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<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8"?><rss xmlns:dc="http://purl.org/dc/elements/1.1/" version="2.0"><channel><description>/vΙͺvΙͺΛsΙkΚ(Ι)n/ (noun): The action of cutting into or dissecting a living body for a scientific purpose, such as examination of nervous systems.</description><title>πππππππππππ</title><generator>Tumblr (3.0; @user-manual)</generator><link>https://user-manual.tumblr.com/</link><item><title>i&rsquo;m doing art streams!!! on discord!!!</title><description><p>β« πͺπ²π°π¦π : bogos binted - kaj strife x 2a03fox (ida deerz remix)<br/>β‘ πͺπ¬π¬π‘: Ξ΅===(γ£β§γ―β¦)γ£ hyper</p><p>I&rsquo;ve been rather preoccupied with finishing my ref sheets as far as art goes, and have found myself wasting waaay too much time looking at social media instead of doing things i actually like. So to counteract this, I&rsquo;m trying to bring the social to me, if that makes sense. What I&rsquo;m saying is pleeease please please join my Discord server where I do art streams and listen to music &lt;3 please &lt;333</p><p>I stream every Saturday night ~9pm CST, that&rsquo;s Sunday morning ~10am if you&rsquo;re AEST like me, and occasionally during the week if I find myself with days off and time to kill. I really enjoy streaming but I HATE streaming platforms like Twitch and Youtube, where you can get obliterated for copyrighted music and have chats full of people who don&rsquo;t want to do anything but spam. (Trust me, I&rsquo;ve tried streaming on Twitch, it&rsquo;s a horrible place and I hate it so much.) I would much rather be in complete control of who&rsquo;s even allowed in my space in the first place. Also I have an auto-mod bot that insta-bans people for racial slurs so don&rsquo;t even try.</p><p>After I finish this ref sheet, I&rsquo;ll start re-designing my old fursonas, it&rsquo;s gonna be so much fun!!! You can queue whatever music you want, or if you don&rsquo;t want to be verified to use the music bot, just ask me to play something and I will take your request (: </p><p><a href="https://href.li/?https://discord.gg/uMQVKXZs9R"><b>Well come on!!! Get in here!!! Please join I will love you forever</b></a>, <a href="https://href.li/?https://discord.gg/uMQVKXZs9R"><b>and ever and ever and ever</b></a></p></description><link>https://user-manual.tumblr.com/post/681583822293352448</link><guid>https://user-manual.tumblr.com/post/681583822293352448</guid><pubDate>Fri, 15 Apr 2022 03:49:45 -0400</pubDate><category>personal</category></item><item><title>new button and about page!</title><description><p>β« πͺπ²π°π¦π : melissa - pornograffitti</p><p>β‘ πͺπ¬π¬π‘: (ββ§ββ¦)βββοΎ.*ο½₯ο½‘οΎ artistic</p><figure data-orig-height="31" data-orig-width="88"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/e6c18f0a82c5b596daafb529355656f0/cc27cf515e93c998-6b/s640x960/824dc56a65e78926bfe912ae2c3349da80e0687b.gif" data-orig-height="31" data-orig-width="88" srcset="https://64.media.tumblr.com/e6c18f0a82c5b596daafb529355656f0/cc27cf515e93c998-6b/s75x75_c1/1592c22075231a9ea6cfc9109b1ce634275c0d39.gifv 75w, https://64.media.tumblr.com/e6c18f0a82c5b596daafb529355656f0/cc27cf515e93c998-6b/s100x200/263675934327f714724e6c97ac015a41f11ffa05.gifv 88w" sizes="(max-width: 88px) 100vw, 88px"/></figure><p>YESSS!!! I&rsquo;m so happy with this new button! It&rsquo;s 45 frames, which might not seem like much, but it&rsquo;s the most complicated thing I&rsquo;ve ever done, and I&rsquo;m especially happy with how it loops! ^_^</p><p>I also just completed <a href="https://ahaunted.site/about.html">a new about page</a>, which is linked to my Neocities. I thought about porting it to Tumblr, but with the way Tumblr pages work, it would be waaay more difficult than it&rsquo;s worth honestly. Also, I like to have as few about pages as possible, so it&rsquo;s easier to keep track of and update them. I started leaving my specific age vague on said pages for that exact reason. Maaan, I never thought I&rsquo;d get old enough to tire of updating my age on all my about pages every year. I&rsquo;m 24 now as of yesterday! &ldquo;Mid 20s&rdquo; gives me like two or three more years before I have to update them all again XD</p><p>That&rsquo;s all from me today! See ya!