=160529246X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; or riding in the same direction as traffic so that we were better able to watch out for pedestrians and we also used our bells to announce our presence so that someone&amp;nbsp; like her could easily turn around and then notice&amp;nbsp; that we were riding up behind and that she could easily maneuver around us with her&amp;nbsp; walking legs.&amp;nbsp; It all started as she got off the bus and we had stopped to let her go and then we rode along behind her for a few uncomfy inconsiderate moments (she knew we were behind her but ignored us until I rang my bell) I finally decided to ring my bell gently to let her know that we were riding very patiently behind her and she turned around and scowled at me and then told me &quot;you need to ride that on the street&quot;, I told her &quot;No way, I have advanced cancer and definitely not with my skinny frail weight with out a bike lane&quot;,&amp;nbsp; &quot;share the road with others&quot; I told her as I forced my way past her! &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Jo-Koy-Dont-Make-Angry/dp/B002GE3TJM?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;End your Road Rage&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002GE3TJM&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;!&quot; I chanted back to her!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I held onto a little bit of self satisfaction for my infantile reaction!)&amp;nbsp; At least I can laugh it off!)&amp;nbsp; Maybe she won&#39;t be so mean to the next person she crosses on her personal&amp;nbsp; sidewalk?&lt;br /&gt;
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  154. &lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjcJq4juuxGNLsuHFoj5hsQT6-fZZXL_jZYRWrilca-9xl3xEUS_Ci3luoJcZYvazYMPp73jum_Xn3FCqau9iwSJCM-95czlP23lm7wMkHJRu4rNm1xh0-l2nXaGLAO91YIyBUUDxX1Rw_R/s1600/_MG_7595.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjcJq4juuxGNLsuHFoj5hsQT6-fZZXL_jZYRWrilca-9xl3xEUS_Ci3luoJcZYvazYMPp73jum_Xn3FCqau9iwSJCM-95czlP23lm7wMkHJRu4rNm1xh0-l2nXaGLAO91YIyBUUDxX1Rw_R/s320/_MG_7595.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;Now how in the hell is that going to happen inside a 5000+lbs car? &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &quot;Oh NO they just disrespected me!&quot; when in fact this other person just saw an opening to an exit that they needed to take and that they feel that they have to cross here not realizing they are crossing in front of Mt. St. Helen&#39;s&amp;nbsp; (some angry crazy person who owns the entire highway; no one can cross in front&amp;nbsp; of me ; &quot;NO&quot; this person&#39;s life is not worth me putting on my brake so suddenly?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Sometimes we need that little wake-up call of someone passing in front of us to remind us that we are not alone in this world.&amp;nbsp; Sure that person&#39;s life is worth sparing; they don&#39;t have to miss their exit because of little old me.&amp;nbsp; So what, they forgot to use their signal?&amp;nbsp; They are not NOT using their signal to disrespect us; they have other things on their mind and you don&#39;t have to show them with those aggressive horn honking or protesting to remind them not to be so uppity towards you!) of this person; it messes up their order of respect somehow?&amp;nbsp; when in fact this other peaceful loving person is just&amp;nbsp; more or less just thinking of getting home early enough to catch their child&#39;s game of soccer, football, or a gourmet meal their wife has just prepared for the them; what ever it may be; its not as personal as you may think.&amp;nbsp; They didn&#39;t cut you off to &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Sabotage-Explicit/dp/B000SXIZUQ?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;sabotage&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000SXIZUQ&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; your life?&amp;nbsp; I wrote this article a few years ago for my Shoppingkharma site which I closed down a few years ago as well but found it might be useful since I do have a passion for ending all Road Rage.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s not much of the article, but most of what is important and of course I have updated most of it.&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; I think its very wrong so here it is!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  155. &lt;b&gt;Road Rage - How to Combat Aggressive and even dangerous driving&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;MsoNormal&quot; style=&quot;font-family: &amp;quot;Trebuchet MS&amp;quot;,sans-serif; text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjMwIYscZSpoAcgDzkvcdZwlVb53B-4WAb8IhCDFOntmFr30SSmg6fRpCENObhtYyRj2jk0Figet2Lesga00DdwypdbKTbvXulByRhBTgjf0GyRMlh9oxBSUqL7TkaJauQifJyv4whz1YjW/s1600/_MG_7534.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjMwIYscZSpoAcgDzkvcdZwlVb53B-4WAb8IhCDFOntmFr30SSmg6fRpCENObhtYyRj2jk0Figet2Lesga00DdwypdbKTbvXulByRhBTgjf0GyRMlh9oxBSUqL7TkaJauQifJyv4whz1YjW/s320/_MG_7534.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;I think my wisdom can be used in this subject matter.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;ve been flipped off many a times for being grandma driver, or asshole driver?&amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t care, whatever!)&amp;nbsp; You get over it and you live on!)&amp;nbsp; Road rage can be extremely dangerous and even deadly.&amp;nbsp; 1 second could change your life for the worst if you don’t get a handle on it.&amp;nbsp; Yes, imagine that; one second everything in your life is good and then bammm!&amp;nbsp; Your life can change just like that! &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Imagine being sued for a life lost because of an accident that could have been prevented?&amp;nbsp; I hope I can help you if you find that you answered yes to any of the following: - but don’t worry there are solutions.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;MsoNormal&quot; style=&quot;font-family: &amp;quot;Trebuchet MS&amp;quot;,sans-serif; text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;You like to leave much later than usual and you seem to always be in a hurry to get where ever you wish to go.&amp;nbsp; If this is true, think about this.&amp;nbsp; What is the worst that could happen to you if you are late?&amp;nbsp; Would being late be worse than getting into an accident, being shot by someone, getting into an argument, getting arrested, or better yet, cause physical damage to your car and further delaying you. I live kind of in the ghetto so this is reality in my neighborhood but I do have many wonderful neighbors who never even consider being so mean.&amp;nbsp; Yes, I said it; Road Rage is very mean and rude towards others.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;ve dabbled in road rage and find it not to be very satisfying for my soul!)&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;MsoNormal&quot; style=&quot;font-family: &amp;quot;Trebuchet MS&amp;quot;,sans-serif; text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguz1FiR6Vq7SMouxVvAvUPp5K0sNZTrYL9U7iPc0lhyA41qmKXOcj8N206XjPvSr6kSLoS3KoPe5tt27iPJ624mgUBoL47oYZRbJggxrteUe0KTHYjUiQDUj9jfiI7OUG7U3JgLC2JIJ1-/s1600/_MG_7376.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguz1FiR6Vq7SMouxVvAvUPp5K0sNZTrYL9U7iPc0lhyA41qmKXOcj8N206XjPvSr6kSLoS3KoPe5tt27iPJ624mgUBoL47oYZRbJggxrteUe0KTHYjUiQDUj9jfiI7OUG7U3JgLC2JIJ1-/s320/_MG_7376.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;Are you in a hurry to live your life?&amp;nbsp; Well I sure as hell am not!&amp;nbsp; I hope you&#39;re not?&amp;nbsp; You shouldn’t be.&amp;nbsp; Life is something that should be treasured everyday wherever you are. Hell taking a shit everyday is a blessing to be thankful for!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;MsoNormal&quot; style=&quot;font-family: &amp;quot;Trebuchet MS&amp;quot;,sans-serif; text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Do you often sit in traffic and take it personal when someone cuts you off (causes you to have to brake suddenly).&amp;nbsp; Always remember that when you do take the time to brake for that person and no matter how mad you are at that person for making you brake or doing something that may not seem that bright, that person’s life IS worth braking for no matter what; that person has a family waiting at home for him/her.&amp;nbsp; You may not know this person, but someone out there adores that person and if they are killed, someone will miss this person who ever that is.&amp;nbsp; Imagine if it were a young teenage who isn’t quite an &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/DeLorme-Earthmate-Canada-DVD-ROM-Windows/dp/B000PIJT3Q?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;experienced driver&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000PIJT3Q&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;. &amp;nbsp; Many teenagers after just a few weeks feel they are experienced and don&#39;t feel you need to teach them any lessons; oh they will learn many lessons out on the road.&amp;nbsp; They may act like a little SOB hothead but no matter what there are those parents who love him/her no matter what and your life will change drastically if something horrible happens to this kid; so just be careful.&amp;nbsp; Driving defensively is the best way to drive and avoid any kind of accident. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;MsoNormal&quot; style=&quot;font-family: &amp;quot;Trebuchet MS&amp;quot;,sans-serif;&quot;&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiaQx4gLkKn90B3B8JrHQCxZrY0fEqlnTRFLUhTdNk4iyboXdwUA_JV2RrAt9HBu__PKkKKCmaUBL555LFQE_w1JE58A-t9JsNJfAzKCARLVZeaBoI8Rlny20LJirsqPY9DepK0yiFgtz_u/s1600/_MG_7627.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiaQx4gLkKn90B3B8JrHQCxZrY0fEqlnTRFLUhTdNk4iyboXdwUA_JV2RrAt9HBu__PKkKKCmaUBL555LFQE_w1JE58A-t9JsNJfAzKCARLVZeaBoI8Rlny20LJirsqPY9DepK0yiFgtz_u/s320/_MG_7627.jpg&quot; width=&quot;213&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;Here you can see me sitting next to my &quot;R2&quot;; R2 sucks my gut when I get blocked which is practically all the time.&amp;nbsp; It can suck a lot out that I don&#39;t puke up.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m doing OK for now; handling pain on a daily basis and thankful for all the moments that I don&#39;t much feel the pain.&amp;nbsp; My tummy hurts horribly if I vomit more than 5 times a day; I combine 3 drugs for pain: Dilaudid, Methadone (both prescribed by hospice care), and Pot (recommended by my doctor and hospice care).&amp;nbsp; Those 3 work in their own separate ways.&amp;nbsp; Another reason why I don&#39;t drive anymore.&amp;nbsp; So all of you who currently drive; you are very lucky; don&#39;t ruin it with something as dumb as &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Road-Rage-Yasmine-Bleeth/dp/B0002EJ7KI?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;road rage&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0002EJ7KI&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; Man I have seen some scary, scary videos of people with their road rage.&amp;nbsp; I had to say something because it is wrong and crazy.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
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  157. Back to this road rage:&amp;nbsp; If your commute happens to be a long one and someone keeps cutting you off to make it slower; don&#39;t yell or loose your patients; all time is precious.&amp;nbsp; Would you rather be sitting on the road waiting in traffic listening to your&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Apple-touch-Generation-NEWEST-MODEL/dp/B001FA1O18?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt; ipod&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001FA1O18&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; or &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Coby-Video-MP3-Player-Radio/dp/B0036RH93K?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;MP3 player&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0036RH93K&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, with your&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Acoustic-Playlist-Blend-Favorite-Songs/dp/B003AFP22S?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt; favorite playlists&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003AFP22S&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, or &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/XDNX1V1-Dock-Play-Radio-Black/dp/B002Q0W80C?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Satellite Radio&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002Q0W80C&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; they can seriously calm you&amp;nbsp; while in the car or would you rather be sitting in a hospital room?&amp;nbsp; Imagine the worst the worst place to be at that moment or is it enjoying time out driving?&lt;br /&gt;
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  159. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgYYsptOGcLLiikUG6utU_DhE4CGXYCTZzzIJHF_AUG3WMS2Tq2EJigF4VTIGAVNhz1IQhCHNCcm75l3ZYqB6INYCuRjJkRToYb6iZv0Ws0Q0wfkO_ZWTNBXdYiKF6j3dnY9r_fdveJrHvf/s1600/_MG_7598.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgYYsptOGcLLiikUG6utU_DhE4CGXYCTZzzIJHF_AUG3WMS2Tq2EJigF4VTIGAVNhz1IQhCHNCcm75l3ZYqB6INYCuRjJkRToYb6iZv0Ws0Q0wfkO_ZWTNBXdYiKF6j3dnY9r_fdveJrHvf/s320/_MG_7598.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;This is another great photo of my honey&#39;s undenying love and devotion for me no matter what.&amp;nbsp; He has my back and I have his!&amp;nbsp; He takes care of my everyday; flushing my lines and giving me Zofran 3 times a day, hooks me up to my 10 hour meal and unhooks and flushes all lines the very next morning.&amp;nbsp; He also changes the catbox as often as he can which is something I can never do but he happily does. Our cat is awesome; why deny him!) &lt;br /&gt;
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  161. &lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-gn-REz1dHv1sWOdYJQFj9IqJjv7B8MwiMK_vzlx3LWhyphenhyphenM1qvqriF8JpCEoaeQbg0zYf8AnPJurxL0dmHYqw76J_MZZxMlWKiNz6Ao_bKy4h0QhHTqIKUWhOf0wW4NalOzDBJ4QBuFEaO/s1600/_MG_7564.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-gn-REz1dHv1sWOdYJQFj9IqJjv7B8MwiMK_vzlx3LWhyphenhyphenM1qvqriF8JpCEoaeQbg0zYf8AnPJurxL0dmHYqw76J_MZZxMlWKiNz6Ao_bKy4h0QhHTqIKUWhOf0wW4NalOzDBJ4QBuFEaO/s320/_MG_7564.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;Just having the freedom to go anywhere you want is something to be treasured; there are so many out there who can&#39;t do the same; so consider yourself blessed if you can.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Time is never wasted even on the road; so just make the most of it; no arguing and cussing out people you don&#39;t know or threatening anyone with violence? &amp;nbsp; If someone else starts honking at you or tries to get your attention; don&#39;t make any eye contact with someone who is.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; True there are so many great new technologies that make driving all the more fun and enjoyable as well as easier. &amp;nbsp; Don&#39;t ever try to reason with anyone while you are driving; it just can&#39;t be done.&amp;nbsp; The scary thing is they might just have a weapon. &amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t know I&#39;m just thinking of better things to do in slow or dead traffic so it&#39;s not so boring or unpleasant; music seems to make everything much better especially inside a car!)&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; There are so many better things to do in a car than get mad and angry at people you have never met before; you think you know them just by being in a car behind them; sure as you call them fuck face, shit head, and every other name in the book?&amp;nbsp; That is not knowing somebody enough!? LOL&lt;br /&gt;
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  163. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiciHjVAy8VB3Cemre6hloMSzcuQViBLwGTlVsPdz_LYbp7_JKDSpubpa-lBT2vaTujlB4lljJVS8e6Gy-f2435hwHw1JHB5qIrhyphenhyphen2LialsOcqCFt2k13sh00s2swi4C0afpcWHBmZIMV_8/s1600/_MG_7606.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiciHjVAy8VB3Cemre6hloMSzcuQViBLwGTlVsPdz_LYbp7_JKDSpubpa-lBT2vaTujlB4lljJVS8e6Gy-f2435hwHw1JHB5qIrhyphenhyphen2LialsOcqCFt2k13sh00s2swi4C0afpcWHBmZIMV_8/s320/_MG_7606.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;I&#39;m still keeping on keeping on!&amp;nbsp; Each day is a gift; some days I have energy and some days are just spent in bed at today and yesterday have been.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m still trying to gain weight and am kinda sorta maintaining at around 88-90lbs.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m still doing the stupid eating and vomiting thing and the vomiting is totally involuntary; I hate puking with a passion but it happens and I can&#39;t help it.&amp;nbsp; It comes out of my nose if I do nothing to stop it.&amp;nbsp; That&#39;s so freaking disgusting!) LOL!&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m also suffering from horrible, horrible ass spasms so if your day was depleted of those things then I say You had a pretty good day!)&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Here is the most gorgeous photo I have ever seen taken by Elena of course!)&amp;nbsp; She really is an amazing artist!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  165. Peace and Love to all of you!&amp;nbsp; I hope one day there will be an &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Duel-Collectors-Dennis-Weaver/dp/B000063UR5?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;end to Road Rage&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000063UR5&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;! What an ugly reality!&amp;nbsp; I still have all of you who are loving and &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Compassionate-Souls-Raising-Generation-Change/dp/1930051034?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;compassionate souls&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1930051034&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  174. My brother and I went across the street to buy some groceries at the ghetto Safeway across the street and I occasionally will check out the headlines of many of the trash zines as I&amp;nbsp; commonly call them.&amp;nbsp; They are the headlines that many celebs balk at as being untrue and many times they are; they basically make up shit in order to sell these &quot;trash zines&quot; like the &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/National-Enquirer-Thirty-Unforgettable-Images/dp/0786888059?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;National Enquirer&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0786888059&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot; or &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Life-Style-Weekly/dp/B00074QGQ6?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Life and Style&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B00074QGQ6&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;?&quot; &amp;nbsp; One headline stood out most and it was an article about a teen girl who had gotten pregnant. &amp;nbsp; I did see how untrue many articles were on Michael Douglas and his fight.&amp;nbsp; He beat the beast and is now a hero to so many!&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m really happy that he was able to do; I would not have handled another cancer death as well; instead it&#39;s a cancer miracle!&lt;br /&gt;
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  177. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;One of the headlines was of this teen who had gotten pregnant and it clearly said &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Your-Pregnancy-Newborn-Journey-Parenting/dp/1932538003?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Teen Pregnancy ruined my life&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1932538003&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot;?.  I was appalled and not understanding how can a teen&#39;s life be ruined when another life is just starting; including hers?&amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t feel a teenager should be taking care of a child when that much negativity is displayed in front of their child. &amp;nbsp; A&amp;nbsp; young child needs&amp;nbsp; more stability, including someone mature enough to take care of him/her; so I&#39;m all for adoption in &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Mom-Dad-Pregnant-Unplanned-Pregnancy/dp/1576834824?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;teenage pregnancies&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1576834824&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and abortion if the life of the child is in jeopardy. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; You can make your life better and even better for the unborn  or already born child by giving that child a real life rather than  allowing that child to realize how ungrown up a child raising a child can be.&amp;nbsp; Eventually no respect is shown and that be toxic.&amp;nbsp; I have seen my share of brats in grocery stores; that&#39;s for sure!&amp;nbsp; Kids running around like little animals; knocking shit down, rolling around on the ground crying up a storm when they don&#39;t get their way,&amp;nbsp; bumping into people and so much more!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Kids do need good parents that care and are observant of their behavior rather than ignoring many situations. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  178. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I know I will never even begin to understand how words can even ruin someone&#39;s life or how can someone&#39;s life be ruined so simply? &amp;nbsp; Or how can someone else have the power to take another person&#39;s life? &amp;nbsp; How can someone allow their life to be ruined?&amp;nbsp; Just live your life and make it better?&amp;nbsp; We have a limited amount of time here to make special; so make your mark and seize your opportunities! &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEicNb5H-at1Nqwk9vAo7HyuSwKCDQ41U1_ZM6eIKCp27nmbBxqRB8qYAGizArPdJ1kPb2SwDqGRMkmAUqIGJpBqVohT3AAxnM0z1QEUPBzIau6_kwBcSstv4JGuo_Csbku8IgiDUF3izUXB/s1600/_MG_7351.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEicNb5H-at1Nqwk9vAo7HyuSwKCDQ41U1_ZM6eIKCp27nmbBxqRB8qYAGizArPdJ1kPb2SwDqGRMkmAUqIGJpBqVohT3AAxnM0z1QEUPBzIau6_kwBcSstv4JGuo_Csbku8IgiDUF3izUXB/s320/_MG_7351.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Sure I could easily say that &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Dangerous-Surrender-What-Happens-When/dp/0310258901?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Cancer ruined my life&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0310258901&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and just complain about everything around me&amp;nbsp; (be a total bore and shit to be around!) but I wouldn&#39;t be honest if I did.&amp;nbsp; Cancer did change my life in many ways but it also opened my eyes to so much more in this world! &amp;nbsp; Some days I wake up and I have total pain everywhere and can barely get out of bed and then there are those fabulous days where I have just enough energy to get out of bed and attempt have a fabulous day.&amp;nbsp; I still have many days of fun as I have these past few days. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  179. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHrGYKT-52L_TdOy6CmmsNzjGgiw6CeCBgIZCD9mBr4oxwEGEyp4M4AUXcThxUNmLfeVYeu5yQne43p7zRXSQy-eaXlqhmKswz8UfoUYiubY1OrzhTdH_EV6junP0_93eFAUNRtd0B_BRM/s1600/_MG_7585.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHrGYKT-52L_TdOy6CmmsNzjGgiw6CeCBgIZCD9mBr4oxwEGEyp4M4AUXcThxUNmLfeVYeu5yQne43p7zRXSQy-eaXlqhmKswz8UfoUYiubY1OrzhTdH_EV6junP0_93eFAUNRtd0B_BRM/s320/_MG_7585.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt; This is a photo that I should entitle as &quot;Love&quot;.&amp;nbsp; My husband is determined to keep me alive as long as I can live.&amp;nbsp; A friend of mine came over yesterday and took these amazing photos  ever of me and my family; brother, my dad and a few of my husband; mostly family  shots but some very beautiful photos meant for my blog; so I should have plenty of photos to last me for my blog!) &amp;nbsp; I thought I would show  all of you what I endure as I use my pot to get rid of the serious pain I  suffer from.&amp;nbsp; You can actually see wires connecting on me. LOL, that  &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Pro-Guard-Official-Hockey-Puck/dp/B0027B0PHI?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;huge hockey puck&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0027B0PHI&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; or &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Tobacco-Brands-Golden-Virginia-Grizzly/dp/1157477186?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Skoal tobacco&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1157477186&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  180. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEja_up4lqMRiKAeeLwDinZatd7ThG99KW5sFQxyYOC3CFip5OXX69lRJbd4peO5pEhTAdrJ_xYID54_n2qL7lNbTKUciGw81a25oppDIrsyQLGVYEWEsUnWig2ND5fI-sP9fyywFa0AS0Ws/s1600/_MG_7485.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEja_up4lqMRiKAeeLwDinZatd7ThG99KW5sFQxyYOC3CFip5OXX69lRJbd4peO5pEhTAdrJ_xYID54_n2qL7lNbTKUciGw81a25oppDIrsyQLGVYEWEsUnWig2ND5fI-sP9fyywFa0AS0Ws/s320/_MG_7485.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&amp;nbsp; You have to live your life in order to live and enjoy?&amp;nbsp; Life really is not that bad and it sure as hell is not all about &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Money-Greed-and-God-ebook/dp/B0027KRRKW?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;money and greed&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0027KRRKW&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; You life will not end over money; I guess unless someone else is greedy enough to do so? I hope we can all learn to live with out so much &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/State-World-2010-Transforming-Sustainability/dp/039333726X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;consumerism&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=039333726X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and just learn how to enjoy the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Peaceful-Moments/dp/B0038UAGUS?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;peaceful moments&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0038UAGUS&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; with each other as we are blessed to have.&amp;nbsp; We never know what each moment might bring and sometimes my husband and I have very scary moments of this cancer trying to take hold of me but we never give up hope. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  181. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;We actually had a little shakin going on just a few days&amp;nbsp; ago (a little earth quake, my dad and brother didn&#39;t feel it but my honey and my puppy sure felt it; it just lasted a few seconds; then the next day (on Monday) we went to see &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/True-Grit-Charles-Portis/dp/159020459X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;True Grit&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=159020459X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot;. &amp;nbsp; It was a hell of lot better than that horrible &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Black-Swan-Tyrone-Power/dp/B000FFJ83A?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;bird/ballet movie&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000FFJ83A&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;!&amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t believe we sat through that entire movie!&amp;nbsp; What a bore! We enjoyed this one; it was OK for me.&amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t like a whole lot of bang, bang shoot em up!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I didn&#39;t like the snake scene towards the end or the scenes where horses had died.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  182. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEglXZj9E-seeKKna9WaLUibd3hkZP_htV8INntKLdDy0szc3yJgoKIXaUiRDAtvpg1O-eoiANavu1a3K9pFXqHZ4hnExpjCNeH5DwJi11jJgzZKvhVHpuuvgpOMiNVPRNoz6jZ2sHOXmeKy/s1600/36TJ1787.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEglXZj9E-seeKKna9WaLUibd3hkZP_htV8INntKLdDy0szc3yJgoKIXaUiRDAtvpg1O-eoiANavu1a3K9pFXqHZ4hnExpjCNeH5DwJi11jJgzZKvhVHpuuvgpOMiNVPRNoz6jZ2sHOXmeKy/s320/36TJ1787.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;My husband will always take care of me no matter what.&amp;nbsp; We are there for each other and so is my father and my brother and so many of my friends.&amp;nbsp; My world is filled with love; what can I say?&amp;nbsp; How can I say that cancer has ruined my life when I have so much love?&amp;nbsp; My brother and I had grown up very close.&amp;nbsp; I took care of him when my mother wasn&#39;t able to; I did teach him how to drive too; so he is great driver and was able to take me to &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Santa-Cruz-Beach-Boardwalk-Century/dp/1580088147?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Santa Cruz&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1580088147&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; in order to get me some excellent medicine which has really helped me with my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Cancer-Pain-Assessment-Diagnosis-Management/dp/1608310892?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;cancer pain&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1608310892&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; check out those tumors and you can see the wire that extends to my spine in the photo at the top of this post.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m on hospice care taking the most strongest drugs ever; can&#39;t take any pills so smoking a joint and the pain disappearing in less than 5 minutes is a blessing for me.&amp;nbsp; I hope many other patients are able to do the same.&amp;nbsp; They too deserve to have more time spent with their love ones.&amp;nbsp; You can see how &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Emperor-All-Maladies-Biography-Cancer/dp/1439107955?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;debilitating cancer&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1439107955&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; can be on a soul but I&#39;m still fighting and will continue to until the very end.&amp;nbsp; Well it&#39;s not really fighting; its enjoying life no matter what!) &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  183. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHM1tNHEV28_PDQO-LVKaNGzmfVTrdqxblUDzcRxi8Wbyz_ojfROrNM130Q4qU6N7qrClygE2JI0t27LY2uEQc2Bp-GjQqvZlADo-i4vIEo0ymtN0nc764mLDvvJQ6P1BONRteSdrIadW6/s1600/_MG_7447.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHM1tNHEV28_PDQO-LVKaNGzmfVTrdqxblUDzcRxi8Wbyz_ojfROrNM130Q4qU6N7qrClygE2JI0t27LY2uEQc2Bp-GjQqvZlADo-i4vIEo0ymtN0nc764mLDvvJQ6P1BONRteSdrIadW6/s320/_MG_7447.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I can&#39;t get over how much fun my brother and I have been having these past few days.&amp;nbsp; I have kept the pain at bay with the special medicine we went to get on Sunday.&amp;nbsp; It was awesome to see my other brother; he is a brother to me as a cancer survivor.&amp;nbsp; I had not seen my brother since my 39th birthday; so what a blessing it&#39;s been just to hang out and &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Schwinn-Windwood-Cruiser-26-Inch-Wheels/dp/B002TR0PRK?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;ride bikes together&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002TR0PRK&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;!).&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m so glad we were all able to just let go have a blast with a photoshoot.&amp;nbsp; Everything turned out perfect!&amp;nbsp; So much fun we have had together!&amp;nbsp; Sure I scared the scared the crap out of them at times with &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Back-Painful-Syndromes-Muscle-Spasms/dp/1850703043?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;painful muscle spasms&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1850703043&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; (in my ass!-(. &amp;nbsp; I was able to control the pain so much better with this &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Good-Medicine-Great-David-Ford/dp/0965593207?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;extra strong cannabis&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0965593207&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;. &amp;nbsp; Thank you my brother in Santa Cruz!&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  184. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I&#39;m still enjoying each day I am blessed to have.&amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Peace-Hippie-Sling-Purse-Handbag/dp/B002Y3RBF8?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Peace and Love&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002Y3RBF8&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; to all of you!&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  190. I had an awesome day yesterday (I had way more energy than I did just the day before and I was very thankful to have had that kind of energy; it doesn&#39;t come along often enough!), even the day before (Monday) where I was able to get things done around the house (granted I was smoking some good Santa Cruz weed); but it helped immensely with the amount of pain that I was feeling and having to deal with; hell it even gave me the&amp;nbsp; energy that I didn&#39;t have just the day before. &amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t take that kind of pain relief for granted if it works that good!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  192. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgIw-75nvi6kRKg-1qub_fWlT_ces8UUthllrXioD1XMviBPflM21_EExxuKzV6YAzD4BmF5muaLB2eY5TqLYxHR0Sdqbaha7KuvG41GU4n0Vn2MEaNrYRXl66eWZPjTf7CwQjW3PNBj80k/s1600/DSCN252920110101_165506.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgIw-75nvi6kRKg-1qub_fWlT_ces8UUthllrXioD1XMviBPflM21_EExxuKzV6YAzD4BmF5muaLB2eY5TqLYxHR0Sdqbaha7KuvG41GU4n0Vn2MEaNrYRXl66eWZPjTf7CwQjW3PNBj80k/s320/DSCN252920110101_165506.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;Well here is Tonto sporting his &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Wisconsin-Badgers-Adult-Blanket-Sleeves/dp/B002IRKG7K?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Wisconsin Badger&#39;s&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002IRKG7K&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; Team spirit for my honey and his friends.&amp;nbsp; The Badgers were getting beat so bad we needed to switch something up!&amp;nbsp; They must have scrored a few points because of this &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Wisconsin-Badgers-Stuffed-Plush-Mascot/dp/B002HXZH60?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;wonderful little mascot&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002HXZH60&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  194. To get back to my health problems; I was functional enough even today to finish up some&amp;nbsp; laundry, dishes, sweep and mop floor, some light vacuuming, and so much more. &amp;nbsp; I&#39;m happy if I can just do one thing in one day but to do multiple is a miracle and a total blessing!) &amp;nbsp; Just the day before I could barely do anything useful. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I love being able to be a help around the house and when my pain erupts;&amp;nbsp; it totally sucks when I can barely do anything and I can&#39;t help but feel like a little worthless shit.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m not one to thoroughly enjoy the help of others in cleaning my house, why do I feel guilty when others want to help me?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m so independent that perhaps my reasoning is that they are out visiting me and should be treated as the welcome visitors inside my home.&amp;nbsp; That guilty feeling is not a good feeling to have and I really do need to over of it and accept all the love and blessings that comes to me!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  195. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiGMAG4XWgLPdDrgT7F6MTOcFF9PmSFb_5XwzEqCrGCI_24enoI8OuKL7V7-Zv4fEnwW6C8YuQxXQB0AyZcNqxUGgZC15JgtnXu5TGKeEU1zVp8yj3L11ZTHt-07q6W-7HPkW7NNny0ZGHt/s1600/DSCN254220110102_035139.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiGMAG4XWgLPdDrgT7F6MTOcFF9PmSFb_5XwzEqCrGCI_24enoI8OuKL7V7-Zv4fEnwW6C8YuQxXQB0AyZcNqxUGgZC15JgtnXu5TGKeEU1zVp8yj3L11ZTHt-07q6W-7HPkW7NNny0ZGHt/s320/DSCN254220110102_035139.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;Tomorrow my dad is visiting and then on Saturday; my younger brother will be here to visit.&amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t wait!&amp;nbsp; I miss them both so dearly and it might be the last time that I will&amp;nbsp; every get to see my younger brother and him me; my dad has already made promises to come visit me as often as he can but my brother has been saving up to see me for a while.&amp;nbsp; Oh how I miss my brother and I can&#39;t believe he is going to be here.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; It makes me happy that my brother loves my husband as another sibling or part of the family; he is grateful to have this wonderful man watching his beloved sis&#39;s back.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I couldn&#39;t imagine being in his shoes; a whole country away as I&#39;m dying.&amp;nbsp; It sucks to have to actually say that; but it is the truth; maybe I will and maybe I won&#39;t beat this beast.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m still fighting to live everyday even though I have to take so many debilitating drugs; so its not just the weed; actually the weed is much safer; but I do have to take pain medication for being eaten alive, bones breaking, and crazy shit growing off me.&lt;br /&gt;
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  197. I am hoping that I feel good enough for all four of us to go see &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/True-Grit-Charles-Portis/dp/159020459X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;True Grit&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=159020459X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot;; I have been told by many that it is a &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/True-Grit-Special-Collectors-Wayne/dp/B000O179FY?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Brilliant Masterpiece&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000O179FY&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot;; well it can&#39;t be any worse than a psychotic dancer who self mutilates her fingernails and weird shit coming out of her back.&amp;nbsp; I wonder if I&#39;m going to grow feathers on my back?&amp;nbsp; My back does itch like crazy but I have yet to see if I have hairy back?&amp;nbsp; Still smooth as a baby back there but I might have a pterodactyl wing instead that growing like an angel wing? &lt;br /&gt;
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  199. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEho4x2WYK9bUtrxIxrv4b6qlpjl2CcfUn1y-_1lLG4LFBRWvP1SXwtpDOiRmwO8bvLQgcp4bu_WLsiQwTBBYIyZ9yV0T8eV9Qt3izWDItDXoQ9elL3zu_ynjHqqABx4e_JDghAP85rgmODr/s1600/DSCN254020110101_165614.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEho4x2WYK9bUtrxIxrv4b6qlpjl2CcfUn1y-_1lLG4LFBRWvP1SXwtpDOiRmwO8bvLQgcp4bu_WLsiQwTBBYIyZ9yV0T8eV9Qt3izWDItDXoQ9elL3zu_ynjHqqABx4e_JDghAP85rgmODr/s320/DSCN254020110101_165614.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;I am very thankful for my blog because my hospice nurse was able to get online and read it and&amp;nbsp; then she called me immediately in order to work out the pain plan.&amp;nbsp; No I would not be suffering in any kind of pain if she could help it and that to me is a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Pioneers-Hospice-Changing-Face-Dying/dp/B004CM7KTQ?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;wonderful hospice nurse&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B004CM7KTQ&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; the best I could ever ask for!)&amp;nbsp; We basically increased my Dilaudid and Methadone and she did everything she could to get in touch with my pain doctor in order to get my pain pump turned up.&amp;nbsp; Wow! That has totally made a difference!)&amp;nbsp; So I have another hero in my life; my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Living-End-Life-Addresses-Questions/dp/1402768389?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Hospice nurse&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1402768389&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;!) .&amp;nbsp; So no longer just a lifesaver for others but also a lifesaver for me!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  201. The pain medications that they have me on are so very strong,;they are very, very powerful pain drugs and while they do work they can also cause me to sleep hard and not wake up (if I take too much); won&#39;t be doing that!) &amp;nbsp; It did finally kick in and I&#39;m feeling lots better these last couple of days.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m still puking like crazy.&amp;nbsp; We are now anxiously&amp;nbsp; awaiting my dad&#39;s arrival in a cab from &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/San-Jose-International-Airport-California/dp/6130485247?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;San Jose Airport&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=6130485247&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; Miss Blue Belle is suspecting something and she knows something is going on.&amp;nbsp; She knows the word Grandpa and has been getting excited; waiting at the door at times; it&#39;s just very precious.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; My apologies for such a short post but just wanted to let you all know I&#39;m still fighting hard to stay alive and my will to live is just as strong as the love in my heart which keeps me going.&lt;br /&gt;