</p></description><link>https://user-manual.tumblr.com/post/680582346961993728</link><guid>https://user-manual.tumblr.com/post/680582346961993728</guid><pubDate>Mon, 04 Apr 2022 02:31:44 -0400</pubDate><category>website</category></item><item><title>new blog feed finished!!!</title><description><p>β« πͺπ²π°π¦π : dariacore 2: enter here, hell to the left - leroy<br/>β‘ πͺπ¬π¬π‘: οΌΌ(οΏ£β½οΏ£)οΌ accomplished<br/></p><figure data-orig-width="1051" data-orig-height="939" class="tmblr-full"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/3f6358e88344f6c4f83896f975446752/75b38f735d4d741c-97/s540x810/ea465bb69ec12e33818e1b7f4eaba023843211e7.png" alt="image" data-orig-width="1051" data-orig-height="939"/></figure><figure data-orig-width="1037" data-orig-height="809" class="tmblr-full"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/f7a99733f37447c98942ea03132fc1d7/75b38f735d4d741c-8e/s540x810/ba7c8991a44e43acd5752223969098e66facb5c5.png" alt="image" data-orig-width="1037" data-orig-height="809"/></figure><p>I tried my absolute hardest to recreate the Livejournal Flexible Squares layout. The CSS elements generated by Feed2JS is a bit limited, but I uh, made it work the best I could. Holy shit this is janky. Feast your eyes on this absolute garbage fire of code:</p><figure data-orig-width="532" data-orig-height="508" class="tmblr-full"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/d8c37c01f723b098bccae03c037b7e52/75b38f735d4d741c-2b/s540x810/0b26e21091b9fe9ab68c8b5007bcf9647ac5b84f.png" alt="image" data-orig-width="532" data-orig-height="508"/></figure><p>So I have a tag that will target any link with &lsquo;post&rsquo; in it, which works since every post title is a link back to the Tumblr post. HOWEVER. If I, for any reason at some point during the future, want to use any link that happens to contain 'post&rsquo;, I will have to put it through a link shortener so it doesn&rsquo;t contain 'post&rsquo; and won&rsquo;t be styled like the title.</p><p>Ahhh I love awful terrible CSS. This is the digital equivalent of duct tape. I didn&rsquo;t have to edit any Javascript in the end (although really I should have but shhh), this will be much less awful when I port it to the Tumblr theme because I can choose what order to display elements in so I don&rsquo;t have to do things like <i>negative margins.</i> I really prefer making things scaleable and responsive to multiple screen sizes and not overly-specific &ldquo;-51px&rdquo; shit, but eh it&rsquo;ll work. I&rsquo;ve spent the past three days on this though so the Tumblr theme will have to wait, I have a killer headache and I&rsquo;m going to go eat weed about it.</p><p>OH ALSO! The &ldquo;friends&rdquo; page will soon have links to other sites/blogs! And I probably broke my &ldquo;about&rdquo; page when I deleted all the Zonelets stuff&hellip; Sorry, oops. I decided to switch to Tumblr so I don&rsquo;t have to worry about images taking up space on my Neocities, so I can host all of my artwork in the future on my own website. I&rsquo;m still working on the ref sheet I promise! I just got sidetracked by the prospect of Blog because I saw <a href="https://learn.sadgrl.online/the-easiest-way-to-make-a-blog-on-neocities/">this post</a> by sadgrl.online and I knew I had to jump on that. Ok going to take a nap byebye</p><p>EDIT: I lied itβs just as janky on Tumblr. LOL oh well, if it works then it works! Lots of things in here are link classes, but at LEAST thereβs no stylized link parsing. And here I have the added benefit of tags! Yay!<br/></p><figure class="tmblr-full" data-orig-height="791" data-orig-width="377"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/2fa5cabdafc8c7ccbe4b0d04301ca4da/75b38f735d4d741c-98/s540x810/507e198d4a33d4147e1bb65a3bd6f22e93106b4a.png" data-orig-height="791" data-orig-width="377"/></figure></description><link>https://user-manual.tumblr.com/post/680020730646249472</link><guid>https://user-manual.tumblr.com/post/680020730646249472</guid><pubDate>Mon, 28 Mar 2022 21:45:05 -0400</pubDate><category>website</category></item><item><title>hi (NOT CLICKBAIT!!!)</title><description><p><b>β‘ πͺπ¬π¬π‘:</b> (*ΛοΈΆΛ*)ΰ₯.ｑoO thoughtful</p><p>I&rsquo;m having a difficult time staying alive right now. My cats think it&rsquo;s attention time because I stood up from my chair to hit the bong, so they&rsquo;re scratching the trim to get my attention and my instinct is to yell &ldquo;STOP!&rdquo; and then I end up choking to death on smoke. PLEASE pray for me and make me more powerful.</p><p>Last night I ended up watching the entirety of <a href="https://href.li/?https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UvYcunuF3Eo">this youtube video,</a> a 2hr 30min video essay about <i>Inside</i> by Bo Burnham. It&rsquo;s one hell of a video, touching on topics like transhumanism, the modern horrors of late stage capitalism, and uh, just about everything else. I&rsquo;m stuck on the proposition, &ldquo;We are already cyborgs, living inside the internet, through our phones; it doesn&rsquo;t have to be a chip implanted in your brain.&rdquo; That&rsquo;s a bit paraphrased, but this absolutely struck me! I have always felt that I lived here, that these online spaces were my homes, and here I am literally in my home on the internet. And he just put it into words like that! It&rsquo;s true, we do live our lives through the internet now. As much as I dislike Twitter, if I deleted it, I would NEVER know what&rsquo;s going on. I found out about the mask mandate returning in my state through the Twitter trending page, and it had a wealth of information that I could fact-check at my leisure. I simply do not watch the news on TV! I trust information more this way, where I can easily see and research the sources, so I can know if I&rsquo;m being told the truth or not. News from the people is more important than anything corporate-owned talking heads have to say. <br/> Β Β Β Β Β Β I spent the earlier part of my day at work being deeply upset, frequently hiding around corners and going to the bathroom to tweet about why I was upset, because if I had to hold it in I would literally explode into tears. Then I spent the rest of the day anxiously checking my phone, hoping to see someone respond to me so I didn&rsquo;t feel like I was screaming into the void. It wasn&rsquo;t until I clocked out and went home that someone responded, and for some reason that upset me even further. I thought &ldquo;Hey, this is not normal! Wait, yes it is.&rdquo; LOTS of people do this because <i>we live on the internet, and this is real to us.</i> It&rsquo;s kind of embarrassing to admit to, because &ldquo;haha it&rsquo;s just the internet&rdquo; - to some extent, sure that&rsquo;s true, but it is difficult to deny the very real way in which it&rsquo;s changed the way we socialize as a society. Everyone is online now, to the point that the POTUS account on Twitter is always passed on to the next president. My younger cousins ask me if I have Snapchat instead of asking for my phone number, because that&rsquo;s how they keep in touch with people. When I move overseas, I will have to figure out a way to speak to my entire family <i>online</i>, keeping in mind their varying degrees of technical knowledge, since international texting/calling fees are insanely high.</p><p>Anyway, this video struck me on a deep and personal level, brought up lots of my fears and anxieties, and made me think about an uncomfortable amount of things. It&rsquo;s extremely long and fast paced but incredibly worth the watch. I somehow learned a lot about myself while learning about Bo Burnham, and CJ has SO MUCH to add to the conversation presented in Burnham&rsquo;s work.