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  203. Peace and Love to all of you!&amp;nbsp; Plus I would love to thank all of you for kind and very sweet comments and emails!&amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t thank you all enough! from the very bottom of my heart!)&lt;br /&gt;
  204. I love you all!&amp;nbsp; My this world work in &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Bhagavad-Gita-Modern-Times-Attaining/dp/0965804267?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Peace and Harmony&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0965804267&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; as we work hard to rid the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Delivered-Evil-Saga-World-War/dp/0060158123?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;world of evil&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0060158123&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; greed!)&amp;nbsp; Here&#39;s to that greed disintegrating and a cure for cancer being found?&amp;nbsp; Lives meaning more than money!&amp;nbsp; Imagine that?&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  209. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEizajKSWhYY-h7Pimj2rTXZDYr6tAtoY-qME7QeDnLk6mhLFPHoreCAXlE8d6aagdxY42ym_VbxYrHbQMGnV8dfbHcRf8d-SU34L2R-t9amnAFJsQOcITv5lVByi0M4y_eEMUqWuh1yIHEw/s1600/DSC0070120101226_182532.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEizajKSWhYY-h7Pimj2rTXZDYr6tAtoY-qME7QeDnLk6mhLFPHoreCAXlE8d6aagdxY42ym_VbxYrHbQMGnV8dfbHcRf8d-SU34L2R-t9amnAFJsQOcITv5lVByi0M4y_eEMUqWuh1yIHEw/s320/DSC0070120101226_182532.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Well the two of us did have a fabulous&amp;nbsp; little Christmas together and I was so&amp;nbsp; thankful to have been able to cook us an excellent little Christmas meal for both of us on Sunday.&amp;nbsp; I had&amp;nbsp; just a few bites of &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/New-Braunfels-Smokehouse-Cornish-Game/dp/B002QWXA7U?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Cornish game hens&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002QWXA7U&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;,&amp;nbsp; (there is no way I could have cooked an entire turkey!) excellent dressing, (I accidentally got Turnips instead of my honey&#39;s&amp;nbsp; favored Rutabagas; they still turned out excellent!); The whole mashed potato mixture contained boiled Turnips, Cauliflower, and baby multicolored potatoes, and of course Turkey gravy and canned cranberry sauce to compliment our wonderful meal together!).&amp;nbsp; I wasn&#39;t able to hold everything in or gain all the weight that I had hoped and prayed to gain!) &amp;nbsp; Blue Belle even gained weight from the medication the vet had prescribed to her.&amp;nbsp; She gained a whole pound in 1 week while I lost about 10lbs. &amp;nbsp; How does that&amp;nbsp; happen?&amp;nbsp; I saved one of the game hens so that I could more easily give her those pills that I would never want to force down her throat.&amp;nbsp; Instead she wolfed down a small piece of chicken containing her medicine each day this week.&amp;nbsp; We still have a few more pills that she&#39;s working on finishing; but we have not caused her any stress in giving her medication.&amp;nbsp; The only stress she has felt is having a damn thermometer shoved up her ass!&amp;nbsp; I do fondly remember how much she hates one of those cold things shoved up her ass!)&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s so unpleasant to her but my honey said she did better the second time around. &amp;nbsp; He ear puffed up again the day we brought her back to the vet (for the check up and now she has another appointment on the 4th (maybe for surgery?), we don&#39;t know yet.&amp;nbsp; Either way her broken ear will somehow get fixed or forever be a broken ear?(.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  210. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYHC8VC2gGN8TziWxwO_DrOADK5bGt_xe4gh6f88l11hJCUItCk2F5_T_MgNNUWV7A4QTGN-cZvo8-g_7nfLONbhyphenhyphenSUQxNcjBv7Mmmjj5b0y8Zg-zwsNr54hdN6mplE5WofjGaYdlYbOAu/s1600/DSCN251420101231_230840.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYHC8VC2gGN8TziWxwO_DrOADK5bGt_xe4gh6f88l11hJCUItCk2F5_T_MgNNUWV7A4QTGN-cZvo8-g_7nfLONbhyphenhyphenSUQxNcjBv7Mmmjj5b0y8Zg-zwsNr54hdN6mplE5WofjGaYdlYbOAu/s320/DSCN251420101231_230840.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;As for me and my health problems which seem to never end; the puking has not stopped completely although I can do little things that help for a couple of hours for pain.&amp;nbsp; I still smoke my occasional joints that help with pain, muscle spasms (&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Volcano-Digit-Vaporizer-SYSTEM-complete/dp/B000UUYUK6?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Volcano Vaporizer&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000UUYUK6&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;).&amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t think I could have made it this long with out my beloved &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Marijuana-Medicine-Healing-Visionary-Cannabis/dp/0892819332?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Cannabis medicine&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0892819332&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s definitely made my life more easier to tolerate with the pain and suffering.&amp;nbsp; I just wished other patients were able to utilize this &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Waiting-Inhale-Marijuana-Medicine-Law/dp/B001NV95YW?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;powerful medicine&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001NV95YW&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; as well.&amp;nbsp; I hate knowing that others in other states are suffering all for their politician&#39;s greed.&amp;nbsp; That&#39;s pretty much what it amounts to is greed.&amp;nbsp; They allow the dying and suffering all for greed.; someone else&#39;s definition of &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Quality-Life-Assessment-Interpretation-Patient-reported/dp/047002450X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;quality of life&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=047002450X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;?&amp;nbsp; Which is basically materialistic things like a bigger house, another home, a yacht, a private jet and so much more; just pure evil greed.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; They will never be able to take any of that shit with them when they are gone; I do know this as I&#39;m facing death right in the face! &amp;nbsp; NO a patient may not utilize &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Medicinal-Uses-Cannabis-Cannabinoids-Geoffrey/dp/0853695172?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;medicinal cannabis&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0853695172&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and no they may not have a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Quality-Wider-Studies-Development-Economics/dp/0198287976?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;better quality of life&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0198287976&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; they may only take hard core pain medicines? &amp;nbsp; How can someone so full of greed and hatred make those kinds of decisions for others who truly need to stop suffering in pain?&amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t believe how we worry so much about prisoners who have death sentences more so than we do our own citizens who on hospice care or are sick and dying?&amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t understand this completely but I sure hope it changes one day soon.&amp;nbsp; Our country needs more Peace and Love!&amp;nbsp; You have to have been able to love fully in order to enjoy this life.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  211. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I&#39;m still trying to eat although today I&#39;ve been feeling quite a bit nauseated as my sweetie is helping me sooo, sooo, very much in giving me my intravenous dosings of Zofran (&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.rxlist.com/zofran_injection-drug.htm&quot;&gt;Ondansetron Injection- 4mg&lt;/a&gt;).&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I made it through my 8 year Cancervary (Nov. 15th), my 8 year wedding anniversary (Dec. 3rd) my honey&#39;s birthday and then Christmas and now New Years seems to be a bit scary for me as I watch my body start to deteriorate right in front of me.&amp;nbsp; I hardly have any muscle tone in my legs and am having a hard time getting up the stairs or even getting dressed.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  212. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Today, the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Handbook-Chaplains-Comfort-My-People/dp/0809143860?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Chaplain&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0809143860&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; (&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Preparation-oncology-settings-hospice-workers/dp/B00098M8G2?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;social worker from hospice&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B00098M8G2&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;) may be visiting me and finding out if I am more ready for my transition to the next life/journey.&amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Miss-You-First-Look-Death/dp/0764117645?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Death&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0764117645&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; can be very scary for most of us when in reality it is very natural; we will all have to face this inevitable fact; some of us much sooner.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m thankful for each and every moment of life that I&#39;m given because at any point my body could just give out.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I hate the thought of just leaving all of my loved ones; especially &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/You-My-Soul-Mate/dp/1598424254?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;my soul mate&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1598424254&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;. &amp;nbsp; I just can&#39;t bear it!&amp;nbsp; I love him so much and just thinking about what&#39;s going on with me makes me cry a river of tears. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; We have had so many great years together and then these types of moments where I feel like such a helpless shit as he waits on me hand and foot with everything I could possibly need.&amp;nbsp; I wish I could do so more for him because he really deserves it.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; He is more of a man than any man I have ever met and will always be my own personal hero and of course the very&amp;nbsp; best friend I could ever ask for!)&amp;nbsp; How can our&amp;nbsp; love end this way I wonder?&amp;nbsp; How come we can&#39;t have more fun in the snow?&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m so weak and seeing all this snow makes me sad and reminiscent of all the fun pure powder day my sweetie and I have enjoyed together.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m so thankful for all the great memories I have and how I wish we could make some more.&amp;nbsp; I did see the news and noticed that we lost a young snowboarding princess this weekend and I only wish that I could go that way!&amp;nbsp; I have always thought that I would rather Die having fun than to&amp;nbsp; die a sick death.&amp;nbsp; When you die sick it doesn&#39;t seem that your life is noticed at all at least in the media.&amp;nbsp; Just a small blurb in the Obituaries section and that is it.&amp;nbsp; It doesn&#39;t stop there, I&#39;m loved by so many here;&amp;nbsp; I know I won&#39;t be forgotten here!&amp;nbsp; There is so much love here and I very grateful for all this love!)&amp;nbsp; Let&#39;s hope 2011 will be the year that the cure for all cancers was found; an end to Corporate greed over human lives.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  213. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;What sucks sometimes is that I still wonder why I was chosen to suffer so much how come such a great couple like us was not allowed the happiness of being able to have a family together but instead of kids, we got cancer? &amp;nbsp; I wouldn&#39;t want to wish this on anyone although I still think of the evils of our last Administration and their greed.&amp;nbsp; Why doesn&#39;t cancer affect those who are totally evil?&amp;nbsp; Why is it often coined &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.magicvalley.com/lifestyles/article_e1da0560-cab1-5e55-b166-be77e61a7759.html&quot;&gt;the nice person&#39;s disease&lt;/a&gt;?&quot;.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; If I could just give this disease to anyone, I would definitely pick &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.apfn.org/apfn/dcheney.htm&quot;&gt;Dick Cheney&lt;/a&gt;.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Sure he has suffered some with heart disease, but the damage he did to our country and so many millions of lives; he deserves so much more.&amp;nbsp; Pure and &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Cheney-Americas-Powerful-Controversial-President/dp/B001AQVTJE?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;total evil&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001AQVTJE&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; is how I would describe him.&amp;nbsp; OK enough with the politics.&amp;nbsp; What an evil, evil subject and of course the most &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Rise-Richard-Cheney-Unlocking-Mysteries/dp/1595580255?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;evil man ever&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1595580255&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;!&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  214. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;How am I going to beat this?&amp;nbsp; Oh it just might not happen but I can&#39;t help but choose to live each day I&#39;m given and to try my best to do as much as I possibly can each day.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;ve been sitting in front of the television way too much but I&#39;m so weak; I&#39;ve tried to read some books but my eyesight is not improving; it&#39;s getting kinda blurry?&amp;nbsp; My head starts to hurt and then I start feeling dizzy and then I fall asleep for more hours?!&amp;nbsp; I just read this little brochure put out by Hospice on the process of dying.&amp;nbsp; &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Gone-My-Sight-Dying-Experience/dp/B000PVU49Q?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Gone from my Sight&lt;/a&gt;&quot;.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; The one to two weeks prior to death; I&#39;m supposed to become disoriented which I have not felt much of yet so I hope I have more time.&amp;nbsp; I get these pains in my chest and then my heart just races and then it scares the living crap out of me; Oh god how I wish I would crap my pants from that; I really do need too!).&amp;nbsp; But anyway, I have been sleeping a lot more and when others sleep their bodies are energized, mine will be preparing my weak little body for my next journey (Death).&amp;nbsp; Its kind of fascinating how the body does all that it needs to do for all of life&#39;s processes.&amp;nbsp; I had no idea but its happening.&amp;nbsp; My body is just like a skeleton with skin now; no muscles anymore.&amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t do any weight gaining shakes without vomiting everything out.&amp;nbsp; Nothing seems to be working but I&#39;m still grateful as ever to have so many loving souls around me. &amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  215. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I&#39;m definitely not feeling like eating much but I do feel incredibly dehydrated and drinking the living shit out of these Key Lime sodas that I&#39;ve been craving.&amp;nbsp; Yep, still craving pickles; although lately that&#39;s about all I&#39;m craving for right now?&amp;nbsp; Sometimes mashed potatoes; went through some killer cravings for cheese and whole milk!?&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m still doing TPN and we almost didn&#39;t last night because it just seemed that I was that close to death from the severe pains and not being able to catch up on the pain.&amp;nbsp; It was horrible last night and I feel so bad stressing my poor honey out like that!&amp;nbsp; He does not deserve that at all!)&amp;nbsp; He&#39;s so wonderful and I just can&#39;t say enough about him!)&amp;nbsp; He really is the most amazing man ever!&amp;nbsp; Each day I spend with him makes me feel so much more and more in love with him than ever!&amp;nbsp; I never thought I would ever find true love like this and to know that my days with him may be numbered makes me feel very sad.&amp;nbsp; I hope he is able to move on and become happy once again.&amp;nbsp; He deserves happiness and I know he&#39;s not happy having to deal with my impending death.&amp;nbsp; It sucks so bad. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  216. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I wish all of you a wonderful 2011 and I hope and wish that I can be around to witness such a great year.&amp;nbsp; All moments are precious; Peace and Love to all of you!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  220. My honey and I have been shocked at the recent developments of my body lately.&amp;nbsp; Check out the vein-age and bony arms?&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s pretty scary and shocking but it&#39;s what&#39;s happening each and every day I survive this beast called Cancer.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  226. Boy did I prove my doctors wrong! &amp;nbsp; I guess I proved that I&#39;m more than some milk carton that has expired; my expiration date keeps on rolling forward; maybe in reality I&#39;m really spoiled?.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; It&amp;nbsp; sure wasn&#39;t expected at all that I would survive this long and with&amp;nbsp; each passing day being a blessing as I witness myself wake up each and every morning next to my loved ones.&lt;br /&gt;
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  228. Sometimes I have to wake up to a very loud demanding kitty cat&amp;nbsp; crying at me and then making biscuits with his paws on my pillow in hopes that I will wake up.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s the sweetest&amp;nbsp; little things that happen in my bed in the morning until&amp;nbsp; he starts getting loud and then louder as the minutes drag on for him being so starved to death!; he&#39;s just like a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Spoiled-Rotten-Todays-Children-Change/dp/0446395099?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;spoiled child&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0446395099&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; if I don&#39;t wake up with in 5 minutes and feed his big fat ass. &amp;nbsp; He appears to drag a portion of his fat tummy on the ground and we are still walking him outside (actually he&#39;s walking us much like a lab would) when we can to give him some exercise and he claims this workout makes him extremely hungry. &amp;nbsp; During the day he likes to give me subtle hints of his extreme hunger by licking his empty metal food bowl.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I think he feels that it should always be full of food.&amp;nbsp; We made that mistake years ago with old Toonces.&amp;nbsp; He was a perfect weight until he stayed with a friend of ours and had one of those autofeeders that is always full of food.&amp;nbsp; He&amp;nbsp; also ate cheap catfood that gave him &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.uvma.org/cats/urinary-problems.htm&quot;&gt;Cystitus&lt;/a&gt;.&amp;nbsp; You really have to read ingredients before purchasing because all that cheapness can cause massive vet bills!&amp;nbsp; We had to pay over $5000 for that problem. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  229. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEitKBkswu8aXMAur0IAXXA2LqmFC9seaOxy4SYCPu-7CcvzYwuebzg748EV4Yi6d_3dK-f9gN1Xa29sfFpu1qbmrfNC7G-FS8q47jl56q1DAqzs6R-12y916mF9EORSWcZc16pBnT2vamHs/s1600/DSC0069620101224_200129.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEitKBkswu8aXMAur0IAXXA2LqmFC9seaOxy4SYCPu-7CcvzYwuebzg748EV4Yi6d_3dK-f9gN1Xa29sfFpu1qbmrfNC7G-FS8q47jl56q1DAqzs6R-12y916mF9EORSWcZc16pBnT2vamHs/s320/DSC0069620101224_200129.jpg&quot; width=&quot;240&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;Then I get this little Mini Collie girl&amp;nbsp; (Miss Blue Belle) who doesn&#39;t wish to be outdone by her rival sibling brother so she has to plop down in between my honey and I as we wake up together. &amp;nbsp; My mornings are so often cute with the animals displaying each of their personalities to me and then my honey who helps me get unhooked from the TPN &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Intravenous-Therapy-Guide-Quality-Care/dp/0397546173?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;(intravenous feeding&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0397546173&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;), flushes my picc lines with Saline and Heparin so as to not leave my veins completely closed off. &amp;nbsp; If you don&#39;t flush the veins after using them for antibiotics, anti nausea medication, and then the &lt;a href=&quot;http://enotes.tripod.com/tpn.htm&quot;&gt;TPN feedings&lt;/a&gt; then I would have to go through the misery of trying to get another picc line inserted and at this point; it&#39;s just too late for me to get this one replaced. &amp;nbsp; Everyday really is a blessing; especially if my picc line is still working.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m always thankful that it is!&amp;nbsp; It is really painful to get one inserted!&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  230. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;We had to go to the hospital on Wednesday in the infusion center where most cancer patients receive their chemotherapy treatments and so much more.&amp;nbsp; I normally go there to get my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Button%7E-Tobacco%7E-Vintage-Button-Approx/dp/B003YX5AB4?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;skoal&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003YX5AB4&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; container refilled and I also had to fix my picc line as it had not been working in weeks for drawing blood.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; For the last 3 weeks; my poor little defenseless tiny little rolling veins&amp;nbsp; which have been getting stuck for several weeks in a row and are not really producing all the blood that is normally needed for blood samples? So then I get stuck more times for more blood?&amp;nbsp; OMG does it hurt to get stuck and then the nurse having to dig and dig and dig for my&amp;nbsp; tiny little veins which have conveniently rolled right out of the way of that needle and it seems they are keeping close eye on the needle as to avoid getting stuck all while my poor skin and bones are getting the feeling of that pricking pain!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Oh god do I hate getting stuck when I don&#39;t have a clue as to whether my veins are working or not.&amp;nbsp; Do I have any working veins I often wonder?&amp;nbsp; I cry sometimes because sometimes it just seems that I&#39;m running out of veins. &amp;nbsp; It always seems like my veins are all broken.&amp;nbsp; How much longer can survive like this?&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s pretty scary and I have to get myself out of that state of mind quickly.&lt;br /&gt;
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  233. Also on Wednesday, I had noticed that Miss Blue Belle had one ear that was flipped more so than her left ear.&amp;nbsp; The left ear was flipped on the tip and the right was all the way and I checked the ear and it was swollen.&amp;nbsp; I just so happened to be speaking to my brother when I noticed this problem. He knew exactly what was wrong and had suggested that she had a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Hematoma-Dictionary-Bibliography-Annotated-References/dp/0597844496?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;hematoma&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0597844496&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; on her ear which turned out to be exactly what he had predicted.&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; I researched it on the internet thinking that perhaps one of the neighbor dogs had bitten her ear hard enough to break a blood vessel or that Tonto could have caused it?&amp;nbsp; I have never seen him violent with her?&amp;nbsp; All of those possibilities are not even mentioned for how these things get started. &amp;nbsp; It isn&#39;t completely understood how they are started but usually occurs with intensive head shaking or ear scratching? &amp;nbsp; My brother&amp;nbsp; told me I would have to take her to the vet for either surgery or just to get it drained.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; His dog seemed to get them a few times over the years.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; He also suggested that I should ice her ear which I did and it seemed to help her quite a bit.&amp;nbsp; She had the saddest look on her face and she put up with me icing and massaging her ear so well.&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; She seemed to know that I was helping her and not hurting her.&amp;nbsp; I could tell she was very uncomfortable; so I talked gently to her as she gazed into my eyes with her pretty little face! )&amp;nbsp; She is so freaking cute!&amp;nbsp; I called the vet but could not get an appointment until the following day. &amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
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  235. I had just been to the vet on Monday to pick up cat litter, get a copy of Blue Belle&#39;s shot records f(or Therapy Dog International) and&amp;nbsp; to also try to get&amp;nbsp; Miss Blue Belle her kennel cough vaccination.&amp;nbsp; I could tell it was the same receptionist from Monday when I had called to get the appointment for her ear. &amp;nbsp; The receptionist at this vet clinic was not at all friendly or kind about us having to wait up 4 hours or even more just to be seen.&amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t think she liked being kept busy but she loved the power of making people wait!&amp;nbsp; It was obvious and she even had this winy tone to her voice that even though we would have an appointment it would take most of the day to get anything done on our dog?&amp;nbsp; I tried to tell her our situation in order to make it easier but she was completely and totally unphased by any of our problems.&amp;nbsp; For her it was really no big deal for anyone to&amp;nbsp; have to waste 4 hours of their valuable day waiting&amp;nbsp; around no matter what health problems clients were having. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; At least emergencies were handled first. &amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t think this girl could care any less about my life and I shouldn&#39;t expect her to. &amp;nbsp; I just hope people around me can at least have a heart and I try my best to find that in others.&amp;nbsp; How big is your heart; not how big is your bank account, but how big is your heart?&amp;nbsp; That&#39;s how I judge wealth!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  237. &amp;nbsp; I did tell her&amp;nbsp; that I was on Hospice care and it wasn&#39;t good for me to have to wait so incredibly long just for a vaccination; she was not at all phased&amp;nbsp; at all or even that I had also told her that I had a&amp;nbsp; deadly cancer (she thought I was&amp;nbsp; totally lying)&amp;nbsp; or that she had just had me wait in the store for over 2 hours and was about to have me wait another 2 hours; just for a single vaccination?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I was pretty pissed at her but I held it all in.&amp;nbsp; I didn&#39;t let it get the best of me.&amp;nbsp; She was just young and naive, and quite possibly very selfish. &amp;nbsp; She was very negative and uncaring but the rest of the staff seemed a lot more friendlier and caring. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; They really couldn&#39;t do anything and I guess I should have asked to speak with her supervisor to see if she was handling us correctly.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
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  239. I had already waited in the store for a little over 2 hours&amp;nbsp; ( I also saw other patients come and go as I was waiting) and I was&amp;nbsp; starting to feel very sick; like I needed to drain my stomach with R2.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Once my appointment came up she (receptionist) told me that I would have to wait an additional 2 hours which would have been a total of 4 hours just for one single little vaccination?&amp;nbsp; I just couldn&#39;t wrap my reasonings on why I would have to wait 4 hours just for a shot? &amp;nbsp; I just couldn&#39;t do that. &amp;nbsp; I had already waited over 2 hours just to get sick inside this office? I should have vomited&amp;nbsp; right on her desk (I kept thinking); maybe that would have changed how things were handled?&amp;nbsp; Maybe it would have woke her up?&amp;nbsp; She might have just thought that I was having a heroin fix and I needed to do my drugs?&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; Maybe she would be glad to get rid of me after I did that?&amp;nbsp; I left and went home, got sick and then crashed.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; (this was on Monday!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  241. Then of course just days later; Miss Blue Belle has this problem with her ear.&amp;nbsp; Maybe she could get her shot while being seen for this problem?&amp;nbsp; My honey agreed to take Miss Blue Belle to the vet for me.&amp;nbsp; Poor little girl, she has been so self conscious about her ear and with visitors she would try to hide her deformed ear by only showing off her perfect side (left).&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; He took her in and dealt with the difficulties of having an appointment that was non-emergency but Miss Blue Belle felt it was an emergency since her ear just didn&#39;t look right and it was ultra uncomfortable.&amp;nbsp; Well he did bring her in but of course she wasn&#39;t able to get her vaccination for kennel cough so I will have to try and take her another time?&lt;br /&gt;
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  243. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcYbHddIaXtydgaCgYdCwcm_3UhwDwouXPL0mnerY6_tJ4uH2-mTGI3pyJFq0mhmCzF0E6k239MA5Kc45X-c2MKpsrKfMiB3pSuf3o6HE8e5hnEQLCeWW-bxYJQadTcAyneseDRLAMAWwX/s1600/gator+death+roll.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;254&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcYbHddIaXtydgaCgYdCwcm_3UhwDwouXPL0mnerY6_tJ4uH2-mTGI3pyJFq0mhmCzF0E6k239MA5Kc45X-c2MKpsrKfMiB3pSuf3o6HE8e5hnEQLCeWW-bxYJQadTcAyneseDRLAMAWwX/s320/gator+death+roll.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;I am very thankful that my picc line was able to get fixed on Wednesday.&amp;nbsp; We were able to get it unclogged; finally and then I got my pain pump refilled right after that. &amp;nbsp; I wasn&#39;t exactly enjoying having the semi strange nurse come out to stick me&amp;nbsp; which does has its drawbacks.&amp;nbsp; My tiny almost non-existent veins totally and completely hate needles with a passion and they will&amp;nbsp; most often roll just like a crocodile!&amp;nbsp; Oh the crap my honey has to deal with in order to keep me alive! &amp;nbsp; It&#39;s amazing that he has done such a fabulous job each and every day. &amp;nbsp; Life is such a miracle for me!)&amp;nbsp; I look at everyone of those responsibilities that&amp;nbsp; he has to do as Christmas gifts.&amp;nbsp; He is giving me life everyday and that to me is the most precious gift anyone could ever give me. &amp;nbsp; I love how he takes care of me each day as it seems it&#39;s appreciated more and more!) &amp;nbsp; He really wanted to buy me something special for what is turning out to be my final Christmas.&amp;nbsp; I lost another 5 lbs which I am really bummed about.&amp;nbsp; It seems I have been pigging out as much as I can but then I vomit like crazy most of the time or suck it all up with my R2.&lt;br /&gt;
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  245. &lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgsH9coDoDddT3rGgZqEV8YsUGTHp7NtpqCWVQLnjUgFGj1HWhO-Qi5dw5iVjIhyphenhyphen1XH5X8kJVf4qBXCdewn_s-Lnv7xLJ0lK2x1oigNTuhupTC-IjRlYfVv3_9KHJQG65cZmWX6MN66Y3x6/s1600/Natalie-Portman-And-Mila-Kunis-Has-Hot-Kiss-Scene-In-New-Black-Swan-Movie-Video.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgsH9coDoDddT3rGgZqEV8YsUGTHp7NtpqCWVQLnjUgFGj1HWhO-Qi5dw5iVjIhyphenhyphen1XH5X8kJVf4qBXCdewn_s-Lnv7xLJ0lK2x1oigNTuhupTC-IjRlYfVv3_9KHJQG65cZmWX6MN66Y3x6/s320/Natalie-Portman-And-Mila-Kunis-Has-Hot-Kiss-Scene-In-New-Black-Swan-Movie-Video.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Christmas-Together-2010-Hallmark-Ornament/dp/B003U56RJK?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Our Christmas together&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003U56RJK&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; has been amazing.&amp;nbsp; We went to see &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Black-Original-Motion-Picture-Soundtrack/dp/B0046M15BQ?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Black Swan&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0046M15BQ&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; which really was incredibly boring and disturbing at the same time. &amp;nbsp; Even though my honey was in pure hell,&amp;nbsp; I still had fun! &amp;nbsp; I couldn&#39;t connect with the main character at all because my personality is nothing like hers. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I did feel that &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/American-Psycho-2-Mila-Kunis/dp/B000066C76?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Mila Kunis&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000066C76&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; did an amazing job and I would be quite surprised if she didn&#39;t win Best Supporting Actress.&amp;nbsp; I do know that the Oscars normally pick movies that are often very difficult to watch, are incredibly boring, and disturbing and this one definitely fits what is usually picked!&lt;br /&gt;
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  247. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpBw8SsA1Q-U6ZDm9ZXiIBrw4N3Y1bNtV4LTQkhj0PjWH7LxQlwMR6aGNYv2E83NEZLxliAwENfFZBoqfC1AXJuWaL_7rESjJG_szA7-GoUQeYuOYyko2vW4zd94bLfca3FBXZ3Ob3zaxo/s1600/toenails.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;268&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpBw8SsA1Q-U6ZDm9ZXiIBrw4N3Y1bNtV4LTQkhj0PjWH7LxQlwMR6aGNYv2E83NEZLxliAwENfFZBoqfC1AXJuWaL_7rESjJG_szA7-GoUQeYuOYyko2vW4zd94bLfca3FBXZ3Ob3zaxo/s320/toenails.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&amp;nbsp;Most comedies never seem to make it&amp;nbsp; for nominations? and the more the movie makes one laugh; the less chance the critics like it?&amp;nbsp; In this film;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I did not fancy&amp;nbsp; the main character tearing the living shit out of her fingernails or toenails.? Her nails were bleeding and then her mom played by Barbara Hershey had these tiny little scissors and she yanked and cut her nails!&amp;nbsp; You could actually hear the clippers!&amp;nbsp; Youch! &amp;nbsp; I do know my honey&#39;s number one pet peeve is hearing nails being cut!&amp;nbsp; He was in absolute hell during those scenes; oh yes, there were more than 1 of those scenes!&amp;nbsp; This director loved grossing everyone out with sickening images of bloody finger nails being clipped with scissors!&amp;nbsp; Why not also show the main actress taking a shit and then wiping her ass clean? &amp;nbsp; It was the same effect as scraping nails down a chalkboard and then showing&amp;nbsp; the damage under the nails only it was much, much worse.&amp;nbsp; I think she might have split a toe nail after she had bounced up in the air so many times in a row? &amp;nbsp; Her big toe had a slice all the way down, had black on that same toe nail and then she ripped the nail right off?&amp;nbsp; It was horrid little injuries that made me jump and nearly turned my stomach upside down! &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; My poor honey was in total hell the entire time (except for the lesbo scene which he enjoyed for about 30-40 seconds of)&lt;br /&gt;
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  249. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYyVqYfArLzMpuWQi0ngDlEvWjdVgMfWIw7TmA_3jsx6raNo8OhXvWXsoFIT4jE6UxcT3zGLCpLVXlAudtj5fmz5qcHrb9KiqHqx8UbDReV5D_IOva-RMAWqM50Ow923PK4QHlofHHGV3r/s1600/black-swan-movie-photo-01.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYyVqYfArLzMpuWQi0ngDlEvWjdVgMfWIw7TmA_3jsx6raNo8OhXvWXsoFIT4jE6UxcT3zGLCpLVXlAudtj5fmz5qcHrb9KiqHqx8UbDReV5D_IOva-RMAWqM50Ow923PK4QHlofHHGV3r/s320/black-swan-movie-photo-01.jpg&quot; width=&quot;238&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;I do have to admit that I did enjoy the dancing, I understood the plot but for most not being familiar with Ballet; it would thoroughly bore the living shit out of those who are not familiar but I&#39;m not much into such strict technical, rehearsed, and such disciplined&amp;nbsp; dancing for which a dancer can say &quot;I want to be perfect&quot; or I am perfect?&amp;nbsp; How can anyone be perfect or be expected to be perfect?&amp;nbsp; Can&#39;t a dancer invent a move to call her own or just have her own style&amp;nbsp; of dance rather than being so strict, completely rehearsed, and disciplined? &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; The main character was so stressed out, completely frigid with her sexuality, and totally disciplined.&amp;nbsp; Well one thing that seems to be common with some ballet dancers is having &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Overcoming-Bulimia-Comprehensive-Step-Step/dp/1572243260?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;bulimia&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1572243260&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; or &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Wasted-Memoir-Anorexia-Bulimia-P-S/dp/0060858796?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;anorexia&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0060858796&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; They always feel that they are not thin enough and that thinness is never enough.&amp;nbsp; I look at myself in the mirror and am sickened by seeing my bones so prominently. &amp;nbsp; I didn&#39;t feel so bad that I weighed the same as Mila Kunis at the time she did this movie.&amp;nbsp; She was on one of those talk shows just the night before we watched this movie&amp;nbsp; (Christmas Eve) in that she had lost a total of 20lbs and had gotten down to 95lbs which is exactly what I weighed in at when we went to see this movie yesterday! &amp;nbsp; The funny thing about my honey and I going to see this movie is that each time the main character went to vomit my honey would check to see how I was doing and if I felt that I needed to yak too? I almost did a few times but I held my own very well during the whole movie.&amp;nbsp; I ate a little bit of popcorn which I puked up later once I got home. &lt;br /&gt;
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  251. We made it home; I napped and we opened up the rest of our gifts later on in the middle of the night (after midnight!).&amp;nbsp; It was great!&amp;nbsp; We still have a few more gifts coming in the mail so we can celebrate for the rest of the year! &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Tonto freaked out on one of his catnip toys that one of him Grandma&#39;s had given him.&amp;nbsp; They both love Christmas and know that there are gifts for them to tear into and play with.&amp;nbsp; Blue Belle got an awesome skunk and raccoon toys which she loves to play tug of war with!&amp;nbsp; She nearly forgot about her ear being injured as she was having so much fun with her new toys.&amp;nbsp; She also got some treats and Tonto got incredibly stoned with me; he had his catnip and I had my ganga to keep me from vomiting and so far it was working very good for the pain and the nausea.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Grand daddy Purple! I&#39;m still testing some strains a friend gave us on the pain scale of 1-10.&amp;nbsp; I have been testing on how I feel after wards.&amp;nbsp; How sleepy do I feel (does it help with insomnia?), do I feel the need to vomit and if so how much (scale of 1-10), am I hungry? How hungry am I? Do I still have pain or heartburn?, How thirsty am I (dehydration).&amp;nbsp; I think this will help in knowing what each strain does.&amp;nbsp; So far I have been using according to what problems I may have.&amp;nbsp; Having a good nights sleep has been a blessing and getting rid of nausea and the pain is equally awesome!)&amp;nbsp; Different strains really work differently.&amp;nbsp; Some strains even give me energy where I can get up, sweep and mop or do laundry and dishes?&amp;nbsp; How awesome is that?&lt;br /&gt;
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  253. I hope everyone had an amazing Christmas or Holidays what ever you want to call it!&amp;nbsp; I grew up calling Christmas, Christmas and most likely I&#39;m never going to change that about me.&amp;nbsp; As long as we enjoy the days or the entire month as I have.&amp;nbsp; Hope it was filled with Love, Joy, Laughter, and great memories!)&amp;nbsp; Peace and Love to all!&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  259. Well because I am on this antibiotic; I have to get my blood drawn every couple of days and it totally sucks that my picc line is not working for blood return and we were there just last week to see about unclogging it and sure enough that nurse was able to get a blood draw out of both catheters?&amp;nbsp; How in the hell did she do that?&amp;nbsp; I had to get some more blood samples done today (yowie, owie!).&amp;nbsp; I totally despise needles; especially needles intended to be used on my poor defenseless little veins.&amp;nbsp; Oh they do roll like crazy; more rolling than Blue Belle does for a treat!&lt;br /&gt;
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  261. &lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6Xlv4F4qfoenixwALKijD7wxbdYk8LtGropto7hzuet3Ulgodlb7foKC916DUfj6qaQklPdUNwSjDtabqmalxM0-ep_Qh-z8eud3QG2esWlJFKwmDqh6J2x-ji-yXDjMH68sZjtOGwNLK/s1600/DSCN246820101217_192854.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;200&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6Xlv4F4qfoenixwALKijD7wxbdYk8LtGropto7hzuet3Ulgodlb7foKC916DUfj6qaQklPdUNwSjDtabqmalxM0-ep_Qh-z8eud3QG2esWlJFKwmDqh6J2x-ji-yXDjMH68sZjtOGwNLK/s200/DSCN246820101217_192854.JPG&quot; width=&quot;150&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;My picc line is not working at all for blood draws and she actually did a wonderful job getting blood out of my tough ass veins and I was pretty impressed; less so that other day as I was still a bit wierded out by her.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m glad I gave her some more chances before saying I didn&#39;t want to see her again; she isn&#39;t so bad? &amp;nbsp; I can forgive and forget pretty easily these days.&amp;nbsp; I know most people I am around genuinely care about me and how could I remain mad at anyone over stupid shit. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; The blood samples have been&amp;nbsp; needed because of my antibiotic baby bottle looking thing.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s hard to believe this little contraption actually&amp;nbsp; dispenses medicine with out the use of some pump? I have to take it twice a day and it does take about 2 hours to diffuse into my system.&amp;nbsp; Did I even use the proper terminology for that?&amp;nbsp;&lt;br /&gt;
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  263. This photo is of what it looks like after it has been diffused; the balloon is totally deflated and it almost looks phallic? &amp;nbsp; The photo above this one is what it looks like before it is diffused; that kind of a huge balloon in there?&amp;nbsp; I seem to be learning more and more each day about this dreadful disease that my body continues to fight with out the aid of more chemo and radiation. &amp;nbsp; All these little weird contraptions that do things for my body!)&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m done with all that for now.&amp;nbsp; I may or may not get better; but either way I do have a journey to travel and not sure where I will be going after all of this?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I hope this antibiotic can kill this Staph Infection; there is no guarantee if it will work for mine.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
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  265. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6-5MQXgN6QvihDRCVfbE0OOW5cEerv_kDsUzWpK0KezUBPBJ3gH49fl9nqGNWyVJTGMYKb4sk5cnHkV3jqfSciHnaKwCG1alDZj945PdUojZOknVvC1ukQC3snkuEuV5EyLITgETrOv0H/s1600/DSCN246120101217_040539.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6-5MQXgN6QvihDRCVfbE0OOW5cEerv_kDsUzWpK0KezUBPBJ3gH49fl9nqGNWyVJTGMYKb4sk5cnHkV3jqfSciHnaKwCG1alDZj945PdUojZOknVvC1ukQC3snkuEuV5EyLITgETrOv0H/s320/DSCN246120101217_040539.JPG&quot; width=&quot;240&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;Now for the rest of my blog.&amp;nbsp; Check out my beautiful Christmas Tree!&amp;nbsp; I love it!&amp;nbsp; Tonto really loves it; he likes to see it from all angles of the house; he has been tripping a little on the lights but you can tell by his face that he loves it!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  267. &amp;nbsp; I do know that my blog may be incredibly scattered as I tend to write so much about how I feel and what&#39;s clearly on my mind; especially things that bother me.&amp;nbsp; Well this post will be incredibly scattered at many tend to be.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s a rant, bitch fest if you prefer to call it that?! &amp;nbsp; It really&amp;nbsp; helps me to get everything out there and if what&#39;s in my mind could possibly help others; then so be it!&amp;nbsp; Feel free to speak your mind too in my comments section.&amp;nbsp; You would never be judged!) OK sometimes my posts might even annoy many of you but I can&#39;t help but vent about what&#39;s on my mind. &amp;nbsp; If there are those who don&#39;t like it, get offended; I am sorry,&amp;nbsp; just close the window!)&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m not about to shut my thoughts off as long as I&#39;m still around!)&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  268. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi67mZZUtQl78yfzAqgj9wMFBYItkdXq-cLxLNj9Tb5AiJd1ebwcrEOdlcAAZLGIC6y5IwoLi6pGmxKt3tRuqcY-mkbkrArBJzH9j7U4CTYqM90NeXSDMkj9GX0_CSX1fUJrdVLBbVVh3iG/s1600/DSCN245320101217_002247.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi67mZZUtQl78yfzAqgj9wMFBYItkdXq-cLxLNj9Tb5AiJd1ebwcrEOdlcAAZLGIC6y5IwoLi6pGmxKt3tRuqcY-mkbkrArBJzH9j7U4CTYqM90NeXSDMkj9GX0_CSX1fUJrdVLBbVVh3iG/s320/DSCN245320101217_002247.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;I&#39;m not much into being Politically correct in any way; I don&#39;t understand why. &amp;nbsp; It just seems that many people get offended way too easily and therefore more and more rights for many of us are&amp;nbsp; then taken away.&amp;nbsp; We can&#39;t do this and we can&#39;t do that and we can&#39;t say this and we can&#39;t say that? &amp;nbsp; Are we supposed to walk on pins and needles in order to be around some certain types of people?&amp;nbsp; Why can&#39;t we just be ourselves?&amp;nbsp; We do still live in a free country supposedly?&lt;br /&gt;
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  270. OK, I&#39;m not at all&amp;nbsp; about people name calling and being mean to others, but I  am about making others laugh; because laughter is so important!&amp;nbsp; Life should be  about happiness and enjoying our lives here!)&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I feel that most people should just&amp;nbsp; get over it and not having any sense of humor or understanding of others?.&amp;nbsp; They should at least learn how to put themselves in others shoes (NO Being totally selfish and self centered!= teach kids that too!)&amp;nbsp; to better understand them rather than to be totally intolerant of them.&amp;nbsp; That&#39;s how we can better get along with others!&amp;nbsp; Give everyone a chance and if they screw up then they screw up! &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Greed is what is harming our country and if people can learn how to be more giving and considerate of others perhaps then our Country can return to being one of the best countries in the world!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  271. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijm1MSihyO1fxtQyCrUNzQ5W4WdaiWsktfSJbrIiIRV-X0HENT_TxEQTDaSMDOr3HkpIlcZJX-zNDBuFxKEEy1ggNUYieD9AuPU46WhHOnggZhUUs4jx3YGb6KPvWJYig7tKYwSSGK0mRR/s1600/DSC0062820100101_193150.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;261&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijm1MSihyO1fxtQyCrUNzQ5W4WdaiWsktfSJbrIiIRV-X0HENT_TxEQTDaSMDOr3HkpIlcZJX-zNDBuFxKEEy1ggNUYieD9AuPU46WhHOnggZhUUs4jx3YGb6KPvWJYig7tKYwSSGK0mRR/s320/DSC0062820100101_193150.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;Because so many have too much time on their hands, they tend to think of things that annoy them rather than &quot;what can I do to make things better?&quot;.&amp;nbsp; If they have so much time; I do know that hospice and some animal shelters, hospitals always needs volunteers.&amp;nbsp; It would make so many of these bitter individuals feel so much better!&amp;nbsp; Giving yourself to those who really do appreciate it really feels amazing.&amp;nbsp; I felt great every time I was able to take Miss Blue Belle to visit with other patients. I can&#39;t really do that anymore and oh how I wished that I could!) It almost lit me up like a Christmas tree just to see their happiness and smiles.&amp;nbsp; Shoot, I just walk her in a shopping center and the smiles I get are just amazing!)&amp;nbsp; Yes, do something good for a change for those who feel like tromping on others rights to be free in this country!) &lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  272. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhe9enScGJ7-_FSh3hCwWgwCEoF9DxI3dcx65eEX8F95WOePbjd7YwqMw1x4a6MmpuaNeyxEUQ3r50W5CxDSsC7-mj2-hMGjwpE-ap0DLKYV9XM9MV-M8MLALONqBw-qKLAPKswGbFkD4Fx/s1600/harley.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;287&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhe9enScGJ7-_FSh3hCwWgwCEoF9DxI3dcx65eEX8F95WOePbjd7YwqMw1x4a6MmpuaNeyxEUQ3r50W5CxDSsC7-mj2-hMGjwpE-ap0DLKYV9XM9MV-M8MLALONqBw-qKLAPKswGbFkD4Fx/s320/harley.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&amp;nbsp; Many people here in CA are mad at Motorcyclists for having such loud pipes and what scares me is that 2011 is the last year that you can get a motorcycle with loud pipes (from what I understand).&amp;nbsp; Loud pipes, as annoying as they may be (its only for just for a few seconds as they pass by= hey their lives are so totally worth it despite what many look like!), THEY SAVE LIVES!&amp;nbsp; You can&#39;t hear them, they don&#39;t get noticed and then someone looses their life.&amp;nbsp; How fucked up is that? (excuse my language but really! We are talking about someone&#39;s life. &amp;nbsp; That&#39;s the harsh truth to those in their huge SUVs with their loud children with all kinds of noises and disruptions inside their vehicle as they try to get where they are going in a rush.&amp;nbsp; I just hope and pray that there&amp;nbsp; isn&#39;t a huge spike in motorcycle fatalities because of the silly stupid law. &amp;nbsp; Hey its a very stupid law! &amp;nbsp; It&#39;s sad but I really don&#39;t feel that those lawmakers passed that law with out any considerations for those poor riders.&amp;nbsp; What about all that so many do in their cars and all of their distractions.&amp;nbsp; Phones, GPS, many have blue tooth devices and can&#39;t hear low sounding motorcycles or even notice smaller vehicles on the road.&amp;nbsp; Until their distractions are taken care of, those pipes should be LOUD! &amp;nbsp; There that&#39;s my vent about that!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  273. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I can&#39;t believe all of the silly laws that occur when much are what we would do in the privacy of our own home is our business! What business is it of theirs if I have to use my medicine when I&#39;m in pain? or others for that matter?&amp;nbsp; We are talking about my favorite wonderful miracle plant!)&amp;nbsp; Yes, I&#39;m totally against raping children, taking advantage of them (actually taking advantage of anyone), harming their innocence, but as long as it doesn&#39;t involve the harming of a child.&amp;nbsp; One sitting in their own home, alone after a long hard, stressful day at work; they would be able to relax&amp;nbsp; and smoke a joint, or&amp;nbsp; even watching a good porn movie with a lover should not be a crime?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  274. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Some people actually want to outlaw &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Treating-Pornography-Addiction-Essential-Recovery/dp/097722080X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Pornography&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=097722080X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; completely because they feel that its harmful for society? Just because its bad for one person; doesn&#39;t mean it&#39;s all bad for all of us?&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m OK with &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Pornography-History-Civilisation-Marilyn-Milgrom/dp/B000CSUNU2?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Pornography&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000CSUNU2&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; that is legal (disease testing, of age participants who are willing= many have fun?)&amp;nbsp; What really is wrong with that? &amp;nbsp; Many men become &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Treating-Pornography-Addiction-Essential-Recovery/dp/097722080X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;addicted to pornography&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=097722080X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; just as many become addicted to coffee, alcohol and cigarettes. &amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t believe that it&#39;s totally harmful for all; much of it actually helps many marriages and at times it can also end a good marriage.&amp;nbsp; Hell it&#39;s helped my own!) You can just look at the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Scandals-Roman-Catholic-Church-Corvin/dp/1885928165?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Catholic Church&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1885928165&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; to find out the harm of NO sex.&amp;nbsp; In reality, most men really can&#39;t live with out it unless they get castrated.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Many are wired for sex!&amp;nbsp; I do believe that we should absolutely castrate all rapists and child molesters in my opinion= we have to castrate all male dogs right?).&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t feel&amp;nbsp; that many are no better than dogs when they rape young children or anyone who never asked for it.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
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  276. Maybe sex is bad for one person but great for others?&amp;nbsp; Don&#39;t feel you have to ruin it for everyone else if it sucks for you? &amp;nbsp; We really shouldn&#39;t have to deprive the rest of us? &amp;nbsp; What will we be if people can&#39;t speak their minds or do fun things in the privacy of our own home?&amp;nbsp; We should have a right to our own bodies;&amp;nbsp; our own homes, they are not the property of the State or the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Just-Facts-History-Federal-Government/dp/B003KM4CKO?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Federal Government&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003KM4CKO&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;?&amp;nbsp; OK maybe we are?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  277. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Punishments should fit the crime and having a joint and getting a year in  prison is not at all about fitting the crime in any way.&amp;nbsp; The real question is how does that joint harm society and warrant a one year prison stint?&amp;nbsp; Do we really wish to train more &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/News-Nightline-Children-Tried-Adults/dp/B002EQA14S?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;violent criminals&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002EQA14S&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;?&amp;nbsp; That&#39;s what happens when you put someone who might be very young, inexperienced in with hardened criminals who have killed and the only thing this person has done is &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Smoke-Joint-Whinery-Letter-editor/dp/B004BD28FM?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;smoke a joint&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B004BD28FM&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;? &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;  Many states really need to rethink and rewrite their laws and do consider those &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Lockdown-USA/dp/B003GHSWZY?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;draconian &amp;nbsp;  punishments&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003GHSWZY&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;?&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  278. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I also don&#39;t feel that drug addicts should be treated as criminals when it technically is an illness.&amp;nbsp; You can just look at a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Portrait-Addict-Young-Man-Memoir/dp/0316054674?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;drug addict&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0316054674&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and see that they really are sick.&amp;nbsp; You can&#39;t even see their soul if they are consumed so much by addiction. &amp;nbsp; Arresting a total junkie and putting them in prison, treating them as a criminal will make them a more &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Creation-Dangerous-Violent-Criminals/dp/0252062620?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;dangerous criminal&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0252062620&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, but if we give them treatment they will ultimately get better if they don&#39;t relapse (everyone deserves a chance), but if they do, treat them again but please don&#39;t create a more dangerous criminal!&amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/INVESTIGATION-NARCOTIC-DANGEROUS-DRUG-OFFENSES/dp/B0012S9C12?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Treatment&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0012S9C12&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; works for most alcoholics&amp;nbsp; so why not with all non violent drug offenders?&amp;nbsp; We could actually make more room for real criminals (murderers, thieves (yes, some addicts do steal for their habits and that&#39;s not right; that&#39;s where the law get broken)&amp;nbsp; and save our states from having to cut so much into Education or health insurance.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  279. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Despite all that I am going through; I still can&#39;t help but feel horrible for all of those patients in all of those other states where &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Marijuana-Safer-Driving-People-Drink/dp/1603581448?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Cannabis is illegal&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1603581448&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; This weekend was a very trying time for me.&amp;nbsp; I suffered so especially in the late hours of the night with serious, serious pain.&amp;nbsp; I could not have gone through it if it were not for my beloved &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Volcano-Digit-Vaporizer-SYSTEM-complete/dp/B000UUYUK6?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Volcano Vaporizer&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000UUYUK6&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot;.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; What an amazing investment that was!)&amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t say that enough.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  280. It&#39;s even illegal for growing for industrial use even though those types of plants don&#39;t even have enough traces of THC (no one can get high on &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Great-Book-Hemp-Environmental-Extraordinary/dp/0892815418?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Industrial Hemp&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0892815418&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;); now that is pure ignorance on our Government&#39;s behalf!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Growing-Hemp-For-Profit-ebook/dp/B003X4M904?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Industrial Hemp&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003X4M904&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; could totally revolutionize our country and get most of us back to work and even making enough money to have a home or keep their homes!)&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s green, its good, its smart, and we should NOT be importing it from other countries!&amp;nbsp; We have an excellent country where we can grow it here!)&lt;br /&gt;
  281. &lt;br /&gt;
  282. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I do know the pain and suffering that so many patients are going through and it sickens me that so many worry about those poor murderers and pure animals that are on death row?&amp;nbsp; They worry more about their rights than the rights of these poor patients it seems.&amp;nbsp; These poor patients should be offered the best medical care and if cannabis would benefit them in any way; it should be made available to them.&amp;nbsp; Denying &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Good-Medicine-Compassion-Tonglen-Meditation/dp/B000G1SZQ4?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;good medicine&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000G1SZQ4&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; to anyone who needs it is wrong and I have no idea how those who do feel they should be denied can even sleep at night?&amp;nbsp; This medicine has been used safely for over 10,000 years; what was so horrible that happened to this miracle plant in the last 40 years?&amp;nbsp; That&#39;s just me.&amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t feel &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Healing-America-Global-Better-Cheaper/dp/0143118218?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Health Care&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0143118218&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; should be a privilege as so many feel it should be (only the wealthy and not the sick?).&amp;nbsp; I would much rather pay for health care for all rather than to continue to support the failed and dumb ass War on Drugs! It&#39;s so clearly not working; just as Prohibition in the 20&#39;s and 30&#39;s worked.&amp;nbsp; It makes our country less safe than it was over 40 years ago. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  283. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Many of those on &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Texas-Death-Row-Executions-Modern/dp/0452289300?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;death row&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0452289300&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; have NO conscious, no love in their hearts and pure hatred for life as they have clearly proved (what about the rights of those they murdered, raped, or seriously hurt?) and we worry more so about them suffering than the many hundreds of thousands of Cancer patients going through horrid &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Psychotherapy-Chemical-Dependence-Treatment-Integrative/dp/0534261183?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;chemical treatments&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0534261183&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; with serious side effects that is actually real pain and suffering; not pain from being stuck by a needle; they get stuck hundreds of times.&amp;nbsp; I still cry sometimes just by getting stuck by a tiny needle?&amp;nbsp; Many patients end up dying from the treatments rather than the cancer?&amp;nbsp; I still wonder if &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Resilience-Reflections-Burdens-Facing-Adversities/dp/0767931564?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Elizabeth Edwards&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0767931564&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; died from her treatments more so than the cancer; she really was cheated out of more time.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; This is just my opinion but I will be researching this further as my curiosity has grown.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  284. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I still consider myself very lucky even though my days are numbered.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; One gift I hope to have by &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/TCM-Greatest-Classic-Films-Collection/dp/B002GSXKQU?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Christmas&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002GSXKQU&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; is an end to this&amp;nbsp; staph infection in my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Eliminating-Diverticulitis-Infections-Enlargement-Menopausal/dp/1930858027?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;bladder and kidneys&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1930858027&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; here&#39;s to those baby bottle thingies working.&amp;nbsp; OK, now this posting was incredibly scattered and I apologize for that; but I got everything out of my mind for now; until tomorrow!&amp;nbsp; It will be a blessing once again to wake up again to another excellent day!)&amp;nbsp; Peace and Love to all of you!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  289. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Meanwhile my poor honey has to put up with my very high maintenance demands in order to ensure my survival each day! &amp;nbsp; These demands really aren&#39;t true demands but if he wants to continue to have me around which both of us feel is a great thing!)&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m facing the fact; I&#39;m pretty damned high maintenance. &amp;nbsp; I need my tummy bandage changed every other day, I have to drain my tummy from R2 several times a day, my tummy gets hungry as a side effect from one of my pain, &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Insomnia-Stephen-King/dp/0451184963?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;insomnia&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0451184963&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, nausea, and heartburn medication (&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.wamm.org/&quot;&gt;Santa Cruz strain&lt;/a&gt;), which worked amazingly on my pains.&lt;br /&gt;
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  291. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi56g0LSTGUVC39guncMyZPXFD4639snonrtLkWRikimpT4dr6h0FGOFmsAdwtNZxESQgn4Pop2RrSbYzxPoGorEWlEnGhVla1MIaVNe0bIZ2pRhRdSYXTcOxRslrf5seguf8XZkegM7Ih7/s1600/DSCN934720100101_192937.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;311&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi56g0LSTGUVC39guncMyZPXFD4639snonrtLkWRikimpT4dr6h0FGOFmsAdwtNZxESQgn4Pop2RrSbYzxPoGorEWlEnGhVla1MIaVNe0bIZ2pRhRdSYXTcOxRslrf5seguf8XZkegM7Ih7/s320/DSCN934720100101_192937.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;(Sorry about this photo; it&#39;s very beautiful; especially the colors but Tonto is just sitting there either licking his penis or his asshole!) = Sorry about that!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  293. I also get the worst cancer pains ever and sometimes I get pain so bad that I let out annoying little screaming sounds that scare the living hell out of my honey.&amp;nbsp; I wish I could stop that sometimes!&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s&amp;nbsp; so incredibly painful that those little screams are practically involuntary.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m going to give him heart attack one day if don&#39;t get this under control. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; That pain has to be under control because I don&#39;t want to make my life with my sweet heart more stressful! &amp;nbsp; Sometimes after I eat; I go through the worst pains!&amp;nbsp; It would be so cool if my intestines actually worked and I could eat.&lt;br /&gt;
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  295. I&#39;m so thankful for his amazing job!&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m just amazed by their compassion and understanding and this is a government entity.&amp;nbsp; I would&amp;nbsp; say what place it is but out of respect&amp;nbsp; for my honey&#39;s privacy more than anything (I will not!).&amp;nbsp; I am very, very, very, very proud of him and I love him with all of my heart and soul!). I couldn&#39;t imagine anyone taking anything away from him like his job all because of the love he has for me.&amp;nbsp; I hope other jobs are as compassionate as my husband&#39;s and of course my job too!&amp;nbsp; They are just amazing and very supportive.&amp;nbsp; Support and love help me to this day to enjoy everyday that I do have.&amp;nbsp; Thank you all for that!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  297. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKGA-fXecQ0LXtBOJS1YNrdMh8vudjRhHxvEuGLTZZL42uT4qam-EFVl88Mh0yrPe9DUgabfcYU_j5o8IPT3QuMb395xPqFYT8kbP3fIPvGDoNrFAtv7isNfIHI76uhOdwkKeFOOKgAnSJ/s1600/DSC0065020100108_020406.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKGA-fXecQ0LXtBOJS1YNrdMh8vudjRhHxvEuGLTZZL42uT4qam-EFVl88Mh0yrPe9DUgabfcYU_j5o8IPT3QuMb395xPqFYT8kbP3fIPvGDoNrFAtv7isNfIHI76uhOdwkKeFOOKgAnSJ/s320/DSC0065020100108_020406.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;This weekend; primarily Saturday night; I woke up around 2 am screaming, crying and puking up a storm.&amp;nbsp; It was so very, very scary for my honey to see.&amp;nbsp; I was in so much pain and my poor sweety was running around trying to get medicine and try to make a call to hospice or decide if I needed 911.&amp;nbsp; I was really suffering in pain and we&amp;nbsp; both were scared.&amp;nbsp; Sometimes if I am in a deep sleep and because I don&#39;t snore, my honey has to wake me up to see if I am still alive. &amp;nbsp; Thank god we were able to control the pain (&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Storz-Bickel-VOLCANO-Vaporizer-Starter/dp/B003H3DH2A?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Vaporizer&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003H3DH2A&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;= &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.kindgreenbuds.com/marijuana-strains/romulan.html&quot;&gt;Romulan&lt;/a&gt;)&amp;nbsp; The &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.kindgreenbuds.com/marijuana-strains/romulan.html&quot;&gt;Romulan&lt;/a&gt; knocked me completely out; I slept like a baby and haven&#39;t done so in many days or weeks?&lt;br /&gt;
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  299. The next morning (Sunday) we called &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Hospice-Companion-Perry-G-Fine/dp/0195369971?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Hospice&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0195369971&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and told them&amp;nbsp; of the situation we had last night.&amp;nbsp; I was having horrible back and kidney pains mostly and thank god I was able to sleep through all&amp;nbsp; of that pain despite it all!) It was suggested that I just come into ER and get the pain managed but you all know what an incredibly hard head I am about that!&amp;nbsp; I just can&#39;t go through getting poked, stabbed and my veins mutilated further in the ER.&amp;nbsp; They don&#39;t seem to care about me having a picc line and they always tell me each time that they are not authorized to use my picc line?&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s there for a reason (PLEASE SAVE MY POOR VEINS!) &amp;nbsp;&lt;br /&gt;
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  301. I spoke with some very, very sweet nurses on the phone who seemed to have lots of compassion and love for me.&amp;nbsp; They understood completely as to why I didn&#39;t want to go into ER. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I do love great nurses!&amp;nbsp; There just are not enough of them!)&amp;nbsp; They felt I did need to have a nurse come out and evaluate me since I wouldn&#39;t be going into ER unless the nurse coming out felt I needed to.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
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  303. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2kXNo8d2vhlAl33liVjg_uFgp8rN1x2q8jJGlOMDUrdS1P1VPRqXyHmCswTxTefFu1WKSGKaK79nJTQXLoRyOE4vXmwyfB3ZoXS_YrN6Csyay0hpsh2BDXGdasOO2lRpt2QUnWD9hcyy0/s1600/IMG_111620100121_190511.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2kXNo8d2vhlAl33liVjg_uFgp8rN1x2q8jJGlOMDUrdS1P1VPRqXyHmCswTxTefFu1WKSGKaK79nJTQXLoRyOE4vXmwyfB3ZoXS_YrN6Csyay0hpsh2BDXGdasOO2lRpt2QUnWD9hcyy0/s320/IMG_111620100121_190511.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;All day long (Sunday) we had to wait for a nurse to get here and she didn&#39;t get there until after 5pm I think?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I was told that over the phone that it would be this one very kind nurse whom I love would be by shortly since she works close to my neighborhood and I later got a call that she couldn&#39;t make it and that her co-worker would.&lt;br /&gt;
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  305. I got a call an hour later with a totally different nurse asking for directions to my home.&amp;nbsp; I gave her the directions and she was here with in about 40-45 minutes. It was kind of late and delayed but I didn&#39;t care; I just wanted to have a nurse to check me out; I didn&#39;t care; as long as I get to stay home and heal.&amp;nbsp; I was very questionable about whether I was&amp;nbsp; actually worthy of a nurse visit since I can still walk around and do things?&amp;nbsp; I just didn&#39;t think my pain warranted a visit&amp;nbsp; from a Hospice Nurse or ER visit. Yeah I felt kind of guilty?&lt;br /&gt;
  306. &lt;br /&gt;
  307. When this new nurse had first  arrived (on Sunday), she was kind of a weirdo.? &amp;nbsp;  Excuse my language. &amp;nbsp; Sometimes freaky acting people are weirdos; hey  I&#39;m a weirdo in my own sense!, so&#39;s my strange big foot kitty cat)&amp;nbsp; Oh  god I hate calling people names but I can&#39;t help how awkward our&amp;nbsp; initial meeting  was.&amp;nbsp; She had finally arrived and my honey had wanted me to call him to let  him know that the nurse had arrived.&amp;nbsp; Yeah I was supposed to call him and just let him know that the nurse had it under control. &amp;nbsp; I was basically supposed to call him the minute she showed up. &amp;nbsp; I let her in and tried to pick up  the phone to call my husband but she stopped me and asked if we could&amp;nbsp; 1st just go through all of her questions first?&amp;nbsp; It was a very awkward moment for  me; I may not even be remembering all of this right (so please bear with me!) &amp;nbsp; but I do think her  irritation of me started about then.&amp;nbsp;&lt;br /&gt;
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  309. I really think she was very irritated at me.&amp;nbsp;  Maybe I didn&#39;t appear to look like I needed the help of a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Final-Gifts-Understanding-Awareness-Communications/dp/0553378767?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Hospice  Nurse&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0553378767&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; I know many people are shocked to hear that I have advanced cancer; perhaps she thought I was one of those people who fake having cancer to get more drugs? &amp;nbsp; Well that certainly is not the case with me. &amp;nbsp; I was told that I had to have a nurse come by and check on me  because my symptoms were not so good.&amp;nbsp; I needed to be checked on.&amp;nbsp; OK I  thought.&amp;nbsp; I am so bullheaded and set in my ways and sometimes I feel  invincible to needing that much help; so I did feel a bit guilty for  having a nurse come out to check on me.&lt;br /&gt;
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  311. One thing I am sure she was very irritated about was that I wasn&#39;t utilizing the&amp;nbsp;  Delaudid as I should be for breakthrough pain.&amp;nbsp; I am using it now for breakthrough pain; I just didn&#39;t understand what breakthrough.&amp;nbsp; I had a nurse  come out on Sunday (she was kind of a weirdo/trip?)LOL&amp;nbsp; No I&#39;m not one  for making fun of other people but I do become quite fascinated with many and  why they react the way that they do? &amp;nbsp; I just sometimes wonder why some  people act the way that they do.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
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  313. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&amp;nbsp;I was so stressed out.&amp;nbsp; Well she had this huge &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Specialist-Leather-Medical-Bag-1544-16/dp/B000HBI1HG?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;medical bag&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000HBI1HG&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; which she placed on  one the chairs in my living room and then she sat on that same&amp;nbsp; chair&amp;nbsp; (almost falling out of the chair because of huge book bag or &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/FIRST-RESPONDER-TRAUMA-FULLY-STOCKED/dp/B000I2RM3S?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;medical bag&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000I2RM3S&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; that sitting right behind her bottom with  only a few inches left to sit because of the huge pack.&amp;nbsp; I asked her I  could get her another chair or find a place for her bag but she  immediately cut me off and said &quot;NO&quot;. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Then I asked her if I could get her some water or anything to drink?&amp;nbsp; I was being hospitable and thankful for her coming out to visit me.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I didn&#39;t think I was worthy of a visit and I felt extremely guilty for having had her come out.&lt;br /&gt;
  314. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKy-qg7rVxEqVVI5ITsGjgEBnxVqG_VEii_YeJxQo2C5GGy953u03KX1THJU_9VsdfIPUSzzQ2A2GQw4ashLLArZgLSCzeO8ShJQpfAseNBa1eoSJB3RbfQqUyi4Ee-nN0OasG58Iumrzf/s1600/IMG_110320091223_203851.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKy-qg7rVxEqVVI5ITsGjgEBnxVqG_VEii_YeJxQo2C5GGy953u03KX1THJU_9VsdfIPUSzzQ2A2GQw4ashLLArZgLSCzeO8ShJQpfAseNBa1eoSJB3RbfQqUyi4Ee-nN0OasG58Iumrzf/s320/IMG_110320091223_203851.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I couldn&#39;t help but think of her as acting kind of weird as she&amp;nbsp; put her bags like that on her chair and nearly falling out of that same chair?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I think she must have been afraid that I  might&amp;nbsp; have the urge (since I was stoned for my extreme pain= it was working for me!)&amp;nbsp; to go through her bag since seeing my joints, bong, and pipe just  sitting there waiting for duty; maybe she is one those who&amp;nbsp; has been  misinformed about what &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Cannabis-History-Martin-Booth/dp/0312424949?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;cannabis&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0312424949&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; does for patients? &amp;nbsp; Did she believe everything the Federal Government believes or had said in the movie &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Reefer-Madness-Black-White-Beautifully/dp/B001BSBBDU?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Reefer Madness&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001BSBBDU&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;? I wondered. &lt;br /&gt;
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  316. She must think that  it makes me want to try something stronger (&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Understanding-Marijuana-Look-Scientific-Evidence/dp/0195182952?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Gateway myth&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0195182952&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;) and that I  might steal her medical bag in order to get more free pot for me or sell her stuff for drugs?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I would  never steal anything from anyone.&amp;nbsp; It was incredibly weird for me and for someone to think&amp;nbsp; that I am criminal element?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; We do live kind of in the ghetto and I guess my honey and I might even be considered ghetto? &amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t even like taking drugs for the pain that I already have? &amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t even swallow any pills?&amp;nbsp; OH, I might inject them; but wait; my veins suck; I couldn&#39;t do that! I hate needles more than anything?&amp;nbsp; I am such a chicken monkey when it comes to even getting stuck with even a tiny little butterfly needle!)&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;br /&gt;