</p><p>Here, have a picture of one of the two devils trying to kill me. This is Kissy investigating a rubber band that we left on the table after unwrapping our new bong (we broke the last one). Everyone say hi to Kissy!!!</p><div class="npf_row"><figure class="tmblr-full" data-orig-height="419" data-orig-width="623"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/6f6cd4d0120cfa7a78220e0365370927/1e90e02fa20f5c27-8d/s640x960/4d8005fa9cb22cc5c56c5e6a4ffd659c435aa922.png" data-orig-height="419" data-orig-width="623" srcset="https://64.media.tumblr.com/6f6cd4d0120cfa7a78220e0365370927/1e90e02fa20f5c27-8d/s75x75_c1/802ea6535701dd3087ea5c356a7a0bd2a5cd8055.png 75w, https://64.media.tumblr.com/6f6cd4d0120cfa7a78220e0365370927/1e90e02fa20f5c27-8d/s100x200/bead2ad9acc2f1bd6ca25e1c4e5e9d963692fb8b.png 100w, https://64.media.tumblr.com/6f6cd4d0120cfa7a78220e0365370927/1e90e02fa20f5c27-8d/s250x400/40f3824e51252be24c54c3b0b23e66af24067072.png 250w, https://64.media.tumblr.com/6f6cd4d0120cfa7a78220e0365370927/1e90e02fa20f5c27-8d/s400x600/a4e416353e4e7cd87dd163629a3fc2819759e954.png 400w, https://64.media.tumblr.com/6f6cd4d0120cfa7a78220e0365370927/1e90e02fa20f5c27-8d/s500x750/28b66ffab46e5db2dfca72f71e923cf451b278c4.png 500w, https://64.media.tumblr.com/6f6cd4d0120cfa7a78220e0365370927/1e90e02fa20f5c27-8d/s540x810/a964ff676395fb5f334e9541a0c42dee6e16fdd9.png 540w, https://64.media.tumblr.com/6f6cd4d0120cfa7a78220e0365370927/1e90e02fa20f5c27-8d/s640x960/4d8005fa9cb22cc5c56c5e6a4ffd659c435aa922.png 623w" sizes="(max-width: 623px) 100vw, 623px"/></figure></div><p>(Originally posted 27/08/21)</p></description><link>https://user-manual.tumblr.com/post/679677541097832448</link><guid>https://user-manual.tumblr.com/post/679677541097832448</guid><pubDate>Fri, 25 Mar 2022 02:50:14 -0400</pubDate><category>personal</category></item><item><title>i&rsquo;ve had way too much caffeine</title><description><p><b>β‘ πͺπ¬π¬π‘:</b> /α . ｑ.α\α΅α΅α΅Κ·ΛΛΛ mischievous<br/><b>Γ π©π¬π ππ±π¦π¬π«:</b> my chair at my desk in my house on planet earth</p><p>If I continue to drink Mountain Dew, I will probably become a can. Or a mountain.<br/> Β Β Β Β Β Β Wow!!! Christmas!!! I got weed (legal), a huge fluffy black robe, candle, and a back stretcher thingy that I&rsquo;m supposed to lay on to fix the horrible clusterfuck that is my spinal cord. I spent like four hours watching Christmas movies with my parents, then we went home, and now I am here on my computer at midnight. I drank more soda to motivate myself to finish the laundry - which I DID, BTW! I DID IT! - but the way caffeine affects me after like 2pm is&hellip;Not Great. I feel like I could fight anybody in the universe, but I&rsquo;m so exhausted I don&rsquo;t have the brainpower to fix the webpage I&rsquo;ve been working on for the past three days ):&lt; Why won&rsquo;t my buttons just be buttons&hellip; If they are buttons why can&rsquo;t I <i>click</i> them&hellip; what the HELL!!! GRR!!!</p><p>I had very ambitious goals for my website at first, but I quickly had to accept I would have to learn a stupid amount of Javascript to make it the way I wanted, and I really do not want to do that! There&rsquo;s just no other way to make a webpage that would function the way a Flash game would&hellip; but I think I can make something just as good. Certainly it won&rsquo;t have the point-and-click adventure feel to it that I originally imagined, but it will still have an element of exploration, and I think that&rsquo;s what matters. I was going to have my background images be overlaid with invisible buttons that would cover an area of the image so it would seem like clicking on the object in the background; e.g. an invisible box overlays a door in the image, click on the door and the link embedded in the invisible box will take you to the next room, as if you clicked on the door and walked through it. In actuality, it is ridiculous to do this and would require an insane amount of formatting, and I am not confident that it would look the same across all devices. This would also be completely useless on mobile, and as much as I want to go back to ye olden days of desktop-only, I have to accept we are in the age of the smartphone now.</p><p>I love working on my website! I&rsquo;m gonna be really sad when my little Christmas break is over, and I have to go back to working full time /: Callout for My Job: sucks, is too long, makes nearly no money, I could be at home doing things I like but instead I need to be fed to the Capitalism Machine, and I am just one tiny grain of rice in the grand scheme of things.</p><p>Anyway here&rsquo;s what I thought of the first time I walked into the dispensary. HYAAA!!!</p><div class="npf_row"><figure class="tmblr-full" data-orig-height="270" data-orig-width="500"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/f0e16df4060b99835e19a1782ae81fc0/eb900702040904ba-a8/s640x960/a80dec5c8a820c3242d8ea6018f7ec79b5069344.jpg" data-orig-height="270" data-orig-width="500" srcset="https://64.media.tumblr.com/f0e16df4060b99835e19a1782ae81fc0/eb900702040904ba-a8/s75x75_c1/6e944add14723717396c209efe242a83ad55deb8.jpg 75w, https://64.media.tumblr.com/f0e16df4060b99835e19a1782ae81fc0/eb900702040904ba-a8/s100x200/5aad2236b8013ea3dfdd17fb153a6b116a3a88c9.jpg 100w, https://64.media.tumblr.com/f0e16df4060b99835e19a1782ae81fc0/eb900702040904ba-a8/s250x400/7edf9d9599757401f1c2b427315d1a541635c6f9.jpg 250w, https://64.media.tumblr.com/f0e16df4060b99835e19a1782ae81fc0/eb900702040904ba-a8/s400x600/5666b753999c19a761a5f0d926764909370f5dec.jpg 400w, https://64.media.tumblr.com/f0e16df4060b99835e19a1782ae81fc0/eb900702040904ba-a8/s500x750/1c967f8df7ba87313b7a0fb7f833a1a17c61f49e.jpg 500w" sizes="(max-width: 500px) 100vw, 500px"/></figure></div><p>(Originally posted 25/12/20)</p></description><link>https://user-manual.tumblr.com/post/679677229341523968</link><guid>https://user-manual.tumblr.com/post/679677229341523968</guid><pubDate>Fri, 25 Mar 2022 02:45:17 -0400</pubDate><category>personal</category></item><item><title>music and physical spaces</title><description><p><b>β« πͺπ²π°π¦π : </b>Swamped - Lacuna Coil</p><p><b>β‘ πͺπ¬π¬π‘: </b>β«κ°ο½₯β‘ο½₯ΰΉκ± nostalgic</p><p> Streaming services SUCK and I hate them! It&rsquo;s like reading a book on your phone. Yeah, it technically works, but how do you form a relationship with it if you&rsquo;re not holding it in your hands&hellip;? Putting a CD in and listening to an album is a completely different experience to streaming something. I think it&rsquo;s really nice to sit next to a boombox and just listen to a CD for a while, especially if there&rsquo;s a lyrics booklet, and then I can become completely absorbed in the music with no distractions.</p><p> I LOVE CDS!!! I don&rsquo;t care that they expire!!! They will live forever in my heart. I think the way I feel about physical music is completely intertwined with my memories of the physical objects themselves. When I was younger, it was a huge deal to be able to buy a CD, and I still have a lot of those CDs to this day, even if I don&rsquo;t like them anymore XD The story of <i>how</i> I got the CD is inseparable to the music contained within! <i>Fallen</i> was one of the first albums I ever bought with my own money. It was on sale at Target for $5 and I <i>begged</i> my mom to let me buy it. I couldn&rsquo;t believe it would be disgraced to the clearance rack&hellip; I saw it and thought &ldquo;I&rsquo;ll save you!&rdquo; Until this point, I had been listening to the same 5 Evanescence songs on endless repeat: Going Under, Bring Me To Life, My Immortal, Everybody&rsquo;s Fool, and Call Me When You&rsquo;re Sober. I put them directly onto my <a href="https://href.li/?https://www.reddit.com/r/tech_house/comments/p3yus7/can_anyone_identify_this_model_of_mp3/">dinky little MP3 player</a> after my uncle so graciously allowed me to browse his definitely pirated collection of music on his computer. Getting an <i>entire album</i> of Evanescence was just crazy! I put it in my boombox, sat down with my ear directly next to the speaker, and stared intensely at the lyrics booklet, determined to memorize the songs on the first listen. It was ritualistic.