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  318. I would rather work hard and earn what ever I happen to want than to flat out take something that someone&amp;nbsp; else had worked so hard to have.&amp;nbsp; They are&amp;nbsp; only &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Biblical-Theology-Material-Possessions-Gene/dp/0802408915?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;material possessions&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0802408915&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; to me and are not filled with love which kind of makes them useless to me.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I do love music more than any amount of money!)&amp;nbsp; I want her to have her medical bag so that she can continue to help nurse people and save their lives.&amp;nbsp; I would never steal her&amp;nbsp; medical bag.&amp;nbsp; Our home has too much in it; we need to get rid of things not take &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Prestige-Medical-Nurses-Car-GO-Black/dp/B000H713A2?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Medical bags&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000H713A2&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; (that we don&#39;t need!) ; we don&#39;t need any more of that crap?&amp;nbsp; Love is worth so much more than any amount of money or &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Neither-Poverty-Nor-Riches-Possessions/dp/0802844014?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;material possessions&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0802844014&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; or &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/American-Diagnostic-Corporation-Nylon-Medical/dp/B000B7OZB2?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Medical Bags&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000B7OZB2&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;!) LOL. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  319. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Well anyway, back this nurse; she kind of walked funny too&amp;nbsp; (Well I walk kind of funny too; Tonto walks hilariously= so we are technically in the same boat somewhat.) and she still had this strange glare at me.&amp;nbsp; Every time I  would answer one of her questions she was silent for a about 30 seconds  or so and it made me think that I needed to go on and not stop my  conversation or what ever it was I was talking about and that perhaps I  didn&#39;t answer her question right?&amp;nbsp; Her presence and energy kind of made  me feel just a little bit uncomfortable (I was feeling just a little bit of stress and just couldn&#39;t help it)&amp;nbsp; I felt like I was working hard for this person to feel any kind of compassion for me but I don&#39;t know I think I was more or less a computer maybe?&amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Life-After-People-History-Channel/dp/B0012IV3PU?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;I am human&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0012IV3PU&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; in fact we all are.&lt;br /&gt;
  320. &lt;br /&gt;
  321. No matter what kind of degree someone has; &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Are-All-Born-Free-Declaration/dp/1845076508?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;we are all human&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1845076508&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; no matter what color any of us happen to be.&amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t understand why so many are racists when many dark people don&#39;t have a choice of what they are born to look like?&amp;nbsp; Why blame somebody over their skin color when they had absolutely no choice in who their parents were?&amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t understand how people can hate others over something that uncontrollable? &amp;nbsp; What about finding out what is in their heart and souls?&amp;nbsp; They could be the best friend you could ever ask for? &lt;br /&gt;
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  323. OK, I got off topic just a little.&amp;nbsp; because of the way she&amp;nbsp; had looked at  me.&amp;nbsp; It was as if she was expecting that I was lying about my pain I was in so  that I could just get some &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/More-Terrible-Than-Death-Violence/dp/1586482076?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;more drugs&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1586482076&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;? &amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t put my finger on it but I felt that this woman didn&#39;t like me or just didn&#39;t understand me. &amp;nbsp; She did tell me that I needed to  use the Dilaudid much more for break through pain rather than &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Emergency-Sedation-Management-Cambridge-Histories/dp/0521870860?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;emergency pain&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0521870860&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;  as I have been guilty of doing.&amp;nbsp; I guess she knew I was a dumb ass when I told her that I thought that I was supposed to wait until the pain got high before I decided to take break through medicine.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; My key once again is to be under control with my pain.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s cruel and unusual punishment for me to make myself suffer like that.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Sometimes the pain is so great that I can barely breath as if it feels like I had just been cut up from all of my abdominal surgeries (all 6 of them!).&amp;nbsp; Yeah. I wait until the pain hits an 8 or 9 before I  consider getting the breakthrough pain medication out.&amp;nbsp; The key for me is  to be one step ahead of the pain; instead of 8 or 9; take medication at 4  or 5. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I will definitely do this!&amp;nbsp; No more pain getting out of control for me!&amp;nbsp; Well she did my vitals; however, I did have a small fever (100 degrees). &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  324. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I  don&#39;t know if it was that bad but I didn&#39;t feel comfortable with this nurse as she continued to ask me tons of questions and sometimes I couldn&#39;t remember but I tried  so hard to recollect what was in my tiny little &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/ChemoBrain-Cancer-Therapies-Affect-Your/dp/1591026695?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;chemo brain&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1591026695&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; All those questions were starting to stress me out and frustrated me.&amp;nbsp; My honey  had wanted me to call him right away when the nurse showed up but she  would hardly let me pick up the phone to call him as she looked kind of mad or irritated that I would make a phone call in her presence.&amp;nbsp; I just couldn&#39;t do it because I had to answer hours and hours of questions?&amp;nbsp; Or so it seemed. &amp;nbsp; I got scared and decided ummm I will call him later.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Well about 20 minutes later the phone rang of course right in the middle of her interrogating/questioning me,.&lt;br /&gt;
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  326. OK sometimes I forget to take my medicines and yeah this could be my fault that I&#39;m sick?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I do know that she was irritated at that but I sometimes can&#39;t help that I get distracted from getting everything done these days.&amp;nbsp; When you know your days are numbered should have a &quot;get out of jail free card?&quot; right?&amp;nbsp; Don&#39;t mess with me because I am forgetful and extremely disorganized? LOL&lt;br /&gt;
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  328. She seemed to get irritated when I stopped answering her questions as I quickly stepped away to go answer my ringing phone. &amp;nbsp; I think she felt I needed to let it ring into voice mail so that I didn&#39;t waist a moment of her precious time. &amp;nbsp; I answered the call from my honey anyway; I even told&amp;nbsp; her that I needed to get this (my honey might have some relevant questions for you (Nurse Angry) call and she did seem incredibly  irritated at me especially when the phone have started to ring.&amp;nbsp; I knew right away that it was my husband and of course he  had other questions that&amp;nbsp; he wanted to ask the nurse but she was very  irritated at me for wasting her time while I was on the phone so I had to  hang up with my honey almost right away. &amp;nbsp; She expected me to stay there, answer all of her questions and DO NOT ANSWER THAT PHONE!!!!!. &amp;nbsp; I answered it anyway, I wasted an entire 25 seconds of her time= I was very sorry! &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; My world revolves around my husband and NO she can&#39;t do anything about that; I just met her so I know my world doesn&#39;t revolve around her even though she felt that it should?&amp;nbsp; LOL&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Hey it was my husband and he did have some important questions to ask but I had to cut him off since we were busy answering tons and tons of questions about what&#39;s going on with me.&lt;br /&gt;
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  330. Maybe this nurse is just having a hard day; she&#39;s bummed out that she has to deal with&amp;nbsp; stupid patients like myself so late on a Sunday evening (5-6pmish?)&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m&amp;nbsp; too nice and such a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Nation-Wimps-High-Invasive-Parenting/dp/0767924037?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;wimp&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0767924037&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; sometimes and it&#39;s hard for me to  stand my ground sometimes because I am too nice.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I feel guilty when I feel that I&#39;m inconveniencing anyone and I was seriously inconveniencing this poor nurse.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I felt so bad and guilty about that.&amp;nbsp; She would have been able to go home and enjoy her family if it were not for my troublesome dumb ass!&amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
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  332. She showed very little &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Visions-Compassion-Western-Scientists-Buddhists/dp/019513043X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;human compassion&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=019513043X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; or personality with that visit on Sunday.&amp;nbsp; I did tell my honey about this nurse and how uncomfortable she had made me feel.&amp;nbsp; I just couldn&#39;t put my hand on it but she was kind of nice I guess but I didn&#39;t like being around her after a while because of the way she would stair at me and it wasn&#39;t a normal kind of stare.&amp;nbsp; It was incredibly strange to me.&amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t put my finger on it but it was such a strange stare.&amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t know why and it could just be my Paranoid &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Your-Brain-After-Chemo-Practical/dp/0738213918?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;chemo brain&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0738213918&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; She might just be a very nice person and I just didn&#39;t pick up on it; maybe because she was having a bad day having to work on Sunday evening on stupid patients like myself.&lt;br /&gt;
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  334. Miss Blue Belle didn&#39;t act her normal self either, she didn&#39;t go and sit next to the nurse as she was treating more or actually asking me questions.&amp;nbsp; Blue Belle stayed by my side; she didn&#39;t once go over to this nurse?&amp;nbsp; Tonto checked her out but that was it from him.&amp;nbsp; I think Blue Belle could sense that this nurse meant serious business and didn&#39;t want to get in the way of that.&amp;nbsp; Smart, smart, brilliant little girl! &lt;br /&gt;
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  336. Well the next morning my regular &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Final-Gifts-Understanding-Awareness-Communications/dp/0553378767?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Hospice Nurse&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0553378767&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; came by (Oh how I love her= we have so much in common!). &amp;nbsp; We even drive the same car and same color!&amp;nbsp; How cool is that!)&amp;nbsp; Anyway, I don&#39;t tell her about my uncomfortableness with this nurse that had stopped by on Sunday.&amp;nbsp; It was just another day and thank god things can start to be done about all the pain I have been having.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I just wanted to forget what had happened yesterday and make today a more amazing day. &amp;nbsp; She got my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0000591&quot;&gt;Methadone&lt;/a&gt; increased by 1/2ml.&amp;nbsp; So now it&#39;s 3mls twice a day.&amp;nbsp; Since the Methadone tastes like nasty chemical shit (it&#39;s hard to get that after taste out of your mouth but I did find that &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Bentleys-Pomegranate-Flavored-White-Count/dp/B001EQ4MUS?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Pomegranate White Tea&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001EQ4MUS&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; has been a blessing.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
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  338. We then changed the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/ACE-Adhesive-Athletic-Bandage-Blister/dp/B001AM4512?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;bandage&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001AM4512&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and I was informed by my nurse that my doctor/&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Chemotherapy-Gynecologic-Cancers-Oncologists-Handbook/dp/0781748917?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;oncologist&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0781748917&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; found that the extreme pain I had been feeling was because I had some sort of Staph Infection in my bladder and kidneys and maybe beyond in my body.&amp;nbsp; (this was determined from the pee sample I gave last week!)&amp;nbsp; I wasn&#39;t faking my pains after all!) &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I was originally told that we would need to get another &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Bard-Medical-Replacement-Rhino-Battery/dp/B004AKZXIK?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;PCA pump&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B004AKZXIK&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; in order to distribute this &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.aaos.org/about/papers/advistmt/1027.asp&quot;&gt;intravenous form of Antibiotic&lt;/a&gt;.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I would also have the antibiotic delivered to my home.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; My nurse changed my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Brown-Medical-SEAL-TIGHT-Protector-Dressing/dp/B001G0N6I6?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;picc line dressing&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001G0N6I6&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and was unable to draw any blood from my picc line and we had just gone last week to try and flush it out so that the clots wouldn&#39;t block it up again; the infusion nurse was able to get a blood draw within seconds but 2 weeks in row; we still are unable to draw blood from me.&amp;nbsp; She made an appointment for the next day (Tuesday) for another nurse who is excellent at finding and locating veins from even the most difficult to draw.&amp;nbsp; I was excited at meeting a new nurse who could do that for me!&lt;br /&gt;
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  340. &lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgy9GLOTi7MLU999AT24moIjhYeiQmZyFr2WMKV21FAKSS2vok1YQHwI8jL1_D4Rr63nxObqjS-KNtBx_qmKEDEHrxg18k2NTjhAteLVzTTOnetS4acjhhY4UEArJ8SP8WzCAEJ7wfJm9NB/s1600/DSCN243420101213_180925.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgy9GLOTi7MLU999AT24moIjhYeiQmZyFr2WMKV21FAKSS2vok1YQHwI8jL1_D4Rr63nxObqjS-KNtBx_qmKEDEHrxg18k2NTjhAteLVzTTOnetS4acjhhY4UEArJ8SP8WzCAEJ7wfJm9NB/s320/DSCN243420101213_180925.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  341. Anyway, later on we got a phone call from someone in the infusion center that we needed to do the very first dose of &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Aqua-Mox-500mg-Amoxicillin-Antibiotic-Capsules/dp/B001T6XSAS?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Antibiotics&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001T6XSAS&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; there and my husband be trained out to hook up the line, prep the line and so much more!)&amp;nbsp; at 5pm and it would take over 2 hours to do.&amp;nbsp; I also found that it would be 7 days of twice a day, 2 hour drips from this baby bottle looking thing with a balloon inside filled with the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/First-Aid-Only-Antibiotic-Ointment/dp/B001EPQ6MG?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;antibiotic&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001EPQ6MG&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&lt;br /&gt;
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  343. My sweetie is so amazing!&amp;nbsp; He stayed with me the entire 2 hours and did go downstairs and waited a little while for my prescriptions.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Check out this bag inside this baby bottle looking thing.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s pretty fascinating and I hope&amp;nbsp; to take more photos of it.&amp;nbsp; There is this &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Little-Red-Balloon/dp/B0022EY6C0?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;little balloon&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0022EY6C0&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; inside the bottle and as it is diffusing; the balloon gets smaller and then you can see almost a little rib cage with holes!&amp;nbsp; Of course the balloon is more deflated. &lt;br /&gt;
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  345. &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.tuesdaymorning.com/indexCatalogOn.asp&quot;&gt;Tuesday morning&lt;/a&gt;; I had an absolute blast when a friend of mine&amp;nbsp; who came to visit me.&amp;nbsp; We had so much fun together.&amp;nbsp; We went on a walk around my little complex and I took the kitty boy on a walk through all the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Acrylic-Beautiful-Colors-Almost-Surface/dp/B000YFAI2Q?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;beautiful colors&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000YFAI2Q&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; of leaves falling all over the place.&amp;nbsp; Just a few days ago; all of those leaves were on the trees in all fall colors.&amp;nbsp; It was amazing&amp;nbsp; to see and I loved being outside just viewing all that nature has for me!&amp;nbsp; Those are real gifts!&amp;nbsp; We also got on the bikes and took little bike ride together and we also got catch up on all that we are both going through.&amp;nbsp; My blog helps a lot with that.&amp;nbsp; I want my family to know what I am going through.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
  346. &lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhllvtkEbPOhiAdjo6bODpzrRTwHulMtrssvx-sFeP4YOszgg7F9p5kfqmKbO2NLlweyG7-JSy3Yvx0nfCtMKo7yotI1GWgroJ8UL1WHX0oUonwvZ0Q4qCZgCtGNtMqo6XWIC3-Am_-plsC/s1600/DSCN243620101213_185202.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhllvtkEbPOhiAdjo6bODpzrRTwHulMtrssvx-sFeP4YOszgg7F9p5kfqmKbO2NLlweyG7-JSy3Yvx0nfCtMKo7yotI1GWgroJ8UL1WHX0oUonwvZ0Q4qCZgCtGNtMqo6XWIC3-Am_-plsC/s320/DSCN243620101213_185202.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  347. I got called from my nurse and she told me that a good nurse would stop by later on = between the hours of 4 and 6pm.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; The rest of the day my honey and did some house cleaning together. &lt;br /&gt;
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  349. Well later on after 4pm that same nurse from Sunday called and said she was on her way.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I have to admit that I was kind of bummed.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; It took her a little over an hour to arrive and she was much more cordial with my husband and I this time around; but she still insisted on sitting on top of her medical bag; I offered up the table and I even cleaned it off for her so that she could place her heavy bag there; it wouldn&#39;t be on the ground where my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Klepto-Jenny-Pollack/dp/0142410721?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;klepto &lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0142410721&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;dog or cat couldn&#39;t go through it; I don&#39;t remember if she used it (the table)or not but she still didn&#39;t want to do more work than she would have had too.&amp;nbsp; I had asked her on Sunday if she could order more narcotics for me since I was running low; primarily on the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0000545&quot;&gt;Dilaudid&lt;/a&gt; and my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001041&quot;&gt;Celexa&lt;/a&gt; (crying pill)&amp;nbsp; She kind of looked at me like I was a junky wanting her to go order my medications.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; She could order them from the pharmacy; I&#39;m not asking her to go on the street corner and try to find me some crank, heroin, or some Oxycotin pills?&amp;nbsp; Well she just sat there emotionless and looked at me silently and then asked who normally orders your medications? My honey did ask me to ask her that but she just stared at me so intently and I finished her silent part of the sentence that I will call the pharmacy myself.&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; Oh god it was so weird and then she gets sent over here again on Tuesday.&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; She was OK this time, much nicer than last time. &lt;br /&gt;
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  351. She wasn&#39;t as good as I had hoped in finding a working vein on me.&amp;nbsp; Not like some of those confident phlebotomist from the lab where they find a vein in 3 seconds, stick you and your done!)&amp;nbsp; One didn&#39;t work but the second stick did.&amp;nbsp; My husband also asked if she could order something while she was here and another very&amp;nbsp; blank stare at him and then he continued; I will call the pharmacist.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Some people are very hard to read and this lady certainly was.&amp;nbsp; She did have a nice smile after she was done with me and ready to leave.&amp;nbsp; I wished her a nice Christmas and New Years and basically did everything in my power to let her know how very thankful I was that she came over to help me.&amp;nbsp; I tried so hard to get along with her this time around and to make things as easy as I could for her.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I didn&#39;t want her to be stressed out at all.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I showed her where all of our equipment was as she tried to get some blood samples and my vitals.&amp;nbsp; We did find that a tumor is growing on my left side or left lung because I don&#39;t breath as hard in that area of my lungs?&lt;br /&gt;
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  353. Well last time I wrote my blog I totally got my left wing wrong; it&#39;s on my right side!&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m still NO right wing; I just happen to have an angel right wing in honor of my dad.&amp;nbsp; My favorite right wing person!&amp;nbsp; That&#39;s pretty funny!&amp;nbsp; How come no body noticed that?&amp;nbsp; Well I am left handed so there&#39;s my left wing. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  354. I&#39;m hoping that next week we can get my pain pump turned up (they are going to refill it again.&amp;nbsp; Want to see that again?&lt;br /&gt;
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  356. &lt;iframe class=&quot;youtube-player&quot; frameborder=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;390&quot; src=&quot;http://www.youtube.com/embed/TNKkEuflnn8&quot; title=&quot;YouTube video player&quot; type=&quot;text/html&quot; width=&quot;480&quot;&gt;&lt;/iframe&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  360. Maybe watching this can make some of my pains go away.&amp;nbsp; I do have it under control with a strain called &quot;Pineapple Express&quot;.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Tuesday was such an excellent day as far as my pain was concerned.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; The little joints I had smoked before my friend came over really came in handy in controlling the horrible nausea and pains.&amp;nbsp; I had such an awesome day yesterday and today was more for relaxing and catching up on sleep.&amp;nbsp; I slept most of the day;&amp;nbsp; I think I woke up at 2:30pm.&lt;br /&gt;
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  362. For lunch today, my honey was hungry for a Falafel.&amp;nbsp; I had not had one is so very long.&amp;nbsp; At least 13 years.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I accidentally got a Falafel sandwich with cucumbers, this green grass looking stuff (cilantro?), tomatoes, and this hush puppy looking ball that was&amp;nbsp; cut up into many little pieces and of course lots of lettuce.&amp;nbsp; That part I was OK with. &amp;nbsp; My honey ordered&amp;nbsp; something similiar to what I had ordered and his didn&#39;t have any hot sauce on it, my honey got his hot sauce on the side) well that&#39;s just my luck;&amp;nbsp; Mine more than likely had a whole container of hot sauce and then some as it was all over my sandwich!(&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I tried to eat mine and I get an entire mouth full of this incredibly hot sauce; It totally burned the living shit out of my mouth and my throat and talk about&amp;nbsp; severe heartburn!&amp;nbsp; It was so freaking horrible!&amp;nbsp; Oh did I suffer for that one!&amp;nbsp; I have no idea why they would douse a good sandwich with that nasty crap! &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I thought my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Claudia-Stevens-Lash-Treatment-Mascara/dp/B003C1YCT4?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;beautiful long eyelashes&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003C1YCT4&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; were going to catch fire; UHHHH it was that hot!&amp;nbsp; I was pretty painful and miserable because that hot sauce felt as if it was burning a hole in my horrid intestines.&amp;nbsp; It was freaking painful. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I puked up fire this time and then I had to use my bong (with the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Pineapple-Express-Unrated-Live-Blu-ray/dp/B001J9KJ2U?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Pineapple Express&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001J9KJ2U&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, I got one of those&amp;nbsp; really good hits (I was coughing up a storm; got very, very thirsty)&amp;nbsp; and surprisingly all that coughing actually did something to my taste buds&amp;nbsp; which actually helped on that painful burning; Right now after puking a few times; I feel so much better!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  365. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;We have wondering and beating ourselves silly as to where I could have gotten the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/All-Stop-Staph-Combat-Combo/dp/B002TBCCD6?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Staph Infection&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002TBCCD6&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; We have been very diligent about washing hands and careful when going out in public if needed. &amp;nbsp; I could have caught it anywhere but I&#39;m betting I could have very well gotten it from a neighbor girl who loves to hug me and hang out with me sometimes (she loves me) when I walk Blue Belle or Tonto; but she loves to play in the dumpsters here at our complex.&amp;nbsp; She wears the most&amp;nbsp; filthy clothes and I wished so much I could call her into a show that could help her since she is staring high school next year and she doesn&#39;t mind being called the &quot;Dumpster Girl&quot; or the &quot;stinky girl&quot; which the kids are also using to describe her.&amp;nbsp; Now she does take Marshal Arts and is a brown belt?&amp;nbsp; She can kick ass!)&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I actually did a google search for Dumpster Girl and found that there are 2 sites called &quot;Slut Dumpster Girls&quot; and &quot;Dumpster Slut Girls&quot; and then it gets grim where they talk about young girls bodies being found in dumpsters.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  366. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQOGfgVdIEVDqiB6ANSJqFuKNB8tkWMHD2ciNbFfdunZATZAdtEeUrkk249ogsqAZkImTk1cpY8tOZwroif3u_Fb-CJ3OjDaFuIAd9mxOgZERS03w3TEaCE-DOXU3_ZmG-BGMh6ANJOCfC/s1600/clean.png&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;214&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQOGfgVdIEVDqiB6ANSJqFuKNB8tkWMHD2ciNbFfdunZATZAdtEeUrkk249ogsqAZkImTk1cpY8tOZwroif3u_Fb-CJ3OjDaFuIAd9mxOgZERS03w3TEaCE-DOXU3_ZmG-BGMh6ANJOCfC/s320/clean.png&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&amp;nbsp; I wished so much that I could help her with all of her problems&amp;nbsp; but anyway we have been warning her about the dangers of going through the trash as she has been doing.&amp;nbsp; All of us neighbors; I have even gone to the point of just dumping Blue Belles and one of our neighbors (he refuses to clean up after his dog; I won&#39;t name names) dog&#39;s poo but I clean up most of the time now for his dog too and I just dump the poo out of the doggy bags and into the dumpster so that she might learn her lesson and not go there anymore. &amp;nbsp; It&#39;s all so disgusting and some the crap that many of us throw away should never see the light of day! and she just wants to climb in there even if the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Hot-Zone-Terrifying-True-Story/dp/0385495226?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Ebola virus&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0385495226&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; is in there.&amp;nbsp; She doesn&#39;t care? &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t even think she washed any of the clothes she got out of the dumpster.&amp;nbsp; She just wore them and boy do they look absolutely filthy.&amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t hug this girl any more.&amp;nbsp; I just can do it for my health. I love her so much, but I can&#39;t do it. &amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t know what to do about this &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/The-Poor-Young-Girl/dp/B003HV0UWC?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;poor young girl&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003HV0UWC&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; . She even claimed to have found some used make-up that totally broke her face out I&#39;m quite sure. &amp;nbsp; Ewwwww!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I wish I contact either &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.mystyle.com/mystyle/shows/cleanhouse/index.jsp&quot;&gt;Clean House&lt;/a&gt;&quot; (I have heard her house is a total mess), or getting her on the Fashion Intervention show called &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.mystyle.com/mystyle/shows/howdoilook/index.jsp&quot;&gt;How Do I look&lt;/a&gt;?&quot;. &amp;nbsp; She seriously needs an intervention and I love her so much and wished things were better for her.&amp;nbsp; It tears my heart to pieces that she devalues her life as she does and I&#39;m fighting hard for my life.&amp;nbsp; It just doesn&#39;t make any sense to me?&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  367. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiMiY7KUta9aRaji3XnCJIPQLeW9D6iaE3qQKvxgCybyqQdHAr9Y3u6uZ1bkwi0V_oca2-NJfqrQms2TethUyTAtYrMhqVZt13A3jdz729DO3AVA16IIQOjVvNsdziq4fHHv4ghBhgJj1Zi/s1600/wonderwoman.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiMiY7KUta9aRaji3XnCJIPQLeW9D6iaE3qQKvxgCybyqQdHAr9Y3u6uZ1bkwi0V_oca2-NJfqrQms2TethUyTAtYrMhqVZt13A3jdz729DO3AVA16IIQOjVvNsdziq4fHHv4ghBhgJj1Zi/s320/wonderwoman.jpg&quot; width=&quot;203&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;It would be so cool to have her &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.mystyle.com/mystyle/shows/howdoilook/index.jsp&quot;&gt;on the show&lt;/a&gt; where others can shop for her and find her some classy pretty clothes, nice make-up and hairstyles rather than her looking so boyish and filthy in her current wardrobe.&amp;nbsp; She is a very &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Born-Beautiful-American-Teenagers-ebook/dp/B003U8ADO2?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;beautiful young girl&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003U8ADO2&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; but I don&#39;t understand why she won&#39;t quit playing in the dumpsters and looking for free stuff. &amp;nbsp; The free stuff is much more important than her health? &amp;nbsp; She makes her own jewelry out of heavy tool stuff like bolt, nuts, chains and other heavy things.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s not really attractive jewelry as it is creative?&amp;nbsp; She always wants to hug me and she&#39;s so stinky and dirty; so I don&#39;t care and I just hug her because I do love her.&amp;nbsp; I wished I could have a sweet daughter like that.&amp;nbsp; There is no way I would have her digging in dumpsters as she is doing and bringing that crap in the house.&amp;nbsp; I always ask her what are you planning to do with all that junk?&amp;nbsp; My honey and I have told her all kinds of scenarios of how damaging it is to be digging in trash as she often does and the diseases she could catch as well.&amp;nbsp; Much of our medical wastes goes in those trash cans too, old spoiled foods, fecal matter from dogs and humans.&amp;nbsp; Pretty nasty and I hope she gets to change before she goes to high school next year. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  368. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;My honey and I have been &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Living-Christmas-Every-Steiner-Collection/dp/1597898082?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;celebrating Christmas everyday&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1597898082&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;. &amp;nbsp; We even decorated Tonto&#39;s Christmas &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Armarkat-Pet-Products-A7401-Beige/dp/B003BYQ18M?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Cat Tree &lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003BYQ18M&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;and he couldn&#39;t be more pleased! &amp;nbsp; I&#39;m definitely not asking that anyone get me anything but a card, email, memories, photos, or just phone call or even a text for Christmas.&amp;nbsp; I just want to live and enjoy my life with the man of my dreams.&amp;nbsp; Perhaps in another journey again? &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  369. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Peace and Love to all of you and sorry this post was as bad as it was.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Hopefully my pain will subside more and all that we are doing for this pain is going to work!&amp;nbsp; Power to the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Marijuana-Medical-Handbook-Practical-Therapeutic/dp/0932551866?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;wonder plant&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0932551866&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;!&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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= I&#39;m still alive as of this very moment; = right?&amp;nbsp; Rather than scaring the living crap out of me; I&#39;ve accepted them and called them my &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Vast-Left-Wing-Conspiracy-Democrats/dp/1400082390?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;left wing&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1400082390&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot;.&amp;nbsp; As all of you probably know, I am a very, very proud &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Left-Hander-left-handed-legends-lore-more/dp/0740796364?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;left handed&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0740796364&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! 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important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, I too have my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Sagittarius-Super-Horoscopes-2011-Margarete/dp/042523293X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Sagittarius&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=042523293X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; man who makes me so very happy!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Sadly, I do know that it was &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Survivorship-Ovarian-Cancer-Hopkins-Health/dp/0801880912?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Ovarian Cancer&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0801880912&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! 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  376. My sweet darling balances me, he brings me back to earth &amp;amp; of course reality, makes me laugh my ass off, cheers me up, does awesome great things and favors for me; and genuinely makes life for me; all the more enjoyable that it could ever be!&amp;nbsp; I am so thankful to have met him in my lifetime; (I only wished I had met him many years sooner!) he really is my soul mate and if there is one accomplishment in this lifetime is that I found him!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Many live their entire lives and they never ever get to meet theirs; or have and just never knew it.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m so incredibly lucky!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  378. Anyway, (back to these silly photos) I have accepted my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/DEMOCRATIC-Pinback-Buttons-Democrat-Liberal/dp/B0032YXDDC?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;left &quot;Angel&quot; wing&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0032YXDDC&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; Technically, I guess many would call me a &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Talking-Right-Latte-Drinking-Hollywood-Loving-ebook/dp/B001EWRNWG?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Left wing nut job&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001EWRNWG&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot;.&amp;nbsp; Since I love everyone and am all and for &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/World-Peace-Love-Hallmark-Ornament/dp/B002BU82A2?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;World Peace&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002BU82A2&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot;; I just want everyone to just get along, do your share of the work (to make this world a better place for all; not just YOURSELF! Don&#39;t be so dog gone greedy!&amp;nbsp; WTF?, &quot;share the world!&quot; with everyone else here,&amp;nbsp; DO have a sense of humor and don&#39;t take things so damn seriously!&amp;nbsp; You are going to have a heart attack, die of some sort of stress disorder, become miserable with your life and therefore you can&#39;t make room for more love in your heart!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2ee9KryOiGHYD-LK6zNA4JWDobua6R0LWdC12KdzS2TLA0bY-vRhhKyhd52NztjxORUn5kMKcToFJZP03T0LVliSLZCL8nMAstswd2bpyCkxqzxUdMeWaaGsEfQVXDX1WzhfeEtCwi4AA/s1600/0808-0806-1216-5805.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2ee9KryOiGHYD-LK6zNA4JWDobua6R0LWdC12KdzS2TLA0bY-vRhhKyhd52NztjxORUn5kMKcToFJZP03T0LVliSLZCL8nMAstswd2bpyCkxqzxUdMeWaaGsEfQVXDX1WzhfeEtCwi4AA/s320/0808-0806-1216-5805.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Love really does improve quality of life.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t say that enough but it really does.&amp;nbsp; Would I rather spend my lasting days on this world being angry at others, joining a stupid &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/My-Very-First-Tea-Party/dp/0736902430?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;tea party&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0736902430&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; (sorry if some of you happen to be a part of this party= but it&#39;s mostly just a complain and bitch fest) Don&#39;t get me wrong, I love tea, but I&#39;m not at all about their anger , racism, or greed.&amp;nbsp; I&amp;nbsp; have read some very &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.rollingstone.com/politics/news/17390/210904&quot;&gt;interesting articles&lt;/a&gt; about a majority of them who want our &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.republicansforobama.org/node/6216&quot;&gt;current president and his policies to fail&lt;/a&gt; and to me that is very &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Anti-American-Manifesto-Ted-Rall/dp/1583229337?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;anti-American&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1583229337&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; I mean they may not like the president (I was not at all crazy about the last one) but I never wanted our country to get as bad as it is right now; I would have never wanted our country to fail? &amp;nbsp; Why would anyone want our country to fail?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; You hope things get worse for our people? &amp;nbsp; That to me is bitter with greed?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I would never want to spend one moment as angry as they are?&amp;nbsp; And about what?&amp;nbsp; There are better ways to make things better in this world; don&#39;t ever wish for our failure.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; That&#39;s just one of my rules?&amp;nbsp; I would much rather look at the good in this world that is working and try to fix what is broken;, not to wish it get more broken? What good does that do for most of us?&amp;nbsp; rather than&amp;nbsp; to complain and stress everyone else out? We really could choose to&amp;nbsp; ALL work together, compromise, get along,&amp;nbsp; and most of all FIX things that are broken!). &amp;nbsp; Complainers always bum me out,&amp;nbsp; they are never fun or even pleasant to be around.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2JO96IT27a6kRE6EXOZp7YouTfK-ihBdrDFgrGVFzioxw95t9e1YtDrHGFqfO7kMNiAiwWKRB4ZLxEvnNe_kV2qM6Dpa2ZVbT1Uy4bOshyhecWAZJYYHdHpuC4wLN8i4GOokOqDqwreRj/s1600/DSCN241420101211_155932.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2JO96IT27a6kRE6EXOZp7YouTfK-ihBdrDFgrGVFzioxw95t9e1YtDrHGFqfO7kMNiAiwWKRB4ZLxEvnNe_kV2qM6Dpa2ZVbT1Uy4bOshyhecWAZJYYHdHpuC4wLN8i4GOokOqDqwreRj/s320/DSCN241420101211_155932.JPG&quot; width=&quot;147&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&amp;nbsp;Everyday that I wake up really is a pure blessing as I am&amp;nbsp; finding out more and more as each day is turning into weeks and then months since I was told that the end would come soon for me.&amp;nbsp; I have had lots of warnings about what that might be like from my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Days-Lives-Social-Workers-Professionals/dp/1929109156?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;social worker&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1929109156&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/What-Every-Health-Nurse-Needs/dp/0826191320?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;home health nurse &lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0826191320&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;and now my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Living-End-Life-Addresses-Questions/dp/1402768389?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;hospice nurse&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1402768389&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; oh and my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Surviving-Terminal-Cancer-Treatments-ebook/dp/B001S2QR0G?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;oncologist&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001S2QR0G&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, my honey also reminds me now.&amp;nbsp; I know they all feel for me as I can&#39;t help but notice that many look at me as if I&#39;m going to be dead soon and they know it.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;OK, my tummy isn&#39;t working all that well, but I am still thankful that I can still walk around.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; See,&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m focusing more so on what my poor little body can do than what it can&#39;t. &amp;nbsp; Sure I wished so much I could eat a meal and could gain 50 to 60 more poundage; but I can&#39;t.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m very  thankful for&amp;nbsp; the few things it can do and of course the number 1 thing I am always thankful for is my  honey.&lt;br /&gt;
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  380. Now back to my left &quot;angel&quot; wing photos,&amp;nbsp; If you look hard enough, on the left side  of my tattoo, you can actually see the wire from the hockey puck thing (&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.medtronic.com/our-therapies/drug-pumps/&quot;&gt;pain  pump&lt;/a&gt;). &amp;nbsp; That OK, it kind of resembles a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/s/?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;search-alias=aps&amp;amp;field-keywords=Skoal%20chewing%20tobacco&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;huge can&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002KIWVQ6&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; of &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Button%7E-Tobacco%7E-Vintage-Button-Approx/dp/B003YX5AB4?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Skoal &lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003YX5AB4&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;inside my skin!) LOL&amp;nbsp; very fascinating, huh?&amp;nbsp; But you can also spot very clearly what looks like a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/American-Music-Left-Wing-Politics-1927-1957/dp/081083684X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Left Angel wing&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=081083684X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; is forming? &amp;nbsp; I guess that&#39;s just my very optimistic look at something that is actually very grim.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
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  382. Now if you ever feel sorry for yourself,  feel free to check out my photos and be thankful again for your life and  all that you treasure.&amp;nbsp; We all loose things in this life and money  isn&#39;t everything;; really seriously think about all the things you can carry with you on this journey and what is most important.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s good memories, not objects.&amp;nbsp; We all need to learn this.&amp;nbsp; Sometimes we have to  sacrifice in order for things to get better.&lt;br /&gt;
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  384. &lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuop76ddi_dxhW8TPRWr9fVfkAcsBBHfw-Gfzz4ifFe9IbX24le2_DGdKl6UQn05pI1ONB-a3qsdmj-B4PaHIFB8QFgIHBm-8fOSXAqDgNeKfU95U3rfxfPb5mDWbAY4Ldnxr3XIZIuj6f/s1600/DSCN241220101211_155921.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuop76ddi_dxhW8TPRWr9fVfkAcsBBHfw-Gfzz4ifFe9IbX24le2_DGdKl6UQn05pI1ONB-a3qsdmj-B4PaHIFB8QFgIHBm-8fOSXAqDgNeKfU95U3rfxfPb5mDWbAY4Ldnxr3XIZIuj6f/s320/DSCN241220101211_155921.JPG&quot; width=&quot;180&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;As for this journey of mine, they (social workers, nurses, doctors, health care workers) have all told me since I started my hospice care that I would start to notice my body shutting down.&amp;nbsp; The last couple of days  we have seen some really rapid changes in me from my weight to much  extra skin and no muscle tone?&amp;nbsp; Where did all my muscles go? &amp;nbsp; I am starting to look like this skeleton with skin on it?&amp;nbsp; I used to  be so muscular, strong, and so very athletic; now I can&#39;t really lift much and have  officially hit the double digits as far as my weight is concerned (98lbs).&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I was  thinking that I might survive into next year but now it&#39;s seeming like  &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/TCM-Greatest-Classic-Films-Collection/dp/B002GSXKQU?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Christmas&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002GSXKQU&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; might just be a&amp;nbsp; real miracle for me. &lt;br /&gt;
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  386. My husband has noticed this most in the last 2 days.&amp;nbsp; It hurts to feel that and now seeing it in my husband&#39;s eyes as he is my one and only key to the real world.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I trust him more than anyone.&amp;nbsp; He would never lie to me and I know it.&amp;nbsp; We both have noticed that the last couple of days; I&#39;ve continued vomiting and vomiting despite taking this &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.rxlist.com/zofran_injection-drug.htm&quot;&gt;intravenous form of Zofran&lt;/a&gt; (which helps some in preventing vomiting). &amp;nbsp; The vomiting is causing me to become more and more dehydrated which may be draining out my muscles?&amp;nbsp; Hopefully my organs are still kinda sorta working; I still have lots of hope.&amp;nbsp; Always have.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  387. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I just found that my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Volcano-Digit-Vaporizer-SYSTEM-complete/dp/B000UUYUK6?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;vaporizer&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000UUYUK6&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; is really helpful (a strain called &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Pineapple-Express-Unrated-Live-Blu-ray/dp/B001J9KJ2U?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Pineapple Express&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001J9KJ2U&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot;) for my nausea.&amp;nbsp; I am starting to eat less and less but anything that goes down my throat will most often end up back up my throat in about 10-15 minutes. &amp;nbsp; It&#39;s so disgusting and I&#39;m getting tired of it.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I would do this for as long as I can; especially for my honey!)&amp;nbsp; You might be able to see some in these photos of my skinny little shapeless body; now I do look anorexic; but believe me; I am so far from it!&amp;nbsp; I would give almost anything just to be able to eat a full meal and be able to gain like 50lbs or even 60lbs.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  388. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;My honey took me a few days ago to see &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Secretariat-Diane-Lane/dp/B004DK5CW4?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Secretariat&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B004DK5CW4&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot; and what an amazing movie that was.&amp;nbsp; Then my sweet next door neighbor found out from my honey about us seeing that movie and had looked up one of &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Secretariats-Meadow-Kate-Chenery-Tweedy/dp/098270190X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Secretariat&#39;s daughters&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=098270190X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/60-Minutes-Zenyatta-October-2010/dp/B004A8ZX50?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Zenyatta&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B004A8ZX50&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot; and what an amazing horse she was.&amp;nbsp; Only lost 1 race and she was malnourished and about to become dog food and glue when they found her.&amp;nbsp; Miracles do happen; especially Christmas ones.&amp;nbsp; I do know there are plenty of younger children in need of miracles and I would rather my Christmas miracle go to one of them; if there is one for me.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  389. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhk99dzdvC6WU0BSL3-iUtzmkerQISa5-7Rh8XJaiURyrt808W2H6z3qrvXY0AfxcyDH-GhXxsuznknXSs8cxfmS-57EywRZaXE1TH3WkdyJwK1PnstS-dQ_l34LlZM0W1-EWTMvxwuNPWb/s1600/DSCN241820101211_160408.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhk99dzdvC6WU0BSL3-iUtzmkerQISa5-7Rh8XJaiURyrt808W2H6z3qrvXY0AfxcyDH-GhXxsuznknXSs8cxfmS-57EywRZaXE1TH3WkdyJwK1PnstS-dQ_l34LlZM0W1-EWTMvxwuNPWb/s320/DSCN241820101211_160408.JPG&quot; width=&quot;240&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;If you are even just a little bit over weight;&amp;nbsp; please don&#39;t beat yourself up about it.&amp;nbsp; You can always start at this moment in a much better mood; where you can make better choices about what is good for your body.&amp;nbsp; Our bodies are miracles, we all are and its important to take care of our bodies.&amp;nbsp; It is a lot like kharma.&amp;nbsp; What comes around goes around.&amp;nbsp; If you eat something bad for your it will come back and sometimes it will &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Mayinglong-Hemorrhoids-Ointment-Cream-Value/dp/B000F34TCC?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;bite you in the ass&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000F34TCC&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; if you know what I mean. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I wished so much that my body worked better, but I&#39;m genuinely happy that I can breath fresh air , I don&#39;t need tubes of oxygen just yet and I&#39;m so thankful to be able to utilize my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.vaporbuff.com/vaporization-faq/&quot;&gt;vaporized medicine&lt;/a&gt; (oh it smells so goood and even tastes good) and so far it&#39;s working great for my nausea.&amp;nbsp; I haven&#39;t puked up my water in over 40 minutes!).&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  390. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I still don&#39;t get it; how can something so harmless, be so illegal.&amp;nbsp; I know to some people it is very harmful to them.&amp;nbsp; I mean its a very scary looking plant! LOL.&amp;nbsp; I just have not been convinced (I have read all arguments against it)&amp;nbsp; at all that it&#39;s dangerous. &amp;nbsp; Cops, FEDS, and DEA agents make a harmless plant incredibly dangerous for the rest of us! &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; No one&#39;s ever been killed (by pot or this incredible healing plant); only killed because of its legality from our very own lying greedy government.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Yes, our &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/George-Bush-War-Criminal-Administrations/dp/0313364990?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;government lies&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0313364990&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and it is in need of a serious makeover from all of its &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Articles-Impeachment-Case-Prosecuting-George/dp/1932595422?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;dishonesty&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1932595422&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Family-Secrets-Americas-Invisible-Government/dp/1608190064?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;scandals&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1608190064&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, and so much more!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; We also know that most of our elected politicians are ruled by money and of course their special interests and are not by representing our true values; we already know they are greedy and corrupt (so why are they still in office?=because of money and greed!).&amp;nbsp; The good news is that we could fix our very broken and lying government; but it will take some serious work.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; They really do need to prioritize the real dangers in our country and so far between &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Official-High-Times-Smokers-Activity/dp/0811862062?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;pot smokers&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0811862062&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Diary-Sex-Offender-Allison-Quick/dp/B003Z8ZC9I?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;sex offenders&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003Z8ZC9I&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; I mean really, would you rather live next to a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Official-High-Times-Smokers-Handbook/dp/0811862054?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;stoner&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0811862054&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; or a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Desistance-Sex-Offending-Alternatives-Throwing/dp/160623935X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;sex offender&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=160623935X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Too many lives have been ruined because of these horrid drug laws.&amp;nbsp; At least lately, it seems that &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Predators-Pedophiles-Rapists-Other-Offenders/dp/0465071732?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;sex offenders&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0465071732&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; tend to get lighter sentences than non-violent drug offenders?&amp;nbsp; Why is that? &lt;br /&gt;
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  392. Approximately 1.5 million people are arrested each year for drug law  violations - 40% of them are just for &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Evil-Bong-Tommy-Chong/dp/B000JTGLIM?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;marijuana possession&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000JTGLIM&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Many are suffering  from cancer, AIDS and other debilitating illnesses and are regularly denied  access to their medicine or even arrested and prosecuted for using  medical marijuana. I do know that we can do so much better than this.&amp;nbsp; How can a person of the law sleep at night when they violate someone&#39;s rights over a law that is so wrong and based solely on greed? &lt;br /&gt;
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  394. Anyway, I thought this video was very important as it does show us how wrong we are in continuing to fund this dangerous and out of control war against our citizens.&amp;nbsp; There are better ways to fix the problem of drugs than taking life, liberty and trust from many of us. &amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  398. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZBF44uBMj6hIuc6BiljcEA-Oo9_n7kZICUbT4NrQxJ0zYQ3N8OCBATdlJdmezDjIQAXYELQBuaUfp8gDOhmasXu44qHCZrcKw4MFZ0DpjfI6OCv6yGt7QGD4J2Wf6NRCOuCtb0MeP6xM5/s1600/DSCN241520101211_160245.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZBF44uBMj6hIuc6BiljcEA-Oo9_n7kZICUbT4NrQxJ0zYQ3N8OCBATdlJdmezDjIQAXYELQBuaUfp8gDOhmasXu44qHCZrcKw4MFZ0DpjfI6OCv6yGt7QGD4J2Wf6NRCOuCtb0MeP6xM5/s320/DSCN241520101211_160245.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&amp;nbsp; Yes, somethings will always bother me and I only hope that one day it will get fixed and we all will be able to live better quality lives.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Anyway this photo of my legs doesn&#39;t show much but there is lots of extra skin on my skeleton; I don&#39;t even see my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/CytoSport-Monster-Mass-Chocolate-Pound/dp/B002DUD76E?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;muscle mass&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002DUD76E&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; anymore which is scary.&amp;nbsp; I do know I am going to enjoy every moment that&amp;nbsp; I can.&amp;nbsp; I am also feeling that cut up pain after I had had my stomach surgeries; it just feels painful and despite taking &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.medscape.org/viewarticle/550895&quot;&gt;methadone&lt;/a&gt; (2.5mls) twice a day (every 12 hours) I still feel the pain sometimes; although the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Volcano-Digit-Vaporizer-SYSTEM-complete/dp/B000UUYUK6?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Vaporizer&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000UUYUK6&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; really helped with that pain! Wow!&amp;nbsp; I have to use what works for me and right now it&#39;s &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Marijuana-Horticulture-Outdoor-Medical-Growers/dp/187882323X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Cannabis&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=187882323X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; I do know there are so many people out there who have yet to pull their heads out of the ground yet, but yes it really does work for me.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s only certain strains; I have tried some cannabis that didn&#39;t work, but out of 8 strains I have tried lately, I have found 2 that do work well for this kind of pain.&lt;br /&gt;
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  402. I often wonder about maintenance chemo as it had been introduced to me originally (4 years ago); she was only taken off of chemo just the day before she passed away?&amp;nbsp; I wonder how long she had been on maintenance, did she get some extended breaks as I did?&amp;nbsp; I do know that some women just go right out and just go for many months and years with chemo?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; That is pretty hardcore.&amp;nbsp; My body didn&#39;t react as well for a very long stint on chemo.&amp;nbsp; We had to take breaks and boy did I love those breaks!)&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; That was what was so shocking to me about her death.&amp;nbsp; I kind of feel that she was cheated out of more time.&amp;nbsp; It just made me so much more thankful that I have not always been on the chemo for most of the time and that I didn&#39;t have to go through what she must have gone through.&amp;nbsp; Her health had to have deteriorated pretty fast for them to remove her from chemo and then for her to die only the following day?&amp;nbsp; She didn&#39;t even get a chance to go onto hospice care and enjoy some final days?&amp;nbsp; I do wonder if the chemo killed her more so than the cancer? More research for my hard headed soul....&lt;br /&gt;
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  404. Anyway, I do wish all of you much Peace and Love and that this Christmas is the best ever!&amp;nbsp; No, better yet! I hope your Christmas&#39; keep getting better and better!)&amp;nbsp; Be thankful for family, friends, and all loved ones!&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s not all about &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Social-Psychology-Material-Possessions-Have/dp/0745009565?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;material possessions&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0745009565&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; it&#39;s about Peace and Love!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  416. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Last night I had a good old friend from school visit me;&amp;nbsp; whom I have not seen in at least 20 years and we clicked just as much as we did way back then; mostly just talking great music, shows, skating, and what we have been doing these last 20 years. &amp;nbsp; I love all my old brothers from way back then; they were mostly my younger brother&#39;s friends; but since my brother was my best friend back then; we just shared friends and always hung out together. Most of us never did hard drugs; it was all about the adrenaline rush; whether it be music or mastering a new skateboard trick.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  417. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjknlFgFXvZyGTf2-Gpu7wtne_JR5MFCHhDkjXFd5xXxpadxdlfOhn1thR0sHpMPxfFoQ7SigwJNLoidNrb3Lse8qBSiwm_yDFh4uH7Y9QmvKMH5LV24oL7ITM43yROHDyI8gwrDPClNPwi/s1600/Jimmy-Shawn-Jayne1.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;276&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjknlFgFXvZyGTf2-Gpu7wtne_JR5MFCHhDkjXFd5xXxpadxdlfOhn1thR0sHpMPxfFoQ7SigwJNLoidNrb3Lse8qBSiwm_yDFh4uH7Y9QmvKMH5LV24oL7ITM43yROHDyI8gwrDPClNPwi/s320/Jimmy-Shawn-Jayne1.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;My honey always enjoys meeting all of my friends that I grew up with because those friends seem to really have some real heart and soul about them and we always have the best conversations about all the fun we had way back then!&amp;nbsp; It was great to see my husband and&amp;nbsp; good friend get along so well and have plenty to talk about since both had been in the military!)&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; It felt so good to reminisce all those old but very good memories of skate jams, finding new and better punk rock or hard metal to listen to and even go to some real shows! Oh the fun we have had and&amp;nbsp; now my honey and I still do!)&amp;nbsp; Over the years I have introduced many bands to my honey who loves my music about as much as I do!&amp;nbsp; We have seen some amazing shows together and of course we both learned to snowboard together.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s always great for me to be able to talk my music with someone who knows what the hell I&#39;m talking about when I name of some of the bands I have seen over the years!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  418. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhsmITksi7avbxQKti1HamQ9lBqBe_kclgM2NrwwH15uwL8ek3tM9zVsigEMODNGKBs5ckK1m9l4W3jTsnA7kif0jNZnVbBQrhpRVI5WOEfUCdv3PbjEwAtJMF8_a7AnM4yhshCCHxUFPWV/s1600/Picture+961.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhsmITksi7avbxQKti1HamQ9lBqBe_kclgM2NrwwH15uwL8ek3tM9zVsigEMODNGKBs5ckK1m9l4W3jTsnA7kif0jNZnVbBQrhpRVI5WOEfUCdv3PbjEwAtJMF8_a7AnM4yhshCCHxUFPWV/s320/Picture+961.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;This morning I awoke with the most beautiful card just sitting there in front of my computer screen; it made me tear up and I thought hard about the last &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Poem-Love-Marriage-Husband-Burgundy/dp/B003W910R8?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;8 years of my marriage&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003W910R8&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;. &amp;nbsp;He always picks those kind of cards that just tug at my heart and remind me that I picked me a special one! &amp;nbsp;  (He also got me the most gorgeous bouquet of flowers!&amp;nbsp; They are pictures down below!)We seem to have grown so much closer with each passing year unlike many couples.&amp;nbsp; Our love is rare; I found myself a real man and I&#39;m so very proud of him!) &amp;nbsp; He is the best!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  419. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;In those eight years, we have had some tough times fighting this horrible beast called &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Emperor-All-Maladies-Biography-Cancer/dp/1439107955?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;cancer &lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1439107955&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;but most of all, we have had so much fun together in the last 12 years together. &amp;nbsp; I will never forget how cute both of us were&amp;nbsp; as we nervously got ready for our special wedding 8 years ago today.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; What a frantic day that day was that started; running around with our heads cut off practically and then the wedding just going on perfectly as if we had planned it years ago.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; My dad was in town just to walk me down the aisle and to be there for my first chemo just 2 days later.&amp;nbsp; No time for a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Sacred-Love-Honeymoon-lasts-forever/dp/0977594513?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;real honeymoon&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0977594513&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; but definitely a gorgeous sunset to be enjoyed by everyone who came to witness our special day together. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  420. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjo1fFWLEd1IpPgdDmDCL1Nb13hXkQpLzyya62wZlipxz-lIWy9CJAS3tad0hh2lJUTP6XxS3BvF2E8pKpB4Eitm5EGa3egAyiL8aO0TaYheY7x7ezV-LOXNlsj13kdvOhbSbh74-v_bmUH/s1600/92475_bh.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;213&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjo1fFWLEd1IpPgdDmDCL1Nb13hXkQpLzyya62wZlipxz-lIWy9CJAS3tad0hh2lJUTP6XxS3BvF2E8pKpB4Eitm5EGa3egAyiL8aO0TaYheY7x7ezV-LOXNlsj13kdvOhbSbh74-v_bmUH/s320/92475_bh.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;We decided today to go see&amp;nbsp; a movie together and since I have never in my life witnessed seeing a real &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Story-Four-Disc-Blu-ray-Combo-Digital/dp/B003XKPPOU?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;3 D movie&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003XKPPOU&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; today would be the day.&amp;nbsp; We went to see &lt;a href=&quot;http://movies.yahoo.com/movie/1809998238/info&quot;&gt;Megamind&lt;/a&gt; and it was totally amazing.&amp;nbsp; I was so in awe of the 3D and kept checking the screen out with and with out the glasses; I had a blast just watching everything (well I also had to taken my medicine before the showing so that more than likely enhanced my viewing pleasure even more so= I didn&#39;t get sick the entire time!) with such fascination much like a young child would.&amp;nbsp; It reminded me of those old &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Your-Face-3-D-Sports-Illustrated/dp/1603200274?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;3D books&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1603200274&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; when those came around or cards that had the plastic with those thick lines where it would change images; yet look so &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Pyramids-Awakening-Multi-Dimensional-Realities-ebook/dp/B002PHMNAQ?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;multi-dimensional&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002PHMNAQ&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  421. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;We both had such a blast and we also had the entire theater all to our selves! &amp;nbsp; We were the only people watching this movie so we got to laugh as loud as we wanted to&amp;nbsp; and&amp;nbsp; to sit where ever we wanted,&amp;nbsp; both of us are a little challenged with some of our eyesight; so we sat kind of close and right in the middle where we both jumped a little at some of the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Special-Effects-Technique-Richard-Rickitt/dp/0823084086?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;special effects&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0823084086&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; like explosions and things getting close to us that we felt we could almost grab at things!&amp;nbsp; It was pretty trippy and amazing at the same time!) &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m so glad I got to experience that!&amp;nbsp; After wards, we ordered some Thai Food from &lt;a href=&quot;http://local.yahoo.com/info-77061667-krung-thai-san-jose;_ylt=AswlHAONmBvMM6Aqm9Sc3xiHNcIF;_ylv=3?csz=3173+Payne+Ave%2C+San+Jose%2C+CA+95117&quot;&gt;Krung Thai&lt;/a&gt; practically across the street from the Century 24 theaters; maybe just under 2 miles at most from our home.&amp;nbsp; I thoroughly enjoyed eating that yummy &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Thai-Food-David-Thompson/dp/1580084621?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Thai Food&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1580084621&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; even though I just can&#39;t hold anything in my stomach for very long; I ate, vomited , and smoked a joint, then ate again, vomited again, and then smoked again; it was kind of an endless disgusting cycle; that only I could enjoy.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s quite unsettling I&#39;m sure to have to witness my vomiting. &amp;nbsp; Yeah it&#39;s pretty damn nasty!&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNp_h0iLINsjXi_eYoyNSHZlh0veAVk86PiaLWLRN7FwSvANCkDHC0jgjCc3FGsAzymi6-1Gn5sFa_moRZKP99vAZTgIBOr_umPkAmoJ7q883tbz3SxnKnhAS30dKOgDf34Bu3g6R_t2BS/s1600/DSCN240620101203_133025.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNp_h0iLINsjXi_eYoyNSHZlh0veAVk86PiaLWLRN7FwSvANCkDHC0jgjCc3FGsAzymi6-1Gn5sFa_moRZKP99vAZTgIBOr_umPkAmoJ7q883tbz3SxnKnhAS30dKOgDf34Bu3g6R_t2BS/s320/DSCN240620101203_133025.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Smoking my cannabis just made it much more tolerable for me to do (you know the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Secret-Life-Mary-Margaret-Portrait-Families/dp/B003TASP14?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;bulimic&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003TASP14&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; thing I do?). &amp;nbsp; I was able to eat once again and of course vomit some more; does that really make me &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Bulimics-Bulimia-Maria-Stavrou/dp/184310668X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;bulimic&lt;/a&gt;?&amp;nbsp; Yes, I suppose it is a waste of food for me to try to eat some normal food, but I just love food so much and wished so much that I could just &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/DAY-SUPPLY-Too-Scrawny-supplement/dp/B002FOZ1Y4?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;gain some weight&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002FOZ1Y4&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! 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  422. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Well I didn&#39;t have to endure the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Prelief-AKPHARMA-PRELIEF-150-SRVG/dp/B000KHKS3M?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;painful heartburn&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000KHKS3M&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; because my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Storz-Bickel-VOLCANO-Vaporizer-Starter/dp/B003H3DH2A?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;vaporizer&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003H3DH2A&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; rocks!)&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m so glad for this &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Marijuana-Medical-Handbook-Practical-Therapeutic/dp/0932551866?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;miracle medicine&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0932551866&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and thankful to have made it this far with my honey. &amp;nbsp; Thanks to&amp;nbsp; pot, I got extra time here to spend with everyone I love including all of you!&amp;nbsp; I do know that this miracle plant has helped me through so much when other medicines have failed.&amp;nbsp; I just can&#39;t take pills anymore. Another &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Wedding-Anniversary-Memories-Talus-Corp/dp/1892953412?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;great anniversary&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1892953412&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; that we got to celebrate together!)&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  423. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Peace and Love to all of you!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  428. &lt;br /&gt;
  429. Oh does he deserves to relax!)&amp;nbsp; If something ever&amp;nbsp; happens to me; he is able to race home from there and be at home with in about 3 minutes or so.&amp;nbsp; This little local pub is every sports fan&#39;s dream; it&#39;s kind of a man cave being that most of the times its kind of dark in there with exception to all the TVs.&amp;nbsp; It has many flat screen TV&#39;s playing all kinds of sports, pool tables, &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Stern-Pinball-Batman-Arcade-Machine/dp/B001GY9GHW?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;pin ball machines&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001GY9GHW&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Crosley-CR11CD-Jukebox-CD-Player/dp/B0009RO622?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;down loadable jukebox&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0009RO622&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;(where you can look up most songs), and a huge &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Venture-Foot-Ambassador-Shuffleboard-Table/dp/B000PVAVU8?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;shuffle board table&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000PVAVU8&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; There&#39;s probably lots more stuff that I didn&#39;t mention but really; most people work hard all day long and they come here to relax and not be stressed out.&amp;nbsp; Sometimes there might be an idiot who can&#39;t handle his alcohol, but most of the time; it&#39;s kind of peaceful. &lt;br /&gt;
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  431. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh1rUeJZbyplVu6F3p4MOoj5stq5zaU1Le3e4LVIm6T1DAmJ66bVh6-i2FFS333F4qYUmLp0a-cfR7JDo4vYCs_a56cyxDco0KDNSF4UhLJxRDQRJqOKb6WnfK-dY4PXXQIk3WuQmFtVYj1/s1600/DSCN157220101002_150648.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh1rUeJZbyplVu6F3p4MOoj5stq5zaU1Le3e4LVIm6T1DAmJ66bVh6-i2FFS333F4qYUmLp0a-cfR7JDo4vYCs_a56cyxDco0KDNSF4UhLJxRDQRJqOKb6WnfK-dY4PXXQIk3WuQmFtVYj1/s320/DSCN157220101002_150648.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;Well the other night (Monday?)&amp;nbsp; night he came home pretty upset and it upset me just to see him this way.&amp;nbsp; He was pretty pissed, but thank god he&#39;s over it and it&#39;s just another bar tale about some stupid cops who violated their &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Right-Privacy-Caroline-Kennedy/dp/0679744347?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;right to privacy&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0679744347&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;. &amp;nbsp; He really did not deserve being treated unfairly by our &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.policecrimes.com/police_brutality/California_police5.html&quot;&gt;local San Jose PD officers&lt;/a&gt;. &amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://articles.sfgate.com/2008-08-27/bay-area/17124087_1_san-jose-arrests-profiling&quot;&gt;Two young rookies&lt;/a&gt; in uniform walked into the bar convinced that most of the people in the room were &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.knowgangs.com/gang_resources/profiles/surenos/&quot;&gt;Sureno&#39;s&lt;/a&gt; or had assumed there were&amp;nbsp; some &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.knowgangs.com/photo/showphoto.php?photo=701&quot;&gt;gang members&lt;/a&gt; inside this local pub.&amp;nbsp; Most of the people that frequent this pub are most often working class; they have jobs, they pay taxes, and many have &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Mortgages-101-Answers-Critical-Questions/dp/081440166X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;mortgages&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=081440166X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; Well anyway these 2 cops (more than likely rookies who just wanted to flaunt some power towards the common folk citizens- maybe wanted to see fear in these people&#39;s eyes) promptly walked in&amp;nbsp; and announced that they were doing a bar scan or check?&amp;nbsp; (I&#39;m not even sure this is even legal)? &amp;nbsp; I believe they had asked my husband first for his ID and then his friend David who is about 25-26 years old, he too has long dark hair like my husband, but he has a full beard; anyway they had my husband&#39;s and his friend David&#39;s ID and&amp;nbsp; somehow got them mixed up; one announced &quot;David born in 65&#39;&quot;&amp;nbsp; as if he might be a criminal and his friend David corrected the little power hungry cop; &quot;that would be James&quot;.&amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t know but it just seemed like they were focusing more so on my sweet husband and his sweet friend David because both a dark haired and might cause some trouble because of their long hair and semi-dark skin.&amp;nbsp; Racial profiling is supposed to be illegal but sometimes cops do not see any way around it?&lt;br /&gt;
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  433. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZSqT4u6kodFfXOyuCqwTGREMiHX11_63wTahHUvlqBQDYmgmGMOofRgX6bFd_jJwYyVPOsxIDuRSdpmslyOVSqUkQBeCi8ZX3x89rWxgoiDiBEY_7xxEGNnN1M1JTin5KY1ZSgx-1ugoS/s1600/IMG_1116.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZSqT4u6kodFfXOyuCqwTGREMiHX11_63wTahHUvlqBQDYmgmGMOofRgX6bFd_jJwYyVPOsxIDuRSdpmslyOVSqUkQBeCi8ZX3x89rWxgoiDiBEY_7xxEGNnN1M1JTin5KY1ZSgx-1ugoS/s320/IMG_1116.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;I totally feel that this was completely unjustified and my&amp;nbsp; sweet husband was doing nothing illegal&amp;nbsp; (unless drinking a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Budweiser-Starr-Mount-Stationary-Opener/dp/B0025TI1LY?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Budweiser&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0025TI1LY&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&amp;nbsp; and watching sport is now illegal?) as these cops repeatedly called him&amp;nbsp;  &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Troy_Polamalu&quot;&gt;Polamulu&lt;/a&gt;&quot;.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; It seemed like some sort of racist thing that they were doing; thinking my husband was &lt;a href=&quot;http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Samoa&quot;&gt;Samoan&lt;/a&gt;? the way that they kept referring to him that way. &amp;nbsp; They continued to repeat &quot;Palamulu&quot; every time that they referred to my husband.&lt;br /&gt;
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  435. Well these little cops wasted their time inside the bar doing background checks on all of my husband&#39;s friends and a few others in the bar that they deemed dangerous looking?&amp;nbsp; They could have been doing what their job entails which is protecting the public from danger but it seemed that they were to scared to do that; instead frighten law abiding citizens.&amp;nbsp; Instead, they go into a public establishment and instill fear to everyone in there?&amp;nbsp; Is it even legal for them to walk in to an establishment and just ask everyone for their IDs and then do background checks just like that?&amp;nbsp; No one was even applying for a job to be a cop?&amp;nbsp; Do we have freedom anymore or is this a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Emerging-Police-State-Resisting-Illegitimate/dp/1876175796?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Police State&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1876175796&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;?&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m terribly confused and it sucks if we have to continue to loose more freedoms; don&#39;t we have any &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Privacy-Lost-Right-Jon-Mills/dp/0195367359?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;right to privacy&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0195367359&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; anymore?&amp;nbsp; That would really suck if we don&#39;t.&amp;nbsp; I found &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.siliconvalleydebug.com/story/THEYEAR2010/100110/stories/newsjpolicechief.html&quot;&gt;this interesting article&lt;/a&gt; on finding a new police chief and middle ground on the East Side of San Jose.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
  436. &lt;br /&gt;
  437. &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.siliconvalleydebug.com/story/THEYEAR2010/100110/stories/newsjpolicechief.html&quot;&gt;http://www.siliconvalleydebug.com/story/THEYEAR2010/100110/stories/newsjpolicechief.html&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  439. It really sucks for people to have to fear the cops rather than the gangs in our city.&lt;br /&gt;
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  441. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgq-48tnLviL_yUh4DvSI-T1_mfsgGkVhSkQ-OeAZJy17qwmkJ9-Xexn_4EM-_0Lw8xPic7ndJJ4nTbOGFy1JbA50aNn-ENcUhJ1-i7zcWCMz6nkZTeQXILyK1mt-lOjgHzNbMVFSanRYnQ/s1600/DSCN137720100821_155954.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgq-48tnLviL_yUh4DvSI-T1_mfsgGkVhSkQ-OeAZJy17qwmkJ9-Xexn_4EM-_0Lw8xPic7ndJJ4nTbOGFy1JbA50aNn-ENcUhJ1-i7zcWCMz6nkZTeQXILyK1mt-lOjgHzNbMVFSanRYnQ/s320/DSCN137720100821_155954.JPG&quot; width=&quot;240&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;There were no warrants for anyone but having them automatically do background checks on everyone because they happen to be in a bar does not at all seem warranted or even legal.&amp;nbsp; Can they also go into a restaurant and do the same thing?&amp;nbsp; They don&#39;t need to treat all citizens as criminals.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s totally uncalled for.&amp;nbsp; They could have just gone and done their job and checked in the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Dangerous-Neighborhood-Michael-Radu/dp/0765801663?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;dangerous neighborhood&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0765801663&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&amp;nbsp; which is just across the main street from the bar which perhaps these cops were too  scared to go check out . &amp;nbsp; Instead of investigating the more dangerous part of the neighborhood, they would much rather push their weight on something much, much more easier; law abiding citizens.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;My poor honey was just sitting there at the bar with his friends  watching &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Kicking-Off-Week-Television-1970-2005/dp/0786429690?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Monday night football&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0786429690&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; relaxing and basically having a well  deserved good time with his buddies.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m so behind that.&amp;nbsp; I love all of his sweet friends!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  443. It wasn&#39;t yet time to hook me up to my TPN just yet  and I was basically sitting at home with my sweet little animals who  were basically cuddled up on the couch with me watching a very, very  cute animal movie &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1734063/&quot;&gt;Baily the lost puppy&lt;/a&gt;&quot;, (I didn&#39;t realize how much  cute animal movies mellow me out= what a great destresser!). &amp;nbsp; Everything was good for me; I was smoking my pot and puking and draining my tummy at home.&amp;nbsp; Well until those cops came into the bar and stressed everyone out for no reason at all?&lt;br /&gt;
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  445. Now there is plenty of crime in my&amp;nbsp; little San Jose neighborhood&amp;nbsp; (we are kind of on the edge of where lots of Sereno&#39;s reside and at night sometimes it can  also be downright frightening like many other drug violent neighborhoods. &amp;nbsp; I&#39;m not really scared like I should be to walk around outside at night.&amp;nbsp; We mostly get lots of foot traffic on our street&amp;nbsp; with occasional yelling and smashing things,&amp;nbsp; until past midnight.&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; Well anyway these cops were way out of line messing with my husband and his friends.   There is more that needs to be done in our little city, then mess with law abiding citizens and I so wished I could have been there so that I could tell those inexperienced power hungry little cops that they are ruining a good thing; they are infringing on people&#39;s rights to relax after a long day at work&amp;nbsp; and disturbing the peace.&amp;nbsp; Everyone there deserved to relax; not be terrified or hassled by some little power hungry cops. It kind of makes me sad to know there are still those kind of cops out there that have no heart&amp;nbsp; or seemingly don&#39;t in what they do.&lt;br /&gt;
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  448. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJFCLBOqqoUpeflAbeeXcteRo6b64rHzjOM1G7RoTG45X1DJp2lEikMV7xz8wbP3P6efbA2w-XWVkC6pp514kKSJIpU0GxeQ1vx9raQNsohelrDFwu7Vp1-wTTcZkUcOWXXljjthXaT9qQ/s1600/Troy-Polamalu.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJFCLBOqqoUpeflAbeeXcteRo6b64rHzjOM1G7RoTG45X1DJp2lEikMV7xz8wbP3P6efbA2w-XWVkC6pp514kKSJIpU0GxeQ1vx9raQNsohelrDFwu7Vp1-wTTcZkUcOWXXljjthXaT9qQ/s320/Troy-Polamalu.jpg&quot; width=&quot;214&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9VdIcHxiatoiq1_6SwXH7rip1Zh0S0ZS-HqjpDvrqZeD0zSrmET9UEUhHJCtEhne-x6bh7SWr1zqEpvWAFdKYFTJPylxXij76cyTDLco7dfcchtDm9Dr93KmoJVCxjyBg8v-ffCfi0GTB/s1600/loveforoneanother.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9VdIcHxiatoiq1_6SwXH7rip1Zh0S0ZS-HqjpDvrqZeD0zSrmET9UEUhHJCtEhne-x6bh7SWr1zqEpvWAFdKYFTJPylxXij76cyTDLco7dfcchtDm9Dr93KmoJVCxjyBg8v-ffCfi0GTB/s320/loveforoneanother.jpg&quot; width=&quot;258&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;Anyway, I researched the dude &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://prod.www.steelers.clubs.nfl.com/team/roster/Troy-Polamalu/1b1010ec-73b6-414d-88ee-72dbd9b48597&quot;&gt;Polamulu&lt;/a&gt;&quot; in which they kept referring to&amp;nbsp; my husband and yeah he kind of resembles my hot husband; well anyway he just happens to be this&amp;nbsp; very, very hot Football Player who plays for the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.steelers.com/&quot;&gt;Pittsburgh Steelers&lt;/a&gt;.&amp;nbsp; This guy has a long flowing mane for hair (Kind of like my honey). &amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://voices.washingtonpost.com/early-lead/2010/08/troy_polamalus_hair_insured_fo.html&quot;&gt;P &amp;amp;G (he had been using Head and Shoulders his whole life) insured his mane for $1,000,000&lt;/a&gt;.&amp;nbsp; Anyway, he plays for the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Fremont-Die-90513-Pittsburgh-Steelers/dp/B0009XEFDQ?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Pittsburgh Steelers&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0009XEFDQ&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;;&amp;nbsp; he isn&#39;t quite as hot my honey but he&#39;s still pretty damn close. &amp;nbsp; After looking him up, I would say that is kind of compliment to my husband; because this dude is a total bad ass and my husband is too!&amp;nbsp; Wow!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; So those cops were kinda being cool referring to my husband as hot!)&amp;nbsp; They just were not when they had to hassle most everyone in the bar.&lt;br /&gt;
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  450. I just hope that one day those three cops will mature and become much better cops and not be such total ass&#39;s to other law abiding citizens trying to get in some relaxing time. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I also hope that&amp;nbsp; one day i they come in again; that I&#39;m in there and&amp;nbsp; if they try to ask for my ID,&amp;nbsp; I won&#39;t give it to them especially if my only crime happens to be sitting at the bar, drinking water which is what I normally drink.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; They must tell me what I am doing wrong in order for them to request to see my ID or I can also ask if I can see their IDs and I must be able to do a background check on them too? &amp;nbsp; Yes, I&#39;m difficult sometimes and very, very stubborn and stuck in my ways.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; My honey always has to calm me down once I start going.&lt;br /&gt;
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  452. I&#39;ve actually had some pretty pleasant experiences with some of the cops in my neighborhood just walking my dog over to 7/11. They stopped me so that they could get a better look at my dog and to pet her of course.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; We had some wonderful conversations about real things in life.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; They seemed inspired by me and also told me they were glad to have met me.&amp;nbsp; It made me feel really good.&amp;nbsp; They were completely open and honest with me as I told them about me fighting for my life.&amp;nbsp; I opened up and told them how lucky I am to be alive and how I have been using cannabis to save my life so many times.&amp;nbsp; They were completely behind me 110% on that.&amp;nbsp; One even told me that its&#39; kind of secret but sometimes other cops who suffer from &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.aaets.org/article132.htm&quot;&gt;PTSS &lt;/a&gt;often use it to relax and sleep at night.&amp;nbsp; It helps them and they deserve to sleep and relax too. &lt;br /&gt;
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  454. Since everyday is a blessing to me and I&#39;m grateful for each and every day I am provided with; I wish all of you lots of Peace and Love and hope that one day we will once again have a right to our own privacy when we decide to go out and have fun!) &amp;nbsp; Maybe most towns allow for Privacy inside a bar but apparently not &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.sjpd.org/&quot;&gt;San Jose PD&lt;/a&gt;. &lt;br /&gt;
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  456. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgt7xTNmIpHCwUwNpLAxo0oZ3CipK71XwLFguDUVdticmt6bsq4iUyJFTXzxrBuwQ3KPTYVTmm_rJSh6LExZPjtFfurHd4PwrOWniLRTEb6AABlBmWHV5qDgDz8mkL0YcHU0saktaaetUeq/s1600/charlie.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;212&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgt7xTNmIpHCwUwNpLAxo0oZ3CipK71XwLFguDUVdticmt6bsq4iUyJFTXzxrBuwQ3KPTYVTmm_rJSh6LExZPjtFfurHd4PwrOWniLRTEb6AABlBmWHV5qDgDz8mkL0YcHU0saktaaetUeq/s320/charlie.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;Another beautiful horse who needs some help. Either adoption or donating for his hay and food will do.&amp;nbsp; His adoption fee was reduce to only $700; of course the Adopter must be responsible for transportation by picking up the horse at the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.theanimalifarm.com/&quot;&gt;Animali Farm&lt;/a&gt; in &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Aerial-Photography-Santa-Maria-California/dp/B003VAFMCW?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Santa Maria&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003VAFMCW&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; or arrange for some transportation. Charlie was born in May 2009 and is a gelding.&amp;nbsp; He is a mix of &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Odalisque-Book-One-Percheron-Saga/dp/B004A14UAG?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Percheron&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B004A14UAG&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Foundation-American-Quarterhorse-Moorman-Denhardt/dp/0806113375?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Quarterhorse&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0806113375&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, and &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/American-Paint-Horse-Glynn-Haynes/dp/0806121440?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Paint&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0806121440&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; He has a beautiful gait and will one be the ultimate riding horse for some lucky somebody!)&amp;nbsp; Charlie did go to &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Man-Who-Listens-Horses-Real-Life/dp/0345510453?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Monty Roberts&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0345510453&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; in September; he is now gentle and halterbroke, picks up his feed, and will gently follow you into any horse trailer.&amp;nbsp; If interested you may contact:&amp;nbsp; Jennifer Johns or Cheryl Forbes (805) 938-0174 or &lt;a href=&quot;mailto:animali@aol.com&quot;&gt;animali@aol.com&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;br /&gt;
  457. The Animali Farm is located: 3401 Tepusquet Road,&amp;nbsp; Santa Maria, CA 93454&lt;br /&gt;
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  465. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhnmRg23fktTH_Uy2m5F-nNJ_I5eCyHyQYF-3Es0AT2ELqoHfYNS90sAodfhA9m1KmQk4QYNQKNvpB2wDISyF9wPSGSs8XDa0Sfe2U5TpAfZSOjbeLkr7zv0zG4M6IRDP9xv382lGfa_HbR/s1600/DSCN222820101125_171816.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhnmRg23fktTH_Uy2m5F-nNJ_I5eCyHyQYF-3Es0AT2ELqoHfYNS90sAodfhA9m1KmQk4QYNQKNvpB2wDISyF9wPSGSs8XDa0Sfe2U5TpAfZSOjbeLkr7zv0zG4M6IRDP9xv382lGfa_HbR/s320/DSCN222820101125_171816.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;I would love to live forever with my honey; if I had it the way that I wanted; I would die a tenth of a second before my honey and my pets but you just don&#39;t always go when you want to.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m thankful for each and every morning that I wake up; no matter what; even if I happen to be in horrid pain; it&#39;s just a reminder that I am alive and with my soul mate who takes such good care of me.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; He loves me no matter what!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  466. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2XnqLNlqeVMJBocmcNApbLN9y7ooNjLbhwj_GmxnYMoIZREietFLhrIOHkgDtFetIsI8DIEalrGocH3i_nF2H9YmrOV2oqw7Iedl8yvexxaJ5XEIESv7IH7rxYTPBppxE3Z8nNHqU5Dg8/s1600/DSCN224120101125_174934.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2XnqLNlqeVMJBocmcNApbLN9y7ooNjLbhwj_GmxnYMoIZREietFLhrIOHkgDtFetIsI8DIEalrGocH3i_nF2H9YmrOV2oqw7Iedl8yvexxaJ5XEIESv7IH7rxYTPBppxE3Z8nNHqU5Dg8/s320/DSCN224120101125_174934.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;Well I just had the most wonderful &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Oven-Roasted-Turkey-Dinner-2-3/dp/B001QV8O82?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Thanksgiving Dinner&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001QV8O82&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; yesterday with my loving neighbors in the back of the complex.&amp;nbsp; What a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Tofu-Recipes-People-Water-ebook/dp/B003YOSFY2?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;wonderful cook&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003YOSFY2&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;  my neighbor Sharon is and I&#39;m still kinda enjoying her meal (lots of  left overs) even though I&#39;m eating, then puking, then eating again and  continuing the endless cycle of eating and puking? &amp;nbsp; Even though I have  this weird &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Bulimics-Bulimia-Maria-Stavrou/dp/184310668X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;bulimia&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=184310668X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;  thing going on; it didn&#39;t matter; I just wanted to try everything out.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;  I know, how disgusting is that?&amp;nbsp; I&#39;ve kind of gotten used to the puking and not  being able to digest anything.&amp;nbsp; It just a way of my life. &amp;nbsp; The only thing is that I must also  smoke a little joint which&amp;nbsp; really helps so much for&amp;nbsp; the heartburn (I&#39;m not getting it as much anymore?) and it&#39;s so  important for me to drink lots of water with my meal and boy does that  little joint make me thirsty unlike the Dilaudid (which I quit taking a  few days ago since a very good friend of mine provided me with this  amazing miracle medicine) or the Methadone.&amp;nbsp; I still have to take it  every day twice a day.&amp;nbsp; Now it&#39;s up to 2 and half ml twice a day.&amp;nbsp; It has to be increased every week or two.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  471. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Since we are just starting to decorate the cat tree his is finally using the cat tree once again.&amp;nbsp; Yeah!&amp;nbsp; We are going to use the cat tree once again or our tree. &amp;nbsp; I just don&#39;t see bringing in a messy tree; maybe we will since this technically could be my very last Christmas on earth?&amp;nbsp; For now, I&#39;m kind of against it; I like just decorating the cat tree and so does Tonto.&amp;nbsp; He freaking loves it!&amp;nbsp; He feels special with his cat tree all decorated and stuff!&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  472. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Peace and Love to all of you!&amp;nbsp; I hope this holiday season is special for all of us and I hope and pray that Greed will once again be looked at more seriously as a character flaw in so many.&amp;nbsp; We must take care of one another; pay it forward!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  480. We had been actually running quite low on cannabis and at times I had to take the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0000545&quot;&gt;Dilaudid&lt;/a&gt; for pain. &amp;nbsp; I smoked a few buds&amp;nbsp; (buds NOT the Dilaudid) right up in my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Premium-Garments-PLASTIC-Listing-Portable/dp/B002LG0UWO?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;water pipe&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002LG0UWO&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and one in my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Storz-Bickel-VOLCANO-Vaporizer-Starter/dp/B003H3DH2A?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Vaporizer&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003H3DH2A&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Using the Vaporizer; it works so amazingly well for several hours just&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; in getting rid of the horrid &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Zantac-Tablets-Cool-65-Count-Bottle/dp/B000XVY4MG?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;heart burn pain&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000XVY4MG&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s been so bad lately.&amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Equate-Heartburn-Reducer-Cimetidine-Tablets/dp/B001W5YGD4?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Anything over the counter&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001W5YGD4&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; usually does absolutely nothing for this heartburn.&amp;nbsp; This heartburn almost feels like a heart attack almost.&amp;nbsp; It also feels like someone is pouring hydrochloric acid right onto my heart.&amp;nbsp; It freaking sucks and sometimes I will wake up in the middle of the night with the worst case!&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  481. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Then on Sunday we went to see a good friend of mine in &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Santa-Cruz-Beach-Boardwalk-Century/dp/1580088147?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Santa Cruz&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1580088147&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; who helped me greatly in just giving me some very, very good quality medicine which has been working wonders on my horrible nausea and painful, painful heartburn.&amp;nbsp; I didn&#39;t think pot could be so strong enough to help with that?&amp;nbsp; My heartburn really is the worst and I hate when it comes because its so hard to get rid of.&amp;nbsp; Sometimes things work for it and sometimes they don&#39;t.&amp;nbsp; I have try different medications in order to get rid of it just for a little while, then it comes back again.&amp;nbsp; Each fight it&#39;s own battle.&amp;nbsp; That&#39;s kind of how we have to live our lives in getting out of certain predicaments. Lifes changes.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  482. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-NJfdYJdY-gqbvRzckYwwHw1rylpz3snFL0fVVmC0u_ppIh1yYC3qhxJVRb0_q0py_IkjaYMRbuisdDqK5EmE3JeZCacGMRNL4pi0km-n0qkgeoe9EzgvNPGfpyorpzWHK3FeCXT9KeNL/s1600/DSCN139520100828_170600.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-NJfdYJdY-gqbvRzckYwwHw1rylpz3snFL0fVVmC0u_ppIh1yYC3qhxJVRb0_q0py_IkjaYMRbuisdDqK5EmE3JeZCacGMRNL4pi0km-n0qkgeoe9EzgvNPGfpyorpzWHK3FeCXT9KeNL/s320/DSCN139520100828_170600.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;As the days have been passing; the heartburn has unfortunately been getting worse.&amp;nbsp; Sometimes I have to pull out the heavy duty arsenal of medicines for that heartburn.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s so miserable and for a plant to work on that kind of pain for me&amp;nbsp; really is a miracle.&amp;nbsp; It was like night and day for me using the cannabis.&amp;nbsp; I was so happy to go visit with my friend who also has&amp;nbsp; 2 of the very cutest children and they are so incredibly well behaved.&amp;nbsp; Good, Good, Great parents!&amp;nbsp; Some people let their kids get by with murder and the kids can be very stressful for me to be around; but not these kids.&amp;nbsp; The baby was to die for!&amp;nbsp; Especially for Blue Belle.&amp;nbsp; She has a very, very hard time listening to me when it comes to babies. She just wants to give the baby a kiss or maybe lots and lots of kisses. &amp;nbsp; She just&amp;nbsp; loves children to peaces and its such a treat when my friends bring their kids and then the kids get to enjoy my sweet animals.&amp;nbsp; Its a good experience for the kids to be able to play with such a safe dog that you don&#39;t have to worry about biting. the kids instead the&amp;nbsp; kids biting the animals. &amp;nbsp; She won&#39;t even bite another animal or even protect here?.&amp;nbsp; She&#39;s totally passive; well kinda like me.&amp;nbsp; We are both just too nice sometimes. &amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  483. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj9V9M6Ol5rmvKXm_i_DuoeO8s6GZvCLKfzyYRQc9Mwq2aTBFNmaXAq_2i2d1SXTveTXXOvhPVtP0VkevRZpCcxqanaMxn1oejle3ctEH8N6tLqmEtgPFqyjxMgsdaCrHBrVaMBrHt9yy_C/s1600/DSCN139620100828_170602.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj9V9M6Ol5rmvKXm_i_DuoeO8s6GZvCLKfzyYRQc9Mwq2aTBFNmaXAq_2i2d1SXTveTXXOvhPVtP0VkevRZpCcxqanaMxn1oejle3ctEH8N6tLqmEtgPFqyjxMgsdaCrHBrVaMBrHt9yy_C/s320/DSCN139620100828_170602.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;With children; knowing that my dog is in heaven, it makes me smile at their wonder as they give love to Blue Belle.&amp;nbsp; She&#39;s a little show off where she will walk up and do her little bow then she might go in for a quick kiss on the lips preferably.&amp;nbsp; She&#39;s so freaking soft and smells great (I brush her often and sometimes use conditioner/dander relieving sprays on her. &amp;nbsp; Kids could pull her hair, step on her accidentally and&amp;nbsp; still no worries about her ever biting.&amp;nbsp; She&#39;s that sweet. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Its&amp;nbsp; always fun to watch the neighbor&#39;s kids as they play with her.&amp;nbsp; She loves children and I wished so much that I could have been able to volunteer with her but I do share her with the world as I live it.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Sometimes I have to stop and share my dog when I take her with me anywhere, shopping, on walks or on my bike rides; her fur is so irresistible and that little Sheltie smile with the flippy ears back.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; She has such a cute little foxy&amp;nbsp; face!&amp;nbsp; Many who have had Shelties; recognize immediately what she is. &amp;nbsp; They usually are drawn right to her.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I&#39;ve even seen huge burley bikers dudes freak out on her cuteness factor. &amp;nbsp; I totally understand that need to just dig your face into that soft sweet smelling fur especially after she gets a bath or brushing. &amp;nbsp; I know how it is; I have seen many cute puppies that I just want to hug, hold and love on!&amp;nbsp; My dog happens to be one of them!&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  484. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Yesterday it definately felt like the end could be soon because trying to eat my favorite foods has increasingly become more than just painful for me.&amp;nbsp; The vomiting factor is making me question eating more and more?&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m practically starving (the TPN sometimes just isn&#39;t enough to satisfy my cravings or maybe its the munchies from the good pot?) but as of right now I am absolutely terrified of having more heartburn that is so hard to control.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s so freaking painful!&amp;nbsp; Sometimes the pot will work for it and sometimes nothing works or it takes forever to get rid of it?&amp;nbsp; I do know that the Vaporizer works the very best of this kind of pain for at least a few hours and then when the pain returns and by then I have no energy to fight it. &amp;nbsp; Sometimes I puke my brains out and try to drain out the acid in my stomach with my R2 where that seems to the root of the pain; its just so tiring to fight sometimes.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s usually any kind of food that I eat.; even water? &amp;nbsp; I still crave pickles, and oh does that give me shitty heartburn!&amp;nbsp; I love pickles so much and sometimes my cravings are strong enough where I warrant eating pickles like I don&#39;t mind having to puke them right back up. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  485. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzpSbl_7ZIVMSmEbL2BfI-gwEJhofaDK_KEegsXwe7EuGDrMwhvfWVww6CMrj4oudaTGLAxpVvZOzxc6-eNNTWKEi1cK7G-iyGWtY0iplKdFs2jZKMNU0_siLEoEzLtbSAr_J-AYzOXRRS/s1600/DSCN217820101119_151614.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzpSbl_7ZIVMSmEbL2BfI-gwEJhofaDK_KEegsXwe7EuGDrMwhvfWVww6CMrj4oudaTGLAxpVvZOzxc6-eNNTWKEi1cK7G-iyGWtY0iplKdFs2jZKMNU0_siLEoEzLtbSAr_J-AYzOXRRS/s320/DSCN217820101119_151614.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Today, I didn&#39;t eat anything because my friend treated me to a pedicure and it&amp;nbsp; sure felt wonderful!&amp;nbsp; I didn&#39;t dare want to sit there and puke my brains out as I&#39;m getting my toes worked on.&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; It tickled like hell at first but it was awesome to get out and&amp;nbsp; even have some good old genuine fun with my friend.&amp;nbsp; I thought I had picked out a teal color but I think it looks more green than &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Awareness-Findings-Jewelry-Bracelets-Fundraising/dp/B002YZLSMI?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Teal&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002YZLSMI&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;?&amp;nbsp; The little flower cheers it up all the more but this photo really doesn&#39;t do my flat feet justice!&amp;nbsp; They are much prettier in person!&amp;nbsp; Oh God is that a hair I see on my big toe? Ewwww! sorry folks!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  486. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Well the nurse I went with was my first home health nurse whom I have missed&amp;nbsp; so dearly. &amp;nbsp; We have created an unbreakable bond and will forever be friends.&amp;nbsp; I love her so much!&amp;nbsp; I love her kids too; whom I have never met and of her dog too!&amp;nbsp; What an awesome friend and she is always just a phone call away if I have any questions or if I want somebody to go to a movie with!)&amp;nbsp; What a wonderful nurse she is and how I wished I could have kept her for my nurse but I do love my new nurse. &amp;nbsp; We have also created a bond.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  487. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I just love nurses! &amp;nbsp; There really seems to be a huge shortage in this country for them.&amp;nbsp; Maybe some of that stimulus money could go to educating more nurses here?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; We sure need them!&amp;nbsp; If I could do it all over again, I would definitely be a nurse. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I think with all of those great nurses I have had the pleasure of having have inspired me more than anything with their compassionate love and care for me.&amp;nbsp; Oh I have had my share of bad nurses too, but those great nurses I have had make me forget the bad nurses I had.&amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://shoppingkharma.blogspot.com/2009/03/head-aches-of-epidural.html&quot;&gt;Remember the one that farted in my room&lt;/a&gt; and she blamed me and I couldn&#39;t even shit much less fart yet after that kind of surgery; OH how I wished it had been me but she blamed me?&amp;nbsp; I really have&amp;nbsp; been blessed with the best home nurses and hospice nurses too!&amp;nbsp; They are all angels.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  488. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhS0paWF8yXnGdVf1arAdXV65RmCuXucc6pegbv8ZohBXFfpdHVTJaZZoW5u8Wv3_Q-DUSpjgiXXjmXXnny6IhFe-4sB48_AHbzCNyeltfPWPT2Y2T8RHnO5f0jFkz1sdeN8SHLP4YWLvJl/s1600/palin-death-panel.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;205&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhS0paWF8yXnGdVf1arAdXV65RmCuXucc6pegbv8ZohBXFfpdHVTJaZZoW5u8Wv3_Q-DUSpjgiXXjmXXnny6IhFe-4sB48_AHbzCNyeltfPWPT2Y2T8RHnO5f0jFkz1sdeN8SHLP4YWLvJl/s320/palin-death-panel.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;That&#39;s another reason I don&#39;t understand why everyone seems to think that &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.whitehouse.gov/issues/health-care/&quot;&gt;Obama&#39;s healthcare plan&lt;/a&gt; is so evil.? My own mother is benefiting so much more than before&amp;nbsp; and I surely am. &amp;nbsp; It takes a huge load off my shoulders to know that she&#39;s finally covered.&amp;nbsp; She is able to get her medications so much easier than before and so much cheaper; more affordable.&amp;nbsp; Imagine that?&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m very thankful that I have been able to get onto &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Hospice-Companion-Perry-G-Fine/dp/0195369971?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Hospice care&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0195369971&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; with my TPN.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Before I would more than likely have had to pay $2-3000 per day to stay alive?&amp;nbsp; How is that great?&amp;nbsp; Please someone answer me on that?&amp;nbsp; Now I don&#39;t have to?&amp;nbsp; There all kinds of benefits in his plans but everyone seems to be&amp;nbsp; so brainwashed into thinking its all bad.&amp;nbsp; If we can afford to fight a war with a country that never attacked us in the first place; we can afford health care for our own. &amp;nbsp; Hello, a death panel? &amp;nbsp; That turned out to be a total lie along with so many others.&amp;nbsp; How can people be so gullible to everything they broadcast in the news?&amp;nbsp; I always have to check sources and make my own opinion.&amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t be swayed that easily because of my bull headedness mostly. &amp;nbsp; I think it has to do with where I was born (MO = show me state!)&amp;nbsp; I have never read there was ever such thing as a death panel; maybe before there was; but not anymore.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; My life is definitely worth saving along with so many others!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  490. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I guess you can say that I am living on borrowed time even though I am only 40 years old.&amp;nbsp; Yes, hospice is usually against keeping someone alive; especially someone who is in my shape, artificially. &amp;nbsp; With out the food bag I might be alive for may another 2 weeks or less.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I am still&amp;nbsp; being questioned about when I feel that I need to turn off my food; I guess it will happen one day., but I don&#39;t feel it should be anytime soon. &amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t feel the need to just&amp;nbsp; yet, I just want to stay alive at least till next year or Valentine&#39;s Day or&amp;nbsp; maybe even my 45th?&amp;nbsp; Time is just going by wayyyyy too fast!&amp;nbsp; I think I need more time to be able savor some of these great days that I get to spend with my honey!)&amp;nbsp; He&#39;s really taking great care of me and just being an overall great husband.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m so proud of him!&amp;nbsp; Oh and he&#39;s so HOT!&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  491. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Most days I take lots of naps and am able to do some small things here and there&amp;nbsp; around my home like a few loads of laundry, dishes and cooking meals.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t take those small abilities for granted.&amp;nbsp; I know one day I won&#39;t be able to get out of bed and I sure am thankful for every day that I am able to get out of bed.&amp;nbsp; I do get out everyday and am able to take Miss Blue Belle and sometimes Tonto out for a walk.&amp;nbsp; Yes, those two are responsible for getting me outside everyday; rain or shine!)&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  492. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I really love being able to make my honey a meal; it just sucks that I can&#39;t eat it&amp;nbsp; every time with him; how I long too!)&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; As long as I can stay alive and am able to put up with the pain that I have to deal with; I&#39;m OK.&amp;nbsp; I just&amp;nbsp; love waking up each morning with my honey and every time that I do its always&amp;nbsp; a great day to be alive!&amp;nbsp; Life is a blessing to me and I cherish every day I can with my honey; I&#39;m not tired of the pain just yet?&amp;nbsp; If I were to turn off the food, it is said that I may last a week or two, but so far I just don&#39;t feel up to it yet.&amp;nbsp; I still have some hope that my intestines will figure out how to deliver food to my poopers?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; That would be so freaking cool!&amp;nbsp; I bet everyone takes that for granted; I sure as hell don&#39;t. It is such a fantastic day when I get one of those out!&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s happening on some days!)&amp;nbsp; Thank GOD!&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  493. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjjG4gGyFegJoa-gjNidxO-6zn8xwoLtwWrLOXCUqRf-dzcI6jhpK0NUARn17E3VjHze7Tr7-DKRKaGZE_NrcrGDJNb9SrgFnrXEMLDzTCfVA97R47qb8BLbU8OTfTnRNORGn-rIYHq2bG5/s1600/DSCN186920101111_095920.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjjG4gGyFegJoa-gjNidxO-6zn8xwoLtwWrLOXCUqRf-dzcI6jhpK0NUARn17E3VjHze7Tr7-DKRKaGZE_NrcrGDJNb9SrgFnrXEMLDzTCfVA97R47qb8BLbU8OTfTnRNORGn-rIYHq2bG5/s320/DSCN186920101111_095920.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;As for my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Therapy-Pets-Animal-Human-Healing-Partnership/dp/1591020719?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Pet Therapy Animals&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1591020719&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; They always make me feel so wonderful!&amp;nbsp; Blue Belle&amp;nbsp; is so freaking sweet and such a nice little girl.&amp;nbsp; She always listens to me; Tonto does sometimes.&amp;nbsp; Blue Belle and Tonto are great, they have been so close to me lately; not wanting to leave my side.&amp;nbsp; Tonto&amp;nbsp; loves to sleep on his chair that is right next to me.&amp;nbsp; I took all kinds of photos of all precarious positions that I could have never dreamed up?&amp;nbsp; I still keep laughing and I think he loves it when I laugh at him because his face is just full of himself like he just did something great!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Sometimes he will sit up and look right at me, I noticed this after I awoken from a nap and just happened to look up at him to see if he was there and he was just staring right at me; kind of watching me sleep.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I know this is boring stuff but staying home and healing; I notice these little things that my pets do that show their love for me.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  494. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Sometimes Tonto will get off of his chair and he will just sit on the rug that is right in front of me.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; He has totally gotten out of his old shell of hating all company or just being very jealous of them., he really get jealous of the phone (he will scream and scream if I on the phone sometimes; its absolutely hillarious and cute at the same time for someone on the other end); sometimes he gives a visitor very dirty looks; mostly at children but he is starting to trust more people that he deems are good people which has been most of my friends who have come to visit. &amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; He is much more friendlier than he ever was.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; He doesn&#39;t like someone just going to grab for him; he&#39;s not a touchy feel kind of guy. &amp;nbsp; The only annoying thing is that he keeps telling me that he is starving to death (he has to loose 2 more lbs!) and his big fat butt keeps heading over to his empty bowl&amp;nbsp; (of course his butthole always seems to be winking right at me as if it were a single eyeball?) (no tail on this boy, hence &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Bull-Terriers-Today-David-Harris/dp/0876050763?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Bull Cat&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0876050763&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot;) where he will continue to lick his empty bowl. &amp;nbsp; Sometimes you can hear a little slurp? ick! but just as loud as he possibly can.&amp;nbsp; &quot;I&#39;m sooooo hungry mom!&quot;&amp;nbsp; It is the most blatant &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Faster-Starving-Nancy-Mills-Kevin/dp/1586857959?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;I&#39;m starving&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1586857959&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot; that I have ever seen!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s as if he is giving me some sort of a hint, hint?.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; So I have to deal with those kinds of little mind games (Tonto just hates being on a diet) that he often likes to play with me; its usually&amp;nbsp; a long 2-4 hours till dinner time when he starts his crap.&amp;nbsp; Some days he OK and he doesn&#39;t bug me about it.&amp;nbsp; Plus its been cold lately and the doggie door has to stay closed so that we don&#39;t waste electricity and boy does he go through that thing when it&#39;s open.&amp;nbsp; He will gallap through the house really fast with his huge heavy giganto feet; &quot;thumpy, thumpedy, thump&quot; he goes!., then bang right out the doggie door as it flaps, one, two and sometimes 3 times. &amp;nbsp; When the doggie door remains open, he may goes through it at least a couple hundred times during the day.&amp;nbsp; Each time it opens and closes, cold air now comes right on in. &amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; Being the little skinny ass (102.5) that I am, at least I&#39;m maintaining the weight), I get cold very easily.&amp;nbsp; Sometimes my temperature will get cold and that usually scares me.&amp;nbsp; But yes, Tonto always seems to make me laugh even in the most dire circumstances.&amp;nbsp; I might be sitting on the couch in horrible pain, crying sometimes (if its bad enough) and he will bring out a little hot pink feather ball toy.&amp;nbsp; He will sit up&amp;nbsp; and smack it right at me.&amp;nbsp; So then we get to play some kitty bad minton or he will fetch it and drop right at my feet.&amp;nbsp; I think he hates seeing me in pain; they know something is up.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  495. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Anyway, I hope everyone is happy to be alive today! Peace and Love to you all!&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  502. &lt;param name=&quot;allowFullScreen&quot; value=&quot;true&quot; /&gt;&lt;param name=&quot;allowscriptaccess&quot; value=&quot;always&quot; /&gt;For several months my honey and I have procrastinated going to see a friend named Ray and his horses.&amp;nbsp; Ray is a real cowboy and his spirit is with those horses.&amp;nbsp; He is in his 70&#39;s and still kicks ass!&amp;nbsp; He has the energy to be with his horses and I am in aww of that!&amp;nbsp; I was amazed at how he was at one with each of his horses as he rode them and handled them so easily.&amp;nbsp; He hangs out with his horses everyday and also takes other riders out as an experienced guide.&amp;nbsp; He just got a new &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/MIRACLES-HAPPEN-ON-HORSEBACK-ebook/dp/B003XRE4VS?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Champion Morgan Horse&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003XRE4VS&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; for which he has been very proud of and wanting show us for a while. We finally made it!&amp;nbsp; For some reason I thought&amp;nbsp; that his other horse must have been a Morgan too but he turned out to be Romeo the pure bred Arabian!&amp;nbsp; What a gorgeous&amp;nbsp; dream horse and I sure loved watching him play!&lt;br /&gt;
  503. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiR3HO5uBjxCh311PBoqHFfKYPOh0-O8Kecss2EsYo5cGui7A1rl4qWgHjiJfG46k6BIP6KiP4zNEb_gIKiwprIY9kam1kdBRQ7LV2TBkPGXGTponYUxYsVOrAk7Taaj583mLjCLMr0_O_L/s1600/Sue+Belle.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;263&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiR3HO5uBjxCh311PBoqHFfKYPOh0-O8Kecss2EsYo5cGui7A1rl4qWgHjiJfG46k6BIP6KiP4zNEb_gIKiwprIY9kam1kdBRQ7LV2TBkPGXGTponYUxYsVOrAk7Taaj583mLjCLMr0_O_L/s320/Sue+Belle.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;Since I was a little kid I had always wished I had an Arabian and I kinda sorta got one after we had sold my beautiful little &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Bigfork-Bay-Whitney-Friends-Applique/dp/B000TFQJ4W?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Bay Pony&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000TFQJ4W&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; named &quot;Sue Belle&quot;. &amp;nbsp; She was a total sweetie pie!&amp;nbsp; If the cows ever got out; all I had to do was whistle and Sue Belle would whinny back to me and then she would&amp;nbsp; run as fast as she could even&amp;nbsp; bucking her way up to me.&amp;nbsp; I would grab her main and leap onto her back! I only only had to lean my weight in order to guide her; no need for any saddle or bridle.&amp;nbsp; She was so dependable; all the time.&amp;nbsp; The unfortunate thing happened as I was growing up.&amp;nbsp; I had ended up growing out of her practically; my legs would drag on the ground as I rode her, and she didn&#39;t mind a bit; she just loved me more than anyone could ever (with the exception of my husband).&amp;nbsp; She was still the very best trained horse I have ever had the pleasure of riding or just hanging around with. &amp;nbsp; She even knew how to give a good horse hug! &amp;nbsp; She was&amp;nbsp; so wonderful and one day I do hope I will meet her up in heaven!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  505. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwJMTuokIplK3zW_VcLot51dZCP3kpLDMwuyRajmH3iiXInwrIHHnBuxh1AtfBZPeNZoQ0I3n3c5eYyczQYS3GsCTCMOC0HhE8fMGj9DLKkaAXrloQD0PZUABD5ZddG7ohFo9S-m7o_wkh/s1600/skippy.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwJMTuokIplK3zW_VcLot51dZCP3kpLDMwuyRajmH3iiXInwrIHHnBuxh1AtfBZPeNZoQ0I3n3c5eYyczQYS3GsCTCMOC0HhE8fMGj9DLKkaAXrloQD0PZUABD5ZddG7ohFo9S-m7o_wkh/s1600/skippy.jpg&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;After Sue Belle, my mom decided to go to a livestock auction to sell some calves and maybe even save a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.freewebs.com/mallory101/faqs.htm&quot;&gt;horse&#39;s life from slaughter&lt;/a&gt;.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; We kept our eyes open and then I saw him.&amp;nbsp; My mom was heavily intoxicated at the time when we purchased my Appaloosa /Arabian Gelding and  eventually she let me have the keys to the truck as we drove Skippy home  in our home made side wracks which could have been very dangerous. &amp;nbsp; We had about a 60 mile trip ahead of us and even past a prison. &amp;nbsp; I will never forget that scary, scary ride home with my mom.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; How I just wanted her to just fall asleep and quit scaring the living shit out of me&amp;nbsp; with her arguing&amp;nbsp; and shouting&amp;nbsp; updates on Skippy nearly knocking over the sides of the truck.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; He was OK, but for some reason the alcohol was making my mom crazy.&amp;nbsp; Another reason to legalize responsible use of cannabis.&amp;nbsp; We made it home all in one peace!)&amp;nbsp; There really wasn&#39;t that much to stress about, except how&amp;nbsp; cheap alcohol can affect my mom. &amp;nbsp; It was also another moment of Skippy/Skipper Boy and his funny drama.&amp;nbsp; He got out of the truck fine and made fast friends with &quot;Graple&quot;; our other Gray Appaloosa.&amp;nbsp; We also had a cute quarter horse filly named Ember. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  506. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYfNG6J_VrwT_d94l3ofFTVTJOQj6e7ePJf5Z5HeaTsYodqFbzOr4GKJ7xtyiuDUelzzng1_7RxN2WqtHdmZfJ3stmex9P-RKQ6p0y99Dq-AdBPuPfOSfRSXYJFeR4ZSctp7hxuxwN2Vl-/s1600/DSCN189120101111_123243.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYfNG6J_VrwT_d94l3ofFTVTJOQj6e7ePJf5Z5HeaTsYodqFbzOr4GKJ7xtyiuDUelzzng1_7RxN2WqtHdmZfJ3stmex9P-RKQ6p0y99Dq-AdBPuPfOSfRSXYJFeR4ZSctp7hxuxwN2Vl-/s320/DSCN189120101111_123243.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Skippy was more or less a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Henry-J-Heinz-Varieties-ebook/dp/B002KCMG76?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Heinz 57 variety&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002KCMG76&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; just like myself; he was part Arabian and you could totally tell with his perfectly chiseled beautiful face and of course he had that white appaloosa coat with a main that was very thick and it seemed to never grow longer; just always thick and sticking up like a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Halloween-Coustumes-by-HCFS-Indian/dp/B000HAO6C6?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Mohawk&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000HAO6C6&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; his neck was also very thick as if he had been castrated later in life.&amp;nbsp; We also found out from the wild rides that he was also near sighted so we really had to build up a trust and bond with each other because some things he couldn&#39;t see very well would spook him.&amp;nbsp; After years of riding him; he totally trusted me in guiding him and he never feared those scary things that he couldn&#39;t see; instead he trusted my voice of reassurance.&amp;nbsp; I never feared riding him anymore and jumping and /or his the jerking to the&amp;nbsp; side.&amp;nbsp; It sometimes would knock me rifde off!&amp;nbsp; What a team we eventually became!) &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  507. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Well anyway back to my fun day of horse therapy, I got to brush Ray&#39;s beautiful &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Justin-Morgan-Horse-Marguerite-Henry/dp/1416927859?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Morgan horse&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1416927859&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; I chose not to ride because my honey and I were afraid that the wire in my back from the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.medtronic.com/our-therapies/drug-pumps/&quot;&gt;pain pump&lt;/a&gt; might accidentally pull itself out.&amp;nbsp; That would not be good! &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Oh how I wanted to ride but I was happy just being around those horses.&amp;nbsp; Blue Belle didn&#39;t spook at all and it was as if she were used to being around those horses.&amp;nbsp; My friend had brought her kids, husband and his daughter in order to meet up with us.&amp;nbsp; She hadn&#39;t seen me in a while and to be with me in my element was definitely a moment not to miss!&amp;nbsp; My honey and I kept smiling at each other as we had fun brushing and loving on the horses.&amp;nbsp; There were lots of other horses there and Romeo the Arabian was so happy to have all the attention on him while I was brushing Commando the Morgan Horse gelding.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  508. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg27tuNTgVDGakVFAXWQgxxcsZMPEQFi-5uWLRFDtnBEnuSKsmGLyhsfg89qhCZX4zW60PplTGhrUDAoJbwIgd3Qk8nzg_v09rduVih5C2wM7jETCDeMk_JNfKOElEqCX9AxIwPWBVhkz59/s1600/DSCN188420101111_121145.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg27tuNTgVDGakVFAXWQgxxcsZMPEQFi-5uWLRFDtnBEnuSKsmGLyhsfg89qhCZX4zW60PplTGhrUDAoJbwIgd3Qk8nzg_v09rduVih5C2wM7jETCDeMk_JNfKOElEqCX9AxIwPWBVhkz59/s320/DSCN188420101111_121145.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;When my honey and I first arrived; I had cut up 2 Golden Delicious Apples and emptied a bag of baby carrots to give to the horses as snacks!&amp;nbsp; I asked Ray if I could feed them some snacks and my honey said there was no way he could ever tell me &quot;no&quot;. I have to tell people all the time not to give Blue Belle any snacks because she is having a little bit of a weight problem.&amp;nbsp; Yes, she got a little chubbers problem!)&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s kind of made her little boobies bigger than mine? I&#39;m kinda jealous?&amp;nbsp; Why does my dog have to have better boobs than me? Anyway, those 2 horses loved every bit of those snacks as you can see here!)&amp;nbsp; They sure didn&#39;t last!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  509. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCRG9yhXARF_YfuBLCKrOAWgfjdPVGyf7Uhi87epvibt1CKP9guOkFME3mudngAMXnc9gzN892DJknOwdX8gogAx00VHlhYFMiIC5DCN-pRQ1u_Qg4_JARVRadLaNdWJQUfN88wsCLM3p8/s1600/DSCN191220101111_124755.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCRG9yhXARF_YfuBLCKrOAWgfjdPVGyf7Uhi87epvibt1CKP9guOkFME3mudngAMXnc9gzN892DJknOwdX8gogAx00VHlhYFMiIC5DCN-pRQ1u_Qg4_JARVRadLaNdWJQUfN88wsCLM3p8/s320/DSCN191220101111_124755.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhh28OGyK9ulJFz8tzM_RvcWVCkKWC4dk2p7IFux98joZeIPVEaLumT7idLn8vVIxgp19kdCiqhgrma0v0lMzg4Tn5WBt1jvDcQFgffR43Myhf_X2NJ4heP0eRX_h3G4DisN38JuXvm1dl3/s1600/DSCN193020101111_125410.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhh28OGyK9ulJFz8tzM_RvcWVCkKWC4dk2p7IFux98joZeIPVEaLumT7idLn8vVIxgp19kdCiqhgrma0v0lMzg4Tn5WBt1jvDcQFgffR43Myhf_X2NJ4heP0eRX_h3G4DisN38JuXvm1dl3/s320/DSCN193020101111_125410.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;After brushing Commando, we took both horses into the ring and my friend and her husband&#39;s daughter got to ride on Commando around in the ring as Ray rode along side them on Romeo.&amp;nbsp; He was there to make sure nothing scary happened.&amp;nbsp; The young girl was scared and her feet kept wrapping around the horse tightly that it caused him to want to run and of course Ray was there to stop him each time.&amp;nbsp; How I wished my honey would have ridden; it would have been very good for him.&amp;nbsp; Being on a big powerful animal like that helps something with building confidence and eliminating some depression.&amp;nbsp; Yes, these animals can actually cheer you up; they sure the hell did for me!&amp;nbsp; I loved every moment I got to spend with these wonderful animals!&amp;nbsp;&lt;br /&gt;
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  511. I&#39;m so thankful that I got to have horses in my lifetime and even though I didn&#39;t grow up and get my dream horse which would have been either a Golden Palomino&amp;nbsp; (just like the one Roy Rogers rode!) or a Dappled Gray &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Arabian-Legends-Outstanding-Stallions-Mares/dp/0911647481?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Arabian Mare&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0911647481&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; I ended up getting something even better; my soul mate!&amp;nbsp; He makes up for everything I have ever dreamed of having!)&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Thank you sweetie for another great day with you!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  512. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;As for my health and getting other things resolved; it almost seems that I&#39;m still outliving expectations?&amp;nbsp; My abdominal, kidney,&amp;nbsp; and back pains are getting more and more under control with the Methadone and of course utilizing my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Medicinal-Uses-Cannabis-Cannabinoids-Geoffrey/dp/0853695172?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;medicinal cannabis&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0853695172&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; It is causing me to eat and get munchies for all kinds of things?&amp;nbsp; I just have to puke everything out or make sure that I can? &amp;nbsp; Oh God how I wish I could eat and not have to throw it up!)&amp;nbsp; I guess I&#39;m just asking for too much in life to do that!&amp;nbsp; But at least I can get out and enjoy things!&amp;nbsp; Wow!&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m even having some bowel movements!)&amp;nbsp; That makes up for everything!) and I am getting more and more energy! &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  513. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;While I am still trying to eat, I am at a point where I can relate to being almost &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Anorexics-Bulimics-Fellowship-Recovery-Anorexia/dp/0973137215?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;bulimic&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0973137215&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; only I&#39;m not that much down with the vomiting everything out of my system.&amp;nbsp; The only difference is that I know I have a bony ass!&amp;nbsp; I can see what my body looks like and &quot;NO!&quot; I&#39;m no fat ass!)&amp;nbsp; I would love to gain some weight!&amp;nbsp; My intestines just didn&#39;t get fixed right after that last woozie of a surgery so I can&#39;t trust that anything will go through my intestines?. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s always that question? &amp;nbsp; I still can&#39;t walk for very long distances, but I sure can ride my bike! Even though I&#39;m going through what most would consider hell, I have soooooo, sooo much to be thankful for.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  514. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Peace and Love to all of you!&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  515. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg71XElloru1zWNbrRxxiLYjO4yS_5qCFw9uW3D46nwgX-x34t_KX4_trR6H3IAsb-eREGdzByYU3PPJKsno0ww_2fT3Gc5N8FdZj3vu5KmxrO683PT1WiVthQTQWyFc55puoK2XRFZ22hK/s1600/PUFF.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;227&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg71XElloru1zWNbrRxxiLYjO4yS_5qCFw9uW3D46nwgX-x34t_KX4_trR6H3IAsb-eREGdzByYU3PPJKsno0ww_2fT3Gc5N8FdZj3vu5KmxrO683PT1WiVthQTQWyFc55puoK2XRFZ22hK/s320/PUFF.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Now for another horse who needs a great happy ending!&amp;nbsp; Her name is Puff.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; She is a draft cross mare who stands at 16+ hands. She is trained to lead but she isn&#39;t very easy to halter up.&amp;nbsp; She&#39;s just got a mind of her own.&amp;nbsp; Isn&#39;t she just gorgeous?&amp;nbsp; She has been used as a brood mare; although she is not currently bred to foal.&amp;nbsp; We think she might be deaf which makes her a bit of project.&amp;nbsp; Her Adoption fee is only $800.&amp;nbsp; The Adopter must pick her up at the Animali Farm in Santa Maria or arrange for transportation.&lt;br /&gt;
  516. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;If you are interested in Miss Puff; you may contact Jennifer Johns or Cheryl Forbes at the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.theanimalifarm.com/&quot;&gt;Animali Farm&lt;/a&gt;. (805) 938- 0174.&amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;mailto:animali@aol.com&quot;&gt;animali@aol.com&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  534. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;This week my honey and I are going to be looking at &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Rest-Peace-Cultural-History-Twentieth-Century/dp/019518355X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;funeral homes&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=019518355X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Mortuary-Confidential-Undertakers-Spill-Dirt/dp/0806531797?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;mortuaries&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0806531797&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, and /or places to hold a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Planning-Celebration-Turning-Memorial-Service/dp/1424325072?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Memorial Service&lt;/a&gt;.&amp;nbsp; We were both initially very confused about&amp;nbsp; all the paperwork and thinking that I needed to sign some of the forms&amp;nbsp; and being in horrible, horrible trouble if we had not had the signed the paperwork while I was still alive?&amp;nbsp; Well we printed everything out because in all honestly we were both a bit stressed out like crazy about it all.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  535. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEir8FO2m6G5baubOGr_SyvtKngym1NBDUVU4OpvlhY_fFPCF3A25sJBj5jOnooP6-bPWIOiXlQcUI1rPUJa_HvYXQQiEo1hbwgPle7gLjO8cR3p2CLJeJrzq9NzJrVee_7uuc-LqCdoKg2L/s1600/jimmy+and+Jayne1.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEir8FO2m6G5baubOGr_SyvtKngym1NBDUVU4OpvlhY_fFPCF3A25sJBj5jOnooP6-bPWIOiXlQcUI1rPUJa_HvYXQQiEo1hbwgPle7gLjO8cR3p2CLJeJrzq9NzJrVee_7uuc-LqCdoKg2L/s320/jimmy+and+Jayne1.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;I&#39;m glad that we were able to&amp;nbsp; speak with our &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Call-Social-Work-Life-Stories/dp/0761985689?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Social Worker&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0761985689&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; yesterday and thankfully we didn&#39;t have to worry as much as we had been.&amp;nbsp; It doesn&#39;t matter when those boring forms get signed and I certainly don&#39;t have to worry about signing&amp;nbsp; any of them either. All those forms are very confusing for anyone to have to fill out. I can see how scary those forms are for the survivor. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  536. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;As for services we are trying to figure out what we plan to do; whether it be a party to celebrate my life or just a service for those who choose to show up; many can just come on up tell their own stories about me or sit and watch the slide shows for which I&#39;m preparing for the service.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; My slide shows contain tons of photos of me with all my favorite music.&amp;nbsp; Oh all the wonderful memories my honey have made together!) What ever happens, happens and I&#39;m OK with it.&amp;nbsp; I just hope that no one ever forgets who I am.&lt;br /&gt;
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  538. I even started working on my own &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/This-My-Will-Obiographical-Obituaries/dp/098016477X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Obituary&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=098016477X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;?&amp;nbsp; Yeah, the internet is very cool like that and there are bunches&amp;nbsp; and bunches of templates one can use to write a very good &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/How-Write-Obituary-Step-Step/dp/098139003X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Obituary&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=098139003X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; Oh and there is an awesome band that I saw maybe 20 years ago called &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Darkest-Day-Obituary/dp/B001YTONHM?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Obituary&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001YTONHM&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;!)&amp;nbsp; Wow they rock! &amp;nbsp; My honey just wants all this difficult stuff done so that he doesn&#39;t have to worry about having to do all that when the time comes; I plan to help him get it all done; what every it takes.&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; It sucks that sometimes my pains end up scaring him; especially when I&#39;m having those add insult to injury &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Technology-2000-h100m-Hemorr-ice-Hemorrhoids/dp/B000V90LOA?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;butt hole spasms&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000V90LOA&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; Why the hell do I have to suffer with those?&amp;nbsp; That&#39;s pretty strange, huh?&lt;br /&gt;
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  540. &lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg15v4__0PyrYOUrP1kaZR8LHLxu6esgsNG0vs1OQJtE0st-9XyOxz1rba8G1qY1T7Mx2zpIqzxb4fUZhMmSEciijZCixaVf1sMdZhZi0962ZqB2J-cQVx53_9Wt70v9exsdv5lEo1t93In/s1600/12-03-02%252B054.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg15v4__0PyrYOUrP1kaZR8LHLxu6esgsNG0vs1OQJtE0st-9XyOxz1rba8G1qY1T7Mx2zpIqzxb4fUZhMmSEciijZCixaVf1sMdZhZi0962ZqB2J-cQVx53_9Wt70v9exsdv5lEo1t93In/s320/12-03-02%252B054.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  541. We are even trying to &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Cremation-Engraved-Manufactured-Finish-Keepsake/dp/B000LMIUB8?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;pick out Urns&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000LMIUB8&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t believe how many beautiful Urns there are out there and all the ones that I end up liking end up costing over a grand?&amp;nbsp; Why do I have such exquisite tastes?&amp;nbsp; Not fair!&amp;nbsp; If it makes him happy to get all of this shit out of the way; I&#39;m all for it.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s going to be very hard on him and I can&#39;t even imagine how hard its going to be. &amp;nbsp; He deserves the very best and I&#39;m going to help him no matter how hard it gets. &amp;nbsp; I just can&#39;t imagine the thought of loosing him so I imagine he&#39;s going through his own personal hell.&amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Cancer-50-Essential-Things-Third/dp/0452290104?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Cancer is so evil&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0452290104&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and I hope one day there will be a cure so that no as one young as myself or younger or even older has to deal with such grim realities.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m&amp;nbsp; really sad for him and it makes me cry to even think about how hard it&#39;s going to be for him to have to continue on with out me? How can a love story like ours end like that?&amp;nbsp; We are supposed to be together forever, right?&amp;nbsp; Why does this shit have to happen to us?&amp;nbsp; We are both good people right?&amp;nbsp; It would be cool if we could, but unlucky for me having the most deadliest form of &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Gynecologic-Tumor-Board-Management-Reproductive/dp/0763743127?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;female cancer&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0763743127&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; there is; makes me quite unlucky like that. I love my sweet pumpkin boy!)&amp;nbsp; He is so amazing and wonderful!&lt;br /&gt;
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  543. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh64xnvMCs-CDksl7hNsx-HCN5CtYshEZsC-dmzKEfFlOZXgc4rx4bYG-5BlmQ-zPaeFfCw98caSPlk7qBPyBy-euA_KS8Cau6hucQ0Y8s96RH2wd25D7TdC8xJGtnrNfj5rz2qGVQU5WgC/s1600/Jim%2526JayneStanleyCup.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh64xnvMCs-CDksl7hNsx-HCN5CtYshEZsC-dmzKEfFlOZXgc4rx4bYG-5BlmQ-zPaeFfCw98caSPlk7qBPyBy-euA_KS8Cau6hucQ0Y8s96RH2wd25D7TdC8xJGtnrNfj5rz2qGVQU5WgC/s320/Jim%2526JayneStanleyCup.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;I know these are all old photos of us and we have been through so many years of fun and so many years of sheer terror from this disease.&amp;nbsp; There have been countless times of not knowing that I was going to make it.&amp;nbsp; I almost feel like &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Hunger-Like-Other-Immortals-After/dp/1416509879?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;an immortal&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1416509879&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, a walking medical experiment; but I&#39;m still alive and I&#39;m going to &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/How-Keep-Living-Book-Cassette/dp/0916823008?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;keep on living&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0916823008&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; despite the fact that we went through all that crap of researching all this death crap. &amp;nbsp; It&#39;s going to happen to all of us eventually and to have a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Mortuary-Confidential-Undertakers-Spill-Dirt/dp/0806531797?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;mortuary&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0806531797&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; already picked out is pretty important.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m happy that we have a checklist of things to complete and I also feel confident&amp;nbsp; that everything will go smoothly with my honey should the inevitable happen.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
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  545. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjMyjvfGG8qntMoAf_xn_D4kF1H2wBF9hD9O2Xy2hKKTMajBoPp0C3RuhxtBIzr3R7t_scqSL8AcaNMvp7NpJ_EkUlaX8Mn9nM0M6j-kRizvEmfBxHyRd_uG47bwMbO5RMq8ASUXmmHkNsH/s1600/120-2088_IMG.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjMyjvfGG8qntMoAf_xn_D4kF1H2wBF9hD9O2Xy2hKKTMajBoPp0C3RuhxtBIzr3R7t_scqSL8AcaNMvp7NpJ_EkUlaX8Mn9nM0M6j-kRizvEmfBxHyRd_uG47bwMbO5RMq8ASUXmmHkNsH/s320/120-2088_IMG.JPG&quot; width=&quot;313&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;Check out those lockets!&amp;nbsp; My hair was so freaking curly when it came back in!)&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m doing OK for now and the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Hospice-Palliative-Care-Essential-Guide/dp/0415993563?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Hospice care&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0415993563&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; is helping me quite a bit with the pain and the suffering.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I think my quality of life is much better than expected!)&amp;nbsp; (the pot has been giving me the major, major munchies and of course I get so incredibly thirsty!)&amp;nbsp; I still have that will to live and it&#39;s strong.&amp;nbsp; I wish so bad that I could actually eat a real home cooked meal.&amp;nbsp; At this point I think most people are so lucky and they don&#39;t even see it.&amp;nbsp; My honey is allowing me to eat what ever my heart&#39;s content and after wards its always the same thing; lots of violent puking.&amp;nbsp; Then I end up using my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Storz-Bickel-VOLCANO-Vaporizer-CLASSIC/dp/B003H37DCK?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;vaporizer&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003H37DCK&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; which has been the very best treatment for the nausea of anything I have including the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.drugs.com/cons/zofran-odt.html&quot;&gt;Zofran ODT&lt;/a&gt; which I take about 3 times a day and just letting it sit on my tongue until it dissolves.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; So I&#39;m a forced Bolimic.&amp;nbsp; NO I don&#39;t think I&#39;m fat; I think I&#39;m too damned skinny!&amp;nbsp; I need some real meat on my bones.&amp;nbsp; Why is it that we can liposuction and we can&#39;t have lypersuckion? &amp;nbsp; But I do eat and pig out as much as I can which really isn&#39;t a lot of food but I end up puking or sucking it all out with R2 (my Gomco constant and intermittent stomach pump).&amp;nbsp; The &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Storz-Bickel-VOLCANO-Vaporizer-CLASSIC/dp/B003H39GIY?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Vaporizer&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003H39GIY&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; works excellently on the severe heartburn I get from eating the most starchiest of food including french fries and fried chicken!)&amp;nbsp; I did get up to 106lbs by pigging out but I had to eventually get it all out before it messed up my seriously bad.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br /&gt;
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  547. I wish all of you Lots of Peace and Love!&amp;nbsp; Hope you enjoy this collage of photos that I took of Tonto enjoying his Captain&#39;s Chair!)&amp;nbsp; Actually I will have to try again later to upload this impossible video for YouTube.&amp;nbsp; They are having much trouble with this video? Hopefully later it will be uploaded soon!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  560. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Yes, I have one of those strange Dog Cats that loves his outdoor walks, sometimes he&amp;nbsp; even fetches his favorite toys and will even play bad mitten with you (only if he feels like it).&amp;nbsp; He is always up for a walk outside but the trick is; he will only walk around around Town House Complex.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; If I do try to walk him outside on the street he will do what others cats typically do and just lay down and give me dirty looks.&amp;nbsp; He is not a street walking cat but instead a Town House Cat.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  565. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;When I first got Tonto he was exactly 180 degrees different from what he is now.&amp;nbsp; He was mean, scared of humans, and totally farrow. &amp;nbsp; I imagine he was abused because we couldn&#39;t get close to him at all; he even bit me several times and also bit my husband.&amp;nbsp; It totally pissed both of us off that we couldn&#39;t get this kitty gentle.&amp;nbsp; We were so ready to get rid of him because he seemed dangerous and totally anti social.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  566. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;We had Old Toonces and just wanted to get a kitty that he wouldn&#39;t be so jealous of.&amp;nbsp; He needed a buddy and for Toonces is was a buddy that he could boss around. &amp;nbsp; Toonce didn&#39;t have a tail and we figured if we got a kitty that had a tail he wouldn&#39;t get the idea of tearing up the tail. &amp;nbsp; Toonce was the total Alfa cat despite having had a sex change.&amp;nbsp; Well he got Crystalitis? not sure how to say or pronounce it but in essence they had to cut his penis off (it was completely blocked with urine crystals) and they even made him a pussy?&amp;nbsp; He could be pretty rough with a kitten which is why we chose an older kitten that may be able to hold his own.&amp;nbsp; Tonto was only 5 months old when we got him.&amp;nbsp; Toonce loved that Tonto didn&#39;t have a tail.&amp;nbsp; He had never seen another cat like himself.&amp;nbsp; It was cool!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  568. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhztXEbLplceBzhBS6rD3aiL2lsB3Vu9QorpezvJkcI3EDSy7MOQhEzCuL8V8CtnQou1Ger0sPFB8ohrvpbMrsiEb_jUMxl4lr2y7VeXaJ1X2yWxhhWytJZlxHYZv70vj5GExKRrgZah5IU/s1600/IMG_0276.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhztXEbLplceBzhBS6rD3aiL2lsB3Vu9QorpezvJkcI3EDSy7MOQhEzCuL8V8CtnQou1Ger0sPFB8ohrvpbMrsiEb_jUMxl4lr2y7VeXaJ1X2yWxhhWytJZlxHYZv70vj5GExKRrgZah5IU/s320/IMG_0276.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Check out my curly post chemo locks!)&amp;nbsp; This is a photo of Tonto after I had him close to tame. I can&#39;t believe how tiny he used to be!&amp;nbsp; What I did to gentle him was to keep him in his crate at first and locked him in the bathroom where I could spend some quality time with him.&amp;nbsp; After a few weeks he got more and more gentle.&amp;nbsp; We let him out before the 2 week span and OMG was he wild and crazy.&amp;nbsp; We no idea that we would have him become the cat that he is today.&amp;nbsp; He seemed set in his little ways that humans were all evil.&amp;nbsp; He finally did come around.&amp;nbsp; My mom had always told me that I have a way with animals and my honey believes that to be true as well. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  569. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiz6yz1mKmhwlw6zdAetgAtMSmKhBA6SKUhTN7xZxWtYHKteYF2bCkRaViSfYax4LMnAmW1nf0JU9nU4JdN24ttu1oXCtP0YqYU4O8-JFD-HrAD9hMdWEd0YuteQSVu6I_Zdlt0T9IwX9BF/s1600/IMG_0277.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiz6yz1mKmhwlw6zdAetgAtMSmKhBA6SKUhTN7xZxWtYHKteYF2bCkRaViSfYax4LMnAmW1nf0JU9nU4JdN24ttu1oXCtP0YqYU4O8-JFD-HrAD9hMdWEd0YuteQSVu6I_Zdlt0T9IwX9BF/s320/IMG_0277.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;It was such a slow process getting Tonto gentle and loving us.&amp;nbsp; He got to the  point that he would follow me into the bathroom just to spend some time  with me. &amp;nbsp; To this day he still does that?&amp;nbsp; It took him 2 weeks to fall in love with me and a total of 6  months before he trusted my honey.&amp;nbsp; What actually changed him was when a  friend brought over her little 2 year old son.&amp;nbsp; The little boy had a  feather in which he played with Tonto.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Tonto totally surprised me the even came out from under the bed upstairs.&amp;nbsp; He was sitting under a table in the living room when the toddler was playing with him.&amp;nbsp; We had only had him maybe a  month when this happened but it was such a beautiful moment.&amp;nbsp; Tonto used  to be this zip in the room.&amp;nbsp; He would run past us and you couldn&#39;t even  make it out that this was a cat zipping by.&amp;nbsp; He was stealth fast and total blur when he zipped by.&amp;nbsp; It was like zip here and zip there and &quot;what the hell was that?&quot;.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  570. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhtaNpjdjbqUTyfk4Uc9ADlRfQB8veeWxdA2u3L_h_-RePO-_WcD1K08oUxT-26cAKOwHOYqwwKms5PMwOxeRuYmccpjWt9ymA-8z3KdZW3c42StyehW_fbnBP1nJtcxE7_vNTU7OgHYw-Q/s1600/IMG_1104.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhtaNpjdjbqUTyfk4Uc9ADlRfQB8veeWxdA2u3L_h_-RePO-_WcD1K08oUxT-26cAKOwHOYqwwKms5PMwOxeRuYmccpjWt9ymA-8z3KdZW3c42StyehW_fbnBP1nJtcxE7_vNTU7OgHYw-Q/s320/IMG_1104.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;Even as a baby; he loved sleeping on his back in so many different areas  of the house!&amp;nbsp; You just never know!) I did everything I could to get  this little manx gentle.&amp;nbsp; He finally&amp;nbsp; started to come out of his shell  and he become this playful little kitten who loved to carry his favorite  toys around with him.&amp;nbsp; He would fetch his favorite toys for what seemed  like hours and it was pretty fun watching him grown up.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  571. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I guess around 9 months or so when he was super duper gentle finally; 180  degrees totally different cat; I decided it would be time to teach him  to walk on a leash.&amp;nbsp; I had done this with Toonce when he was young and he did walk on the leash pretty good for a couple of years until he got to be so fat and lazy. &amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Manx-Cats-Tamara-L-Britton/dp/1616133996?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Manx&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1616133996&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; are one of the easiest breeds to train as they  are very dog like.&amp;nbsp; They follow you around, they fetch, come when  called,&amp;nbsp; loves to ride in the car and go shopping and of course&amp;nbsp; and then walking  on a leash. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  573. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;This little kitty had some giganto webbed feet and another characteristic about Manx are that they are drawn to water like a duck. &amp;nbsp; As a baby he was practically all legs and very clumsy looking.&amp;nbsp; He didn&#39;t mind getting baths at all in fact he would smack at the bubbles and purr as I &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Magic-Coat-Tearless-Shampoo-12-Ounce/dp/B0002563S6?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;shampooed&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0002563S6&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; him.&amp;nbsp; So he was very easy to bath and not like most cats.&amp;nbsp; He loved the water and still does!&amp;nbsp; Now he just talks to me as he is getting bathed.&amp;nbsp; Anyway here is a video of my next door neighbor&#39;s daughter bathing Blue Belle and Tonto at the same time!)&lt;br /&gt;
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  579. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYKAXcmYvxX_bJ1_TM18wqEkYJonMjp2JYEKL9bugrcxtZGA0Y-bjAXHiho5GzPXICyjHBoaFtmD9VnJrjA-4YHHrPTXqT4c0QtY71OIMLdGy1lTDyIU-dX_IFPzFIARG4fpsdq0hHQgqK/s1600/IMG_1133.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYKAXcmYvxX_bJ1_TM18wqEkYJonMjp2JYEKL9bugrcxtZGA0Y-bjAXHiho5GzPXICyjHBoaFtmD9VnJrjA-4YHHrPTXqT4c0QtY71OIMLdGy1lTDyIU-dX_IFPzFIARG4fpsdq0hHQgqK/s320/IMG_1133.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;Anyway how did I teach this cat to walk on a leash? Both of my cats  always wore a collar for ID purposes.&amp;nbsp; I decided to click a small leash  on his collar to get him used to the leash.&amp;nbsp; Since he did follow me  around the house; it&amp;nbsp; seemed it would be easy to teach him.&amp;nbsp; At first he thought  the leash was this fun string toy and he would loose himself playing  vigorously with that leash!&amp;nbsp; I thought he might accidentally choke  himself so I had to watch him carefully when he started his crazy play games. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Well I got some kitty treats and I grabbed the leash for the  very first time.&amp;nbsp; I called his name and had a treat ready for him.&amp;nbsp; He  obliged and walked up to me as I tugged the leash gently to the side.&amp;nbsp; I  told him what a good boy he was and gave him the treat. &amp;nbsp; That meant so  much to him as I told him what a good boy he was&amp;nbsp; and praising him.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  580. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2QRDjq1ih0dGE0Y7Hlrclzng32Zfnh_8pGkVFKraosSGZKJdD2SrO1dEsfTTYqkfIbYPsaedPrYStvt87qUFPRH5IFxubpesrN5ZTDPja1TwweeSIx90NVTwEhRCraih7fwZfe-lJLmTp/s1600/DSCN161820101021_205710.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2QRDjq1ih0dGE0Y7Hlrclzng32Zfnh_8pGkVFKraosSGZKJdD2SrO1dEsfTTYqkfIbYPsaedPrYStvt87qUFPRH5IFxubpesrN5ZTDPja1TwweeSIx90NVTwEhRCraih7fwZfe-lJLmTp/s320/DSCN161820101021_205710.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;Now I realized that teaching him to walk on the leash would involve  gentle tugs to the side and not full on pulling him forward and of course some sweet encouragement.&amp;nbsp; He loves to be talked to and sometimes he talks right back. &amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Careers-Your-Cat-Ann-Dziemianowicz/dp/158008124X?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Cats &lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=158008124X&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; don&#39;t work that way if you tug them forward; I think it freaks them out!&amp;nbsp; You never tug a cat forward (at least I have never  heard of cat that did?)&lt;br /&gt;