<br/> Β Β Β Β Β Β For the longest time, I didn&rsquo;t have the chance to discover music through TV (we had bunny ears due to living in the middle of nowhere) or internet (dialup until 2011 because again, middle of nowhere). The only way I could listen to music was by radio or borrowing CDs from friends and relatives. I still feel the urge to ask people if I can borrow their CDs whenever I see a stack of them somewhere. I&rsquo;ve found some great music through the internet, like through Youtube recommendations, but it is still not the same as finding gems in someone else&rsquo;s music collection! Then, music becomes a social experience as well, which I find myself sorely missing. I can&rsquo;t bring myself to just order a CD online, it&rsquo;s not the same at all. Sure, I could look on Amazon and get a physical copy of <i>Three Cheers for Sweet Reveng</i>e, but if someone didn&rsquo;t gift it to me, what&rsquo;s even the point? You know? It feels&hellip;meaningless. I need to have an experience attached to it, a memory of someone, of a certain precious time and place. It&rsquo;s called BONDING!</p><p> Even the experience of listening to an album is like visiting someone else&rsquo;s home. There is an entrance, a secret room, an attic, living room, basement&hellip; Listening to <i>Fallen</i>, it felt like I was transported somewhere else, but I somehow knew exactly where I was, and proceeded to make a map of sorts of the album in my mind. Going Under is the entrance (first track), Bring Me To Life is the living room (everyone knows it and it&rsquo;s classic), Taking Over Me is like a secret room (hidden gem), My Immortal is like a&hellip;bath. Just the bath, not the room, essential and cleansing. Tourniquet is the basement because it is so&hellip;cold and distant and I don&rsquo;t want to visit it often. It&rsquo;s the kind of place I wanted to hide as a teenager. I would find myself crying to the song on repeat, wishing there was somewhere even more private than my bedroom; wishing I could disappear into the song entirely.</p><p> I wish more people felt this way about music&hellip; I don&rsquo;t like the push towards streaming, it&rsquo;s so grossly impersonal - not to mention the issues with paying artists or taking the content you&rsquo;ve paid for offline ): If you buy physical music, you have it forever! No one can ever take it away from you! No Spotify playlist can top the feeling of taking your garbage Windows XP laptop to your uncle&rsquo;s house, with the entire external disc drive, and flipping through <i>three</i> massive CD binders that people used to keep in their cars, and guess what? He has every Korn and Slipknot album. You desperately try to rip them all to the laptop before you leave so you can listen to at least one of them on the three hour long drive home. While you are waiting for your overheated, overworked disc drive to rip them to .wma, you open MS Paint and draw a few Warrior Cats pictures with the shape tools and paint fill bucket. HAHAHA I know my experiences are not universal, but I do know everyone, as a child, had something they loved more than literally anything else in the whole world, and would do anything for it.</p><p> I still have that awful laptop. It hasn&rsquo;t worked off of battery power in years, ever since a power surge absolutely FRIED the battery. It has been through so, so much. The other day I tried to back up my music library on it, but it could only fit about 20 albums on it, even though there was literally nothing else on the laptop. Wow! My music library is larger than the entire system memory of a Dell Windows XP laptop. 13 year old me would be absolutely in awe at the amount of music I have heard today.