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  582. He was finally getting the hang of walking  around with me as I guided him around the house with the leash; most of  the time I just followed him as he explored with his leash on.&amp;nbsp; He  became quite used to it.&amp;nbsp; I finally decided it was time to take him  outside with the leash. We walked outside as he became quite excited to see the great outdoors.&amp;nbsp;  He had to stop and smell all the flowers.&amp;nbsp; He liked walking on the side walk and it seemed he caught on to what  the leash was all about and he seemed OK with it. &amp;nbsp; I think we must have  hit a few snags as we continued our walk around the complex and each  time a little &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Greenies-Pill-Pockets-Chicken-ounce/dp/B001FSJCPK?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Greenie&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001FSJCPK&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and some encouragement did the trick each time.&amp;nbsp; He followed for a little while and then  decided he wanted to lead the way and from then on it was all about his  great walks outdoors. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  583. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;His big brother Toonces is now waiting for  me at the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Legend-Rainbow-Bridge-William-Britton/dp/0976472449?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Rainbow Bridge&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0976472449&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; used to walk good on the leash but he lost  interest once we moved into our dream home.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; While Toonces was still  alive; he kept Tonto quiet most of the time because Tonto is known  around here as the loudest cat on Earth!&amp;nbsp; He usually has so much to say  but Old Toonce would not put up with Tonto&#39;s constant chattering and  would often get on his back and dominate him much like dogs do to one  another.&amp;nbsp; It was the strangest thing to see but it worked for those  couple of years that Toonces was around.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg7uYqxxKfuuYGA7kWE-Q1r-RVZD8c01K9WmLcDMqGnAmrmVaLmeFBkdN2Qx76gul5FKDrSZJSGYPoGKSJ0GWd7bOTtQ9tP_BA6jvxud5bFyFRmYTSDKXFIIMs10MIKmuk6mJuVKtatsbP1/s1600/IMG_0105%5B1%5D.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt; &lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  584. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  585. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZnYV1_6-xl6ydMC7TTEK9xc21d32YgjhcUGTodXZ9MqbphUFpDGOXPwzkoHVjzqGbdo-W_IEqscKIV-nzNS22685MnL3BWuqcVVdvcgzY2T1hwKPRsLecCDMb93IJbB2F87dk-ezYJm8M/s1600/IMG_0028.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZnYV1_6-xl6ydMC7TTEK9xc21d32YgjhcUGTodXZ9MqbphUFpDGOXPwzkoHVjzqGbdo-W_IEqscKIV-nzNS22685MnL3BWuqcVVdvcgzY2T1hwKPRsLecCDMb93IJbB2F87dk-ezYJm8M/s320/IMG_0028.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;When Blue Belle arrived, both cats displayed lots of curiosity of her.&amp;nbsp; Toonces actually fell in love with her because she was so sweet to him&amp;nbsp; and she did everything she could to not get a beat down from him but none of them would ever sleep together like I&#39;ve seen other cats and dogs do. &amp;nbsp; Blue Belle just hasn&#39;t been too crazy about Tonto because she knows he can be very dishonest and a bad, bad, bad boy for jumping up on counters and finishing up dishes&amp;nbsp; and it pisses her off that she can&#39;t dare reach to take over.&amp;nbsp; She knows that we don&#39;t want him on counters and he knows this too.&amp;nbsp; Sometimes she will bark and he knows that after she barks that he better get is ass of the counter before we catch him.&amp;nbsp; Sneaky little boy he is!&amp;nbsp; He just plays the sneaky game all the way.&amp;nbsp; When Toonces was around he was a better boy and&amp;nbsp; much more behaved.&amp;nbsp; Toonce would body slam him if he dared to be a bad boy.&amp;nbsp; So after we lost Toonce there was a significant change of attitude being the only cat. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  586. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Another thing Tonto does with his big feet (if we don&#39;t lock the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/PetSafe-Large-Freedom-Aluminum-Premium/dp/B000TZ8SC8?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;doggie door&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000TZ8SC8&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; after a rain, he likes to play in the puddles and then he brings in on my beautiful floor, big wet kitty prints and lots&amp;nbsp; of soggy leaves.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s a nightmare to clean but just one the little quirks this big boy has!)&amp;nbsp; He has the best sense of humor!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  587. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Tonto grieved for Toonces for at least 6 months and Blue Belle didn&#39;t seem to miss him at all.&amp;nbsp; She took on the roll of Alfa girl almost immediately.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; She doesn&#39;t put up with Tonto&#39;s crap at all.&amp;nbsp; She does get jealous of him often but the two of them put up with each other pretty good.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Tonto gives her hugs and to her those are very annoying and she is always trying to lick his ass which drives him absolutely insane.&amp;nbsp; He hates that with a passion! &amp;nbsp; He makes the hideous sounds when she does that as if she bit a piece of his off.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Yes the two of them are great therapy for me and they make such a big difference in my quality of life.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  588. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Hope you all enjoyed this post as much as I did in writing it!&amp;nbsp; Peace and Love to all of you!)&lt;br /&gt;
  589. &lt;br /&gt;
  590. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_xwpPkUp1ogX5iDiFVplP1BiNnEQR1Zi-QVpZxyX8URyeFdybovigPT0pvbokQWq-s8_Znlzx3hazBVrTvjzeXfMgjpoRUsD5jzBLMN-QZoILD8t-6TwYg9aug9yfE2xXs_AJwuoAB_hv/s1600/IMAG005.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;273&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_xwpPkUp1ogX5iDiFVplP1BiNnEQR1Zi-QVpZxyX8URyeFdybovigPT0pvbokQWq-s8_Znlzx3hazBVrTvjzeXfMgjpoRUsD5jzBLMN-QZoILD8t-6TwYg9aug9yfE2xXs_AJwuoAB_hv/s320/IMAG005.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;Well here is another gorgeous horse who needs a home or some hay; what ever we can do for him.&amp;nbsp; I love Appaloosas so I have this special place in heart for them.&amp;nbsp; When I was little we got this Gray Appaloosa and I couldn&#39;t say &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Legendary-Appaloosa-Cheryl-Dudley/dp/1599210487?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Grey Appaloosa&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1599210487&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot; so Graple is what came out and what a great name!) Anyway this one has blanket of spots and he is quite young; only a year old. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; He was born July 17th, 2009.&amp;nbsp; He is 1/2 Thoroughbred, with a mix of Percheron, Shire, Appaloosa, and Paint.&amp;nbsp; He was actually born on the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.theanimalifarm.com/&quot;&gt;Animali Farm&lt;/a&gt;.&amp;nbsp; He is very friendly and amazingly beautiful.&amp;nbsp; His adoption fee with help other foals who were not a fortunate as he.&amp;nbsp; He did go to &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.montyroberts.com/ab_about_monty/acad_intro/&quot;&gt;Monty Roberts Academy&lt;/a&gt; and he is halterbroke, you can pick up his feet and he will go into a trailer with out any problems.&amp;nbsp; His Adoption fee is $1800 and he will be a big boy once is all grown up!)&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Oh and his name is Big Mac!)&amp;nbsp; If you are interested you may contact Jennifer Johns or Cheryl Forbes at &lt;a href=&quot;mailto:Animali@aol.com&quot;&gt;Animali@aol.com&lt;/a&gt; or (805) 938-0174&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  595. &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.webmd.com/pain-management/news/20101101/end-of-life-pain-common?src=RSS_PUBLIC&quot;&gt;http://www.webmd.com/pain-management/news/20101101/end-of-life-pain-common?src=RSS_PUBLIC&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  596. &lt;br /&gt;
  597. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I got my pain pump refilled on Tuesday&amp;nbsp; (on election day and the day after the &lt;a href=&quot;http://sanfrancisco.giants.mlb.com/index.jsp?c_id=sf&quot;&gt;San Francisco Giants win the World Series&lt;/a&gt;!)&amp;nbsp; I never thought I would live to see the day when my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Lincecum-Majestic-Number-Francisco-T-Shirt/dp/B0042CAS6S?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;San Francisco Giants&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0042CAS6S&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; would win the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Official-World-Film-Collection/dp/B002AS45SS?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;World Series&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002AS45SS&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;, now I just wish to see my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Reebok-Sharks-Street-Lingo-T-Shirt/dp/B00485T2BQ?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Sharks&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B00485T2BQ&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; win the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Chicago-Blackhawks-Stanley-Champions-Replica/dp/B003P8XUWO?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Stanley Cup&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003P8XUWO&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;.&amp;nbsp; If I&#39;m gone before then maybe they can do so in my memory?&amp;nbsp; That would be freaking awesome!&amp;nbsp; We will see!)&lt;br /&gt;
  598. &lt;br /&gt;
  599. I also enjoyed watching the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2010/11/01/MNQ41G5FTO.DTL&quot;&gt;parade yesterday&lt;/a&gt;!&amp;nbsp; It was so amazing and would have been cool to go to but I know I would have been in hell in a crowd like that!&amp;nbsp; Wow!&amp;nbsp; I couldn&#39;t believe how many people were at this parade!&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m so proud of the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Francisco-Giants-Womens-Replica-Jersey/dp/B0042C7F6Y?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Giants&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0042C7F6Y&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;! &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  600. &lt;br /&gt;
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  602. Well back to my pain pump.&amp;nbsp; I have this drug already in my pain pumped;&amp;nbsp; Bivucane? well the danger that I face with this drug is that tiny crystals can form and cause blockages inside the wires that are hooked to my spine (I am totally not getting the terminology correct but hopefully I&#39;m getting the idea correct!)&amp;nbsp; Anyway we are changing the concoction of drugs that are inside my pain pump. I was told it should take a couple of days for me to be able to tell a difference in the pain control?&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  603. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Pain is just something I am having to live with each day; it seems its always something whether it be my heartburn, my insides not feeling all together sewn, or my ass?&amp;nbsp; Something is always hurting inside me? At least I have many options to choose from for my pain including &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Emperor-Wears-Clothes-Authoritative-Historical/dp/1878125028?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Cannabis&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1878125028&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; the most feared plant in all the world.&amp;nbsp; In some countries I would be executed for trying to relieve my pain and in some states I might even be put in jail but thankfully in CA; at least for now it is legal.&lt;br /&gt;
  604. &lt;br /&gt;
  605. &lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhJIWoC__DGTg_xXUKgUpunfzKHCRaAgXqUWdCIOhdFlNNyCVnsDCc42pPEKceowPbVX4rSdaDXaWquw-dDJWy8iV9WR51zvQGoOyYd0AEbE_OuCMnaNHxUxwL95HHFvdWt_0oF5lBj-0gS/s1600/DSCN176120101103_130002.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhJIWoC__DGTg_xXUKgUpunfzKHCRaAgXqUWdCIOhdFlNNyCVnsDCc42pPEKceowPbVX4rSdaDXaWquw-dDJWy8iV9WR51zvQGoOyYd0AEbE_OuCMnaNHxUxwL95HHFvdWt_0oF5lBj-0gS/s320/DSCN176120101103_130002.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&amp;nbsp; At least I&#39;m on Hospice now and not later; I could&amp;nbsp; actually die any day now and its weird feeling OK about not being around for the next election.&amp;nbsp; (I don&#39;t think I could handle the stress of having a really out of touch and not so intelligent president like Sara Palin = no way, no how!)&amp;nbsp; That would be too stressful for me to even consider handling?&amp;nbsp; It was bad enough when we had that chimpanzee.&lt;br /&gt;
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  607. I also don&#39;t think I want any part of the government controlling everything about me including what I choose to use for pain control.&amp;nbsp; The people that make these kinds of decisions for others have never walked a day in my shoes and they certainly do not know what is best for me or even what really works for me.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I have faught for eight long years for what should have been only 2 years.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m alive still because of cannabis and I could be alive many more years?&amp;nbsp; Maybe that&#39;s a problem?&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Perhaps this is why the government is not up to speed on what cannabis can do for patients including giving them more time&amp;nbsp; to be with their families; is this not right?&amp;nbsp; Do we actually have &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.goodnewsaboutgod.com/studies/political/population_control/population_control.htm&quot;&gt;population control&lt;/a&gt;?&amp;nbsp; I often wonder why we haven&#39;t been studying &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.cannabisculture.com/articles/5169.html&quot;&gt;curing cancer with cannabis&lt;/a&gt;?&amp;nbsp; Many have been cured this way and I would love to be cured of cancer!&amp;nbsp; I would love to live longer but I&#39;m feeling more and more OK with dying as I see how Greedy America is starting to appear?&amp;nbsp; How can people be so cold and uncaring for others who really are sick?&lt;br /&gt;
  608. &lt;br /&gt;
  609. I have never felt like I was danger to others or myself after smoking a joint or using my vaporizer?&amp;nbsp; There isn&#39;t an oz. of meanness in me at all; I just want to know why the government and those politicians continue to lie and tell me that&#39;s its a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.drugwarfacts.org/cms/Gateway_Theory&quot;&gt;gateway drug&lt;/a&gt; when 91% of addicts consider cigarettes their gateway drug?&amp;nbsp; OK enough of me probably not making any sense of this election.&amp;nbsp; I will never understand why people have a problem with investing in our future or our country when they didn&#39;t bat an eye when our last president and VP wasted billions and billions of our tax dollars away on fighting a country that never attacked us, and of course &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.halliburtonwatch.org/&quot;&gt;Halliburten&lt;/a&gt; which blew up good equipment and vehicles during this war just to make more money ripping us off and selling the military more vehicles and equipment at inflated prices?&amp;nbsp; Did anyone know that we are&amp;nbsp; now out of Iraq?&amp;nbsp; He did keep his promise and he got us out of there!)&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m freaking happy about that?)&lt;br /&gt;
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  611. There was so much corruption during that last Presidency and all this current president is trying to do is fix our country and economy; believe it or not it does take lots of money to fix and he should be able to just that? Right?&amp;nbsp; He&#39;s not trying to break it like the last one.&amp;nbsp; Did everyone just forget what had happened?&amp;nbsp; I sure didn&#39;t.&amp;nbsp; I have &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Your-Brain-After-Chemo-Practical/dp/0738213918?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;chemo brain&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0738213918&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; but it sure the hell isn&#39;t that bad!&amp;nbsp; Why can&#39;t we have health care and education for our future?&amp;nbsp; Health care should a right and not a privilege. &lt;br /&gt;
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  613. I do have some things to be happy about in this election; prop. 23 didn&#39;t pass and the lesser of two evils for governor won and then we are sending Boxer back but it would be better if we had more representation of who we really voted for; I voted &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Independent-Politics-Green-Strategy-Debate/dp/1931859302?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Green Party&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1931859302&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; for most.&amp;nbsp; I don&#39;t trust either of these parties because they have sold their souls as far as I&#39;m concerned.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; They seem to be so out of touch that it&#39;s ridiculous. &amp;nbsp; Many on the far right (&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/How-Fight-Conservative-Daniel-Kurtzman/dp/1402208804?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Conservatives&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1402208804&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;) don&#39;t wish for us to have a middle class because they feel its bad for our economy; it should only be extremely poor or super duper rich? Now those 1% wealthy CAN afford to pay their share of taxes just like my husband and I.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; What they end up doing with that money is spending it overseas and not investing in our country.&amp;nbsp; We need that money so that we can fix our country so that it can be as wonderful as it once was.&amp;nbsp; What are we supposed to do? Sit around and wait for it to be fixed or use intelligence and common sense to fix it? OK enough with my venting.&amp;nbsp; I still have plenty to be thankful for; including still being alive.&amp;nbsp; I just can&#39;t help but be puzzled as to why we can&#39;t fix our country right now? &lt;br /&gt;
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  615. Now the update on me.&amp;nbsp; I still have not lost my appetite just yet and we just decreased my TPN input to 10 hours (1250ml); I have no idea how many calories I will get for the full day; I just hope its enough and that I don&#39;t loose any more weight.&amp;nbsp; I am up 105lbs.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m doing a really strange thing of trying to eat.&amp;nbsp; I do realize I may not have much time left here so I&#39;m pigging out on food that I love, then I puke it up or suck it up with my R2 and I&#39;m drinking gallons and gallons of water.&amp;nbsp; I just get so thirsty that I just can&#39;t help it and I have the worst craving for pickles?&amp;nbsp; I can sit there and eat a whole jar and then the puking starts.&amp;nbsp; Its horrible puking but at least good old R2 helps much in sucking out my gut!)&amp;nbsp; The heartburn is the worst pain ever!&amp;nbsp; But I still get the cravings?&amp;nbsp; Not sure why this is happening?&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m just this walking medical experiment that just keeps on going?&amp;nbsp; Many would have given up years ago but my bull headedness just won&#39;t allow me too!&lt;br /&gt;
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  617. I&#39;m also puzzled that I&#39;m on these heavy duty drugs that would kill a regular person and I have no idea why it hasn&#39;t done that to me yet?&amp;nbsp; I just keep on living and surviving what should be impossible?&amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Palliative-Care-Improving-Quality-Illnesses/dp/B003JBI4LY?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Hospice Care&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003JBI4LY&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; has been wonderful so far and I feel it&#39;s helping me and because of it I&#39;m not suffering as bad as I was.&amp;nbsp; I do love my new nurse and she checks on me every day to make sure I&#39;m OK.&amp;nbsp; We also met with a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Handbook-Chaplains-Comfort-My-People/dp/0809143860?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Chaplain&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0809143860&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; which was incredibly helpful.&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m not religious in any way; I do believe in the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Power-Simple-Prayer-about-Everything/dp/0446531960?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;power of prayer&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0446531960&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and good energy.&amp;nbsp;I just happen to worship my husband and can&#39;t help it.&amp;nbsp; He continues to  amaze me with his love and dedication to keeping me alive.&amp;nbsp; We do that  TPN ritual every day and he so supportive and amazing!) I just&amp;nbsp; love him to  pieces!&amp;nbsp; I do know that I&#39;m going somewhere and what ever happens will happen; I know it&#39;s going to be a good place.&amp;nbsp; It sucks that I&#39;m so young and having to deal with this.&lt;br /&gt;
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  619. I hope soon there will be enough awareness of this disease and that more women will catch it early rather than later as it is often misdiagnosed. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t believe that for 2 years my doctor had done just that &quot;your cervix is tilted?&quot;&amp;nbsp; So it was tilted because it had a big ass tumor in there that was tilting it?&amp;nbsp; What&#39;s done is done and I fault hard and am still fighting hard; more than likely I&#39;m going to be fighting till the very end.&amp;nbsp; The love in my heart is my strength.&lt;br /&gt;
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  621. Peace and Love to all you!&amp;nbsp; My sincere apologies if my rant offended anyone!&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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  631. We got to go to the doggie parade for a little while in the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.ci.los-altos.ca.us/&quot;&gt;Greedy City of Los Gatos&lt;/a&gt; (didn&#39;t get a ticket this time; what a miracle!), we watched several games of the world series together and even went on a bike ride around the block together.&amp;nbsp; He also helped out around my home but I hated when my severe pains would erupt and I couldn&#39;t do anything but cry and convulse.&amp;nbsp; It was so scary for my husband and my dad to witness and I tried so hard to hold it in but it was just too severe to do that.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s really weird that my pains have gotten so bad.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  632. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;My hospice nurse even turned up the dosage of my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Methadone-Maintenance-Treatment-U-S-Practical/dp/0826101305?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Methadone&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0826101305&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; to 1.5 Ml twice a day.&amp;nbsp; It worked for a little while but lately the pains have been through the roof.&amp;nbsp; I had been out of cannabis and a good friend stopped by with some and so far so good; it&#39;s working for the break through pain much better than the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0000545&quot;&gt;Dilaudid&lt;/a&gt;.&amp;nbsp; Sometimes if I am smoking the same strain of weed for a while, it sometimes looses its effectiveness much like this Dilaudid is doing.&amp;nbsp; This batch I have now is finally working on some of my nausea and spasms, yippee!!&amp;nbsp; Finally but it only works for a few hours, but longer than the Dilaudid.&amp;nbsp;&lt;br /&gt;
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  634. I try so hard to hold the severe pain inside so I don&#39;t freak out my honey or my dad.&amp;nbsp; Sometimes I just couldn&#39;t help it when the pain got up to a 10.&amp;nbsp; I couldn&#39;t breath and it felt like someone was just stand on my chest and oh GOD my back pain was excruciating.&amp;nbsp; If I were a dog in a shelter; there is no doubt in my mind that I would be put out of my misery, but the weird thing is; I don&#39;t care, I still want to live.&amp;nbsp; See how hard headed I am?&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m a glutton for punishment. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  635. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiDwF6moPMp-_ar_RAEV557yafZIBw49IE5LZhgslxbykl7BVoXAa0ieg53a9zR8dM6rUlh8F99f5-zRA8Ir6F6TMD8awPZDXzjdCw9Au9AAO4hyphenhyphenuyKDZo35IFRyw9FcCWr1ehMc6ZSKRtf/s1600/DSCN158020101002_154854.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiDwF6moPMp-_ar_RAEV557yafZIBw49IE5LZhgslxbykl7BVoXAa0ieg53a9zR8dM6rUlh8F99f5-zRA8Ir6F6TMD8awPZDXzjdCw9Au9AAO4hyphenhyphenuyKDZo35IFRyw9FcCWr1ehMc6ZSKRtf/s320/DSCN158020101002_154854.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;This little boy on this recliner; is a bad, bad, boy!&amp;nbsp; The final night that my dad was here; he got me a pumpkin in order to carve.&amp;nbsp; It seems this might just be my very last Halloween that I get to celebrate.&amp;nbsp; Well he also took Blue Belle and Tonto out for a late night walk just prior to him leaving (my sweet next door neighbor always lets him stay in his &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Spare-Bedroom/dp/B002CIFEEA?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;spare bedroom&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B002CIFEEA&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;). &amp;nbsp; It&#39;s so convenient being that he is just next door.&amp;nbsp; Our tiny little 1 bedroom loft isn&#39;t big enough for more than 2 people.&amp;nbsp; Well anyway, he had taken Tonto on a walk earlier in the day with out the leash (he followed perfectly) and I guess he figured Tonto could do the same at night&amp;nbsp; (be a good kitty).&amp;nbsp; The leash was on Tonto when they were heading out the door, but once they got out the door; my dad decided to unhook the leash with hopes that Tonto would follow him and Blue Belle.&amp;nbsp; Instead Tonto took off and decided to hide in the bushes for a while so that he could watch all of us look for him.&amp;nbsp; He is so &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Cherokee-Camouflage-Long-Sleeve-Hoodie-Sweatshirt/dp/B003QRL0BW?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;camouflage&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003QRL0BW&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;d at night and nearly impossible to see.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; It took us well over an hour to find him and it was very frustrating; calling out his name in hopes that we didn&#39;t awake any neighbors.&amp;nbsp;&lt;br /&gt;
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  637. My dad felt so bad but we told him to relax and we would find him. since he had to catch a very early flight in the morning.&amp;nbsp; I said my good byes and off we went searching for the silly bad cat.&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; My honey&amp;nbsp; was so stressed out and I was pretty scared; we didn&#39;t think we would ever see him again. &amp;nbsp; He is a very gentle sweet unusual cat that just about anybody might be able to snatch for their pet or for their &lt;a href=&quot;http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cat_meat&quot;&gt;stew&lt;/a&gt; (yes we have neighbors on the other side of the road that would do just that) .&amp;nbsp; Since he is a chubbers; he does have lots of meat on him.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I must have walked all over that complex carrying my heavy feed back at least 3 times (I more or less exhausted myself)&amp;nbsp; and being&amp;nbsp; completely out of breath at times; I still forced myself to continue on no matter what.&amp;nbsp; I had to find my strange kitty.&amp;nbsp; We looked all over the place and it was awkward having to call his name over and over again at around 10:30 - 11pm. I was so scared I would be waking others up trying to call his name when he usually will run right up to me when he does hear his name.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  638. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCNPDufENrsSsVi-w5NybrOJ2r1B2VOnCe_pSd5SHzfWuE9oOXJ90p0iKbt_FhLACJSSkQZdfZGtv7NIcmBVz7Qb56_6lPfGQhu61hWq8It9_B_wbRIOxfTPisD-ZcyIRwdPzllQzSQ88B/s1600/DSCN161420101021_205546.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;240&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCNPDufENrsSsVi-w5NybrOJ2r1B2VOnCe_pSd5SHzfWuE9oOXJ90p0iKbt_FhLACJSSkQZdfZGtv7NIcmBVz7Qb56_6lPfGQhu61hWq8It9_B_wbRIOxfTPisD-ZcyIRwdPzllQzSQ88B/s320/DSCN161420101021_205546.JPG&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Finally after about an hour and half of looking; my honey and I were about to give up, my dad was already getting ready for bed as we were still looking for him.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; My honey was so discouraged and sad about loosing our little fellow and he started rambling on about it that he didn&#39;t think we would ever see him again and then I just happened to look right next to us at this bush and Tonto was just sitting there as if he were laughing his ass off at us.&amp;nbsp; His face was so incredibly mischievous!&amp;nbsp; I had to tell my honey to shut it and to look.&amp;nbsp; We both were like &quot;you little ass hole!&quot;.&amp;nbsp; He was playing a game of &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/R-L-4102528-Safari-Monkey/dp/B000NU4JPY?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;hide and seek&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000NU4JPY&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and had successfully fooled all of us.&amp;nbsp; He must have been watching us look for him all that time.&amp;nbsp; My honey even had to go into to his job first thing in the morning, my dad needed to be at the airport at 5:30am and here it was midnight.&amp;nbsp; Blue Belle made no effort at all to look for Tonto; she was ready to be an only child!&amp;nbsp; We tried telling her &quot;Go Find Tonto&quot;.&amp;nbsp; Normally she can find a ball or a frisbee but not Tonto.&amp;nbsp; She seemed stoked that she might just be the only child!&amp;nbsp; It was almost like she was happy that Tonto was missing; she made no effort what so ever to find him; she may have even been in on the game that Tonto was playing with us?&amp;nbsp; So now we really have to try and train her to find him just in case he gets out again and pulls this shit. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  639. &lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;So my honey decided that Tonto is &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Grounded-Life-Season-Donal-Logue/dp/B000EQHXI2?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;grounded&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000EQHXI2&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; he can&#39;t go outside all this week. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Oh my honey was so mad!&amp;nbsp; He had too much to do to be looking for that &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Cat-Tricks-Silly-Stunts-Together/dp/0865532117?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;silly cat&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0865532117&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;! and he caused him some unneeded stress. &amp;nbsp; I actually think Tonto is getting the hang of this but if we ever do take him outside; he WILL have to wear a leash no matter what!.&amp;nbsp; He has been bummed that he can&#39;t go out the &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/PetSafe-Large-Freedom-Aluminum-Premium/dp/B000TZ8SC8?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;doggie door&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000TZ8SC8&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; but he&#39;s getting over it.&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s kind of like he knows he is being punished for being a bad boy.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; Only a couple more days and he gets his freedom back.&amp;nbsp; He&#39;s been doing a great job of taking care of me and staying at home where he belongs.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; He is always lying down on his recliner as its just right behind me where he can keep a close eye on me.&amp;nbsp; If I go upstairs; he will jump down and following me everywhere around the house.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  640. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjL-QxHSsurRTu9kmIM_JTzv6WDnhF0X6fYVNj5JwPGrP5PC3eDhCTNhn5hX4olXVOe9jlLILxysegi8LUN6w01hJGdhEdVR5Le7RVfjVec2qURZmUpOrGdsEJkvNJEO8FcZBJZNrb8QIn_/s1600/Gopher_2.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjL-QxHSsurRTu9kmIM_JTzv6WDnhF0X6fYVNj5JwPGrP5PC3eDhCTNhn5hX4olXVOe9jlLILxysegi8LUN6w01hJGdhEdVR5Le7RVfjVec2qURZmUpOrGdsEJkvNJEO8FcZBJZNrb8QIn_/s320/Gopher_2.jpg&quot; width=&quot;206&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;So far I am still suffering in lots of pain but the most embarrassing pain of all is in my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Diseases-Intestines-Lower-Alimentary-Tract/dp/1148182853?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;lower intestine&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1148182853&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; where they had sewn my intestine to make a colon.&amp;nbsp; Sometimes if feels as if I have a broken glass &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Douglas-Cuddle-Toys-251-Chuckwood/dp/B000BDNBZC?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;ground hog&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B000BDNBZC&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; trying to sneak out of my ass!&amp;nbsp; OMG does it hurt!. &amp;nbsp; Then there are those muscle spasms that happen on top of that which forces me to puke my brains out as I am trying to poo!(&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s a nightmare! &amp;nbsp; Please don&#39;t pity me for all this pain I suffer from; I just wish for everyone to be thankful for their own lives and to never ever take it for granted. &amp;nbsp; Life is such a wonderful gift!&amp;nbsp; For all those &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Mormon-Cult-Missionary-Reveals-Secrets/dp/1884365442?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Mormons&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1884365442&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; and &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Scandal-Evangelical-Conscience-Christians-Living/dp/0801065410?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Evangelical Christians&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0801065410&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; I feel compelled to say &quot;don&#39;t waste your life trying to run other people&#39;s lives, just allow them to live their own lives on their terms; not yours or how you interpret the bible; it&#39;s none of your business.&amp;nbsp; Instead, raise your own family, they need you! &amp;nbsp; Sorry I had to throw that in because of all these &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Scandal-Evangelical-Mind-ebook/dp/B003EO8ER0?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Evangelicals&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B003EO8ER0&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; who feel they can judge those who happen to be in love with one another.&amp;nbsp; You can&#39;t choose who you fall in love with; it just happens.&amp;nbsp; Yes, I&#39;m upset about gays not being able to be together legally.&amp;nbsp; They need protections just as we do.&amp;nbsp; Treat others how you would want to be treated!)&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  641. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;OK enough of that!&amp;nbsp; It&#39;s definitely OK to laugh at my situations as well; after all &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Laughter-Best-Medicine-Laugh-Out-Loud-Collection/dp/0895779773?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;laughter is the best medicine&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0895779773&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; ever.&amp;nbsp; My body is doing all kinds of weird things right now and sometimes things don&#39;t look so good for me; but I know I have the will live on!&amp;nbsp; Some days I feel strong and others it seems the end is just around the corner.&amp;nbsp; This is still a very, scary time for me; I haven&#39;t been crying as much as I was; but I&#39;m dealing with the reality of what is happening to me so much better. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  642. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjTFcuD1UUCMted-NVveYOpwD_UOGn4Q8KwqFW0FtRtmpZ549baO_nxrq4_E9oBRS2vRu-yfcszoD501me8kc8sKpcLF8GKCKvJKtoAtRNlnUbk0aA0mRAoBao_rNmk61C1YDOGe-7FqO00/s1600/susie_salmon.jpg&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;269&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjTFcuD1UUCMted-NVveYOpwD_UOGn4Q8KwqFW0FtRtmpZ549baO_nxrq4_E9oBRS2vRu-yfcszoD501me8kc8sKpcLF8GKCKvJKtoAtRNlnUbk0aA0mRAoBao_rNmk61C1YDOGe-7FqO00/s320/susie_salmon.jpg&quot; width=&quot;320&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I got to see the movie &quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Lovely-Bones-Saoirse-Ronan/dp/B001QOGYAO?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;The Lovely Bones&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B001QOGYAO&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;&quot; on HBO the other night and it dealt with a cute little 14 year old girl who had been murdered by her next door neighbor as she works from the spirit world to try and tell her father who had done it.&amp;nbsp; It got lots of horrible reviews but usually when that happens I end up loving the movie.&amp;nbsp; This movie absolutely blew me away and it was great because I followed it all the way through as if I were living another life!&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; It was very beautifully shot and a beautiful display of heaven; I hope (after all of this) I get reunited with all of my childhood pets including my horses (Hotchy, Graple, Ember, Sue Belle, and of course Skippy!).&amp;nbsp; I even had some cute little &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Pygmy-Goats-Management-Veterinary-Care/dp/0962453137?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Pygmy goats&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0962453137&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;; one which was pink and fluffy.&amp;nbsp; He was so playful and smart; he followed me everywhere.&amp;nbsp; I have also been reading a &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Horses-Mission-Extraordinary-Stories-Service/dp/1577316487?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;wonderful book about horses&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1577316487&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; that is really occupying my time; I&#39;m almost finished with it&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  643. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;I did talk with my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Living-End-Life-Addresses-Questions/dp/1402768389?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Hospice Nurse&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1402768389&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; today and hopefully we can get my pain under control.&amp;nbsp; The heartburn is hellacious!&amp;nbsp; OH it sucks!&amp;nbsp; I puked practically every 5 -10 minutes and my stomach today feels like I did 500 sit ups!&amp;nbsp; I&#39;m serious, if its not one things it&#39;s another.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; I am also supposed to get my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.mayfieldclinic.com/PE-PUMP.htm&quot;&gt;pain pump&lt;/a&gt; filled up this week (on &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Election-Day-Ready-Read-Level/dp/0689864256?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Election Day&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=0689864256&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt;!) of all days.&amp;nbsp; I can&#39;t wait until we get rid of these horrible pains.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
  644. &lt;/div&gt;&lt;div class=&quot;separator&quot; style=&quot;clear: both; text-align: center;&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhUcubRTFz4FGJIFYh5XSK2DgsSml7f9K86ppnEesPwC2z2gBPM2eRkxgsk8jdePlMjs2ppxWZLcGhcsP2kxWE1Lgc6VcCJkQnVPiE7PlnQPblemA4k5ZaB_7d5pR7cY6jZD7nvzu2RTO_-/s1600/Puff.JPG&quot; imageanchor=&quot;1&quot; style=&quot;clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;&quot;&gt;&lt;img border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;320&quot; src=&quot;https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhUcubRTFz4FGJIFYh5XSK2DgsSml7f9K86ppnEesPwC2z2gBPM2eRkxgsk8jdePlMjs2ppxWZLcGhcsP2kxWE1Lgc6VcCJkQnVPiE7PlnQPblemA4k5ZaB_7d5pR7cY6jZD7nvzu2RTO_-/s320/Puff.JPG&quot; width=&quot;294&quot; /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;Well I&#39;m over due on displaying another needy horse.&amp;nbsp; After reading this book my boss had given me; I just can&#39;t put it down.&amp;nbsp; &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/How-Think-Like-Horse-Understanding/dp/1580178359?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;Horses&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1580178359&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; really are special animals with a unique understanding of us; they are so much smarter than we give them credit for.&amp;nbsp; I almost feel they have &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Mountain-Mourning-Portraits-Traditional-Appalachian/dp/B0049YW6EQ?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;human spirits&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=B0049YW6EQ&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; with in them.&amp;nbsp; Well this is Puff and she is an amazing &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.amazon.com/Draft-Horses-Owners-Beth-Valentine/dp/1893707121?ie=UTF8&amp;amp;tag=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;link_code=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&quot; target=&quot;_blank&quot;&gt;draft horse&lt;/a&gt;&lt;img alt=&quot;&quot; border=&quot;0&quot; height=&quot;1&quot; src=&quot;http://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=cfd8046-20&amp;amp;l=btl&amp;amp;camp=213689&amp;amp;creative=392969&amp;amp;o=1&amp;amp;a=1893707121&quot; style=&quot;border: medium none ! important; margin: 0px ! important; padding: 0px ! important;&quot; width=&quot;1&quot; /&gt; mare.&amp;nbsp; She is very friendly with people; she is hard to halter, but once she is; she will lead and follow you.&amp;nbsp; She might be deaf which makes her a special project for someone who can give her the unconditional love she deserves.&amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; She is about 10 years old and her adoption fee is only $800.&amp;nbsp; You can also sponsor this horse and cover her food costs.&amp;nbsp; Every little bit counts for these loving, beautiful horses.&amp;nbsp; You may contact Jennifer Johns or Cheryl Forbes (805) 938 -0174 or email: &lt;a href=&quot;mailto:animali@aol.com&quot;&gt;animali@aol.com&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style=&quot;text-align: justify;&quot;&gt;&lt;br /&gt;
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