</p><p>(Originally posted 19/12/20)</p></description><link>https://user-manual.tumblr.com/post/679676836564942848</link><guid>https://user-manual.tumblr.com/post/679676836564942848</guid><pubDate>Fri, 25 Mar 2022 02:39:02 -0400</pubDate><category>music</category><category>personal</category></item><item><title>I HATE DRIVING</title><description><p><b>β‘ πͺπ¬π¬π‘:</b> (αα£α)Υ distressed</p><p><i><b>I HATE!!!!!!!! DRIVING!!!!!!!!!!</b></i></p><p> Why do I live in a society that values individuality over literally everything else!!! I hate cars, and I hate driving them, and there is NO REASON for me to have to drive because BUSES LITERALLY EXIST! But nooo, the government would never spend money on infrastructure, nooo they wouldn&rsquo;t <i>dare</i> piss off car manufacturers and dealerships, or tip the iceberg of the fossil fuel industry - no fucking buses for you unless you live in a huge city, and even then they still SUCK. We NEED to clog the roads with 50 cars each with one person driving in a single vehicle, instead of 50 people on ONE bus. Right that makes sense. &gt;_&gt;</p><p> Cars and insurance are both way too expensive. I have been driving the same car for the past 5 years under my parents&rsquo; insurance, so the car isn&rsquo;t even in my name. If I were to get a new car - not a brand new car, even just a used one - I would have to register it under my own name and pay for my own car insurance, which would be&hellip;with car payments factored in as well&hellip; at least $300 a month. And I&rsquo;m expected to pay for health insurance on top of that?! HA! I don&rsquo;t even make $300 in a single paycheck, but I&rsquo;m still not qualified for government assistance because I &ldquo;make too much.&rdquo; <br/> Β Β Β Β Β Β Β ANYWAY, my car is old as balls and cannot get up to speed like everyone else&rsquo;s can. I can&rsquo;t go above 40mph in drive, I have to shift into overdrive to do that. I also can&rsquo;t speed up while in overdrive, so I have to just slam the gas and be patient, meanwhile everyone behind me is pissed off and keeps passing me. And I know <i>logically</i> that being passed is not the end of the world, literally everyone does it, but it stresses me out so fucking much? No matter how fast I drive, there is ALWAYS someone passing me. I could go 70 in a 45 and someone will pass me doing 90. WHY!!!??? I can&rsquo;t help but count the cars that pass me even though it kills me to pay attention to that and I keep taking it as a personal failure. Even though I literally cannot help the way my car works, also probably nobody cares. Yet I am so convinced that everyone on earth knows I am in this car and hates me for going so slow. Just give me a SECOND!!! A FUCKING SECOND!!! AAAAAAAAA<i>AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA</i></p><p> My car is also very small and low to the ground, so I am unable to drive at night because everyone&rsquo;s bright ass LED headlights are DIRECTLY IN MY EYEBALLS. Did you <i>get</i> the <i>darkness</i>? Did you <i>see</i> the <i>road</i>? Huh bitch?! Because I SURE DIDN&rsquo;T! I tried to put on some Evanescence to calm down on the way home but fuck it did not work at all and I am still so stressed out from just going to the mall. :| A little cringe.</p><p>(Originally posted 16/12/20)</p><p>(ADDENDUM 25/3/22: Turns out I was driving with my parking brake slightly on. Sooo no wonder my car wouldn&rsquo;t speed up, because it was literally trying to stop the entire time. Oops! I don&rsquo;t know how I&rsquo;m alive!)</p></description><link>https://user-manual.tumblr.com/post/679676081466376192</link><guid>https://user-manual.tumblr.com/post/679676081466376192</guid><pubDate>Fri, 25 Mar 2022 02:27:02 -0400</pubDate><category>personal</category></item></channel></rss> If you would like to create a banner that links to this page (i.e. this validation result), do the